I couldn’t understand what had come over me. This need to protect Joel somehow seemed more important than protecting myself. Let me tell you, protecting myself was all that I ever cared about. Honestly, I was probably one of the most selfish people that I’ve ever met. I didn’t give a damn of what anyone thought of me, seeing as how I’ve always been the outcast in any setting that I’ve ever been to.
It probably wasn’t the most ingenious idea to even tell Joel about the call from Nick, but it was somewhat hard to hide when my stomach decided it was going to betray me right in front of him. I was a good liar and could usually come up with a lie right there on the spot but for some reason, lying to Joel just felt wrong.
All my life, I have felt like this b
