Kelsea N: I'm really sorry about what happened at my apartment. I've never allowed a woman to sleep over, because I was scared of what would happen. When I was a teenager, I would wake up with my hand tight around a pillow. I've never given myself a chance to see what would happen with someone else…until you. K: I told you, I'm not upset with you, I'm sorry you have those memories and I would do anything to help you get over them, if you would allow me to. I bite my thumb nail, wondering how he's going to respond to what I've said. With him, I'm not ever sure how he will react. N: Shrinks don't work with me. Back when I first came to live with my parents, they sent me to a shrink, who put me on some medication. The medicine took away my feelings totally. I was like a zombie and I hated