Jumping into another date with Joel was the last thing I wanted to do, but I owed him after what he did for me. Now I was extremely nervous even to walk the streets of LA, seeing as how Nick could appear out of the shadows. Knowing Nick, he would take any opportunity that he could to go after Joel now that he embarrassed him. Served him right, though.
I declared that after this date with Joel, I would end things between us for good. It wasn’t right for me to continue to lead him on when I knew that I didn’t feel for him the same way he did for me. Don’t get me wrong, the feelings were there, but I wasn’t attracted to the sweet Joel. Trust me. I wished that I was. Going for the bad boy has never worked out that great for me. A good guy was just what I needed, but I
