Chapter 4The fever doesn’t return for the next two days, but I don’t get a result of my test either. “It’s very frustrating, I know,” Julian says, “but in all fairness, lots of people are getting tested now. The labs are all backed up.” I know this, of course, the news reports on it daily. They also report on falling numbers overall, and Julian hasn’t seen a death in days, so it’s all very encouraging. And for the most part, I manage to stay positive. If I allow myself to yell my frustration in the shower, no one but me will know. On the second day after the test, one of Julian’s colleagues calls in sick, and he needs to work overtime on the night shift. So when we meet outside the morning three days after my test, he’s exhausted and half asleep on his feet, and I keep our interactions