chasing demons. ***completed***

#10 releasing control

Emma could feel something jerking beside her. she looked over at her clock. 3 am. she rubbed her eyes as she heard him scream out into the night. " No! man down!" she realized what was going on. it was Dan and he was dragged into another nightmare. she came over wrapping her arms around his body and using her naked body to weigh him down.

she ran her fingers in his hair as she spoke softly to him. " shhhh, it's ok. I'm here. you're OK. I need you to open your eyes." she watched as his body softened beneath him. she could feel his arms wrapping around her waste. his eyes fluttered open and she laid her head on his chest listening to his rapid heart beat. " it's ok. I'm here."

"I'm sorry." she could hear his raspy voice whisper out to her. she could feel the shame in his words.

"no, you don't apologize. just hold me." she was still on his chest as he held on to her for dear life. the memory of his nightmare flooding his thoughts. in the height of his despair he could feel a new feeling brewing inside of him. he had a need to have her next to him and not let her go. he felt her body moving causing him to become erect again. the friction of her movements on his body made him come alive. she sat up straddling him as she lifted her body and placed herself on top of him sinking down and moving her hips. "mmmmm, that feels so good. let me help you take it all away."

he felt his need for her deepen and he started moving and thrusting up into her as he watched her head tilt back and her milky breast bounce up and down. he reached up using his fingers to roll her n*****s and pinch a little as he thrust deeper into her. up and down. her walls were sucking him in and he felt her tighten around him as she grew closer. their pace quickened and he felt himself trying to hold back waiting for her to orgasm. " I can't hold back much longer." his words sent her into over drive as she screamed out and he followed her into a never ending feeling of pleasure. he felt himself jerking inside her as he came down from his high. "you are so incredible. I feel like I'm in a dream."

" nope. I'm real." he was still inside of her and she was still straddling him. "so is this what friends with benefits do?"

he looked up at her with a scowl on his face. " we are definitely more than friends with benefits. there is no way I would do this with Kevin." she giggled still on top if him.

"ok you win. I definitely don't want to see you do this with Kevin. and if I'm being honest I kind of don't want to see anyone else doing this with you either."

"I definitely don't want to do this with anyone else other than, my girlfriend."

she looked at him a little confused. " you said you didn't have a girlfriend." she started to raise off of him.

" I didn't. things have changed."

she gave him a crooked grin. " you mean you want to be my boyfriend? isn't that kind of fast?"

"I don't know what this feeling is between us but I can guarantee you this is more than friends or friends with benefits. and I definitely don't want you doing any of this with anybody else. so yes my girlfriend. I hope you feel the same way."

" what about you leaving?"

" I don't think I could leave you even if I tried at this point."

" what about my son?"

" if you decide I would love to meet him. get to know him. I already know one thing."

" what's that?"

" if he is anything like you. I am gonna love him." her eyes grew wide. was he saying he loved her? could he love her? could she actually love him after knowing him such a short amount of time. one thing she was certain of was she couldn't imagine being without him now. he was like a drug.

" Come on we need to get some more sleep. I am exhausted!" the night was clear and the moon was bright. she laid down in his arms her hair spread out on his chest. he could feel his hands trace up and down her arm. she lifted her head up slightly to look at him. " dan?"

"I was very serious. I want this to be more. I want this to be a relationship. I want to have you as my girlfriend." he could feel her relax and nestle back onto his chest.

" ok. but if you ever hurt my son. I couldn't ever forgive you. I know he will love having you here and if you plan on leaving we have to end this now before you hurt him." she felt his arm grow tighter around her.

" I don't plan on messing this up. can you handle all my demons? I thought I could leave them in the desert but some seem to have followed me in my nightmares. I guess the demons will always chase me."

"then let's make a point to chase the demons together one at a time. you will need to be honest and open and not hide anything from me. I will do the same. "

" if it ever becomes too much for you," he took a deep breath in and then let it out. " you have to promise you will tell me. promise me." he looked pleadingly into her eyes.

"it won't. I do promise though. if it gets to be too much what will you do?"

"whatever you need me to do even if it totally breaks me to do it. you are completely in control here. something I have never given to anyone else ever in my life." He could feel her breathing slow and the soft noises of her sleep filled his ears. he knew he meant what he said. he would give her anything she needed no matter what it meant for him. he would give her control over him. He laid there holding her listening to her breathing softly until his eyes closed and he drifted off to sleep. It was a deep sleep that he hadn't had i a long time. A feeling of contempt washing over him and filling him with a peace he usually never felt. He didn't even know it was possible for him to feel this anymore. He wasn't sure he would ever feel peace again. He knew he would do anything to keep her there in his life and next to him always. He liked the feeling she gave him and the security that filled him when he was with her. She gave him life. She had gave him hope. A hope he thought he lost. He no longer felt lost with her there and he liked feeling like he was doing more than just existing. He was living.