I wish he had said something before. I do not know if I can take this alone. Make no mistake about it, because I will be alone. Well, I have Heath and Von, I am sure, but I am struggling not to just ask Christian to come and get me. I just wanted a mate, to love me and I wanted a few pups, and this is the second bad hand that I have been dealt. This is not fair, but when in the last 6 years has it been? I have dealt with more pain than a person should have, and I am still here. I will cry now because when I get there, she will not be seeing me cry. I will take in all that she hits me with, and then I will decide how I want to move forward.
If it is bad enough, I will just reject him and then go back home. I feel like I need to message Christian now, but I am sure that he will get dad and
