Embracing Khaos

Anastasia's POV Walang emosyon kong pinagmasdan ang mga basag na bote sa lapag. I sighed and closed my eyes. Darkness. The whole house is surrounded by darkness. I love how eerie the vibe is. How does the beautiful and lively castle turn into this? A death and creepy castle. How come that the beautiful flowers are all dead in just a snap? Kasabay nang pagkamatay ng mga ito ay parang nawalan na rin ng buhay ang lahat. I opened my eyes and smiled. Umupo ako at kinuha ang basag na bote. Should I die too? Should I end my life too? Everything comes to their end but I am still stuck in this dark hole. Itinapat ko ito sa aking pulsuhan at marahang itinusok sa aking pulso. Ngumiti ako when I saw the blood rushing in my hand. Nang makuntento ay pinagmasdan ko ang sugat sa aking kamay. Blood. I can't feel anything except hatred. Nawala ang ngiti sa aking labi. Binitawan ko ang basag na bote at saka tumayo. Hinayaan ko lamang ang dugo sa pagtulo. I'm not going to die in this small cut. Is this a freaking curse? Pumunta ako sa veranda ng aking kwarto at pinagmasdan ang kadiliman. The silent night is killing me, it's silent yet deadly. I'm like a princess who lives in a castle. But unlike any princess, I don't have a happy ever after. I don't have a prince to save me. I'm the witch who cursed the beast. I'm the villain of the story and I'm not the princess who was waiting for a kiss. Bumaba ang tingin ko sa puting dress na suot ko. It's now a bloody dress. I smiled and lick the blood on my wrist. If someone will see me, they will run because of fear. "What the heck, Anastasia?" Nilingon ko ang kaisa-isang babae na pinagkakatiwalaan ko. She's wearing a black dress and a black hat. Tell me, is she my grim reaper? "Mikayla," I emotionless said. Bumaba ang tingin nito sa damit kong puro dugo at sa kamay ko na may sugat. She closed her eyes like she's holding her anger. Mabilis itong kumuha ng panyo at itinali sa pulsuhan ko. "How many times do I need to tell you to stop doing this? Mauubusan ka na ng dugo dahil sa ginagawa mo!" She shouted. I laughed. "I've done it many times and I still have blood, and I'm still breathing." Tiningnan ko ang kamay ko na may panyo na. "It's f*cking hard to be your assistant. Don't stress me out, you b***h!" Ani nito. I just looked at her. "How's the company?" Tanong ko at tumingin sa labas. Ilang taon na nga ba? Ilang taon na ‘kong hindi lumalabas sa kulungan na ito? It's been six years and I'm wondering what is happening outside. What it feels like living with humans? What it feels like laughing with other people? "Stable. You know I'm good at it, but of course, we have the same problem. Your uncle is one of a hell pains in the ass. He's convincing the shareholders to pull out their stocks if you don't show up." She spoke. Isang ngisi ang sumilay sa aking labi. "Ask him if he's ready to face the monster inside this castle. Tell him I can't wait to see him and tell him that I can't wait to bring him into chaos." "What's your plan? Are you finally going to show up, after six long years?" She asked. Tumayo ako at pinagmasdan ang aking sarili sa salamin. Am I finally ready? "Wrong question. The question should be, are they ready to see me after long six years? Are they ready to face hell?" I smiled devilishly in the mirror. I look like a doll. A creepy doll. "Tsk, lumabas ka na ng lungga mo. It's been years, Asha. Face the world and face your fear." Tinapik nito ang braso ko at lumabas na. Nanatili akong nakatingin sa salamin kahit kanina pa ito nakalabas. They are wrong. I'm not afraid to face the world or even face my fear. I'm more afraid of what I'm capable of. They are so eager to see me but are they ready to face me and meet me? Are they ready to meet, Anastasia Rael Knight? "Dawn! Stay here, I'll be right back. Ate will be right back, okay?" He looks at me with his innocent eyes and nodded. "I will wait for you, Ate!" He smiled and caress my cheeks. I smiled back and kissed him on his forehead. Inayos ko ang kumot at ikinumot sa kanya. Hinawakan ko ang kamay nito at mabilis na lumabas ng kwarto. "Mom! Dad!" I shouted at tumakbo palabas. Nanlaki ang mata ko dahil nakahiga na sa lapag ang mga ito. Puno nang dugo ang mga magulang ko. Mabilis akong tumakbo palapit sa mga ito habang umiiyak. "M-mom, D-ad?" Nanginginig na lumuhod ako upang hawakan ang kamay ng mga ito. They smiled despite the tears in their eyes. "Anas-tasia, princess. R-run, baby. Sav-e yourself and save you-r brother." I sobbed because of what my mother said. My father shook his head and caress my cheeks. "D-dont cry, you wi-ll always be our b-rave princess. Go, b-baby!" He commanded bag umubo ng dugo. Mas lumakas ang iyak ko dahil sa paghihirap ng mga ito. "N-no! I will protect you. Mom, Dad!" I cried and hold their hands. "Oh, the brave princess is here." Nilingon ko ang lalaking may takip ang mukha. He's holding a knife at mabilis na lumapit sa'kin. "No! R-run, princess!" nahihirapang utos nina Mom at Dad but I remained emotionless. I need to be brave and protect them from this bad guy. I looked at him with anger in my eyes. He laughed. "What a brave young lady. Too bad, you need to die too." He threatened. "And after that, I will kill your brother, too." Dahil sa galit at kinuha ko ang kutsilyo sa lapag. Tumayo ako at mabilis na sumugod palapit sa kanya. "Argh! You useless kid!" Daing nito at tinulak ako dahilan para mapaupo ako sa sahig. Takot na tiningnan ko ito, nasaksak ko ito sa hita. Nanlilisik na tumingin ito sa'kin at saka lumapit sa akin. Unti-unti akong napausog palayo, ngunit huli na. He's now in front of me. Napaigik ako dahil sa pagsabunot nito sa akin. "You brat, papatayin kita!" He shouted and the next thing I know, he already stabbed me in my stomach. "N-nooo!" Tumulo ang luha sa mga mata ko. Wala akong nagawa kung hindi pagmasdan ang mga magulang ko na mawalan ng buhay. I sobbed because of the pain. "Don't cry, your brother is next." He said at naglakad na paakyat. Umiling ako. "Dawn! R-run, run!" Tumulo ang luha sa mata ko at unti-unting pumikit. All I can hear is the murderer's laugh. "I hate when someone is crying on my birthday. F*ck this useless human." Kahit masakit at pinilit kong imulat ang aking mga mata. Kahit malabo ay nakita ko ang sang lalaki na may suot na suit. He's looking at me coldly. Inabot ko ang kamay ko rito at nagsalita. "H-elp m-me," Humahangos na bumangon ako. Isa-isang tumulo ang luha sa mga mata ko. When will this nightmare stop? I want to forget that night badly. I want to forget them. Am I bad? I sobbed and hug myself. It's already dawn and I can't help but cry like a baby. "D-dawn." I cried calling his name. Where are you now, Dawn? Are you mad at me for leaving you? Are you mad at me for being a useless sister? Nanginginig na inabot ko ang larawan nito sa tabi ko. Hinaplos ko ito hanggang sa unti-unting napatakan ng luha ang larawan. "Where are you, Dawn?" Please, come back. Come back to me." I whispered while crying. That night. That night was the most tragic moment of my life. I can't sleep because of it, and I'm suffering because of that memory. Am I bad for asking the universe to remove that memory? Am I bad for wanting to live freely without those f*cked up memories? I stopped crying when I remember something. That man. He's the reason why I'm alive. I know he's the reason why I'm still here. No one believed me when I said that. I know it's not hallucinations. I know he's real, he's like a grim reaper. With that black suit and silver hair. He looks like death. When I stare into those eyes for a moment. I know it feels like death. But, who is he? After that night the parents of, Mikayla found us in this castle. My parents are dead and my brother is missing. They thought I'm dead but they said I'm still breathing. I'm still breathing during that time. The biggest mystery in my life. Hinaplos ko ang tiyan ko. I'm f*cking sure that the killer stabbed me. He stabbed me in my stomach but how come. How come that I don't have any stabs or scars on my stomach? Tumayo ako at kinuha sa ilalim ang kahon. Kahon na naglalaman ng damit ko noon. Bakit ngayon ko lang ulit naalala. Ang gabing 'yon na nagdudulot sa akin ng sakit. I caress the bloodstain in my white shirt before. The proof that the killer stabbed me and the wounds just vanished. That night is a total mystery for me. That night where I was born again.