The lake house that grandpa left for me was about a 2 hour drive from where we currently live. Well, where Kyle, Mia and Lucas lived. For the first time, I felt like that wasn't my home. Come to think of it, a lot of what has happened recently hasn't been my decision. I didn't decide to move from the apartment after Mark got arrested, they decided for me. They bought the houses. They made most of the decisions for me. After the accident, they decided things for me. I took my hand and rubbed my tummy, holding back the tears in my eyes. I was not going to shed anymore. I needed to be strong. I needed to be tough. I needed to hold myself together for me and my child. It was me and this baby against the world. Lucas didn't want the baby. He told Mia that. I remember the conversation because