knew the moment that I sent that letter to Alena I f****d up. I didn’t really know what else to do. She said she would wait for me and I will always love her for that. When I was told that we were getting deployed, I want so desperately to tell her I was going to war, but the guys that did a couple of tours convinced me to let her go, this way, in case something happened, it wouldn’t come off as much of a shock. They didn’t know Alena like I did though. They have heard me talk about her time and time again, I knew that she would be more hurt for me not telling her, but I was stupid, so I said goodbye.
I wrote that letter crying. I tried to hold in my tears but I couldn’t. I rubbed my hand over the anchor tattoo that held her initials. She will always be a part of me.
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