Everything Breaks

Myles

The warm water soothes the still-bleeding mark. I can't help but feel scared of how much my life is changing. My mind is racing about meeting my father for the first time, leaving the only place I know as home, and being in a relationship, knowing I will have to marry Kollin when I didn't want to commit to a relationship with Myles for years. The thoughts swimming around in my head make my wolf mad. I try to make her see why I can't do it, but the anger intensifies into a war inside my mind.

(Kollin's POV)

I rub her back while she stands in the water; a faint blood and water mixture comes from her neck. "We shouldn't have done this; she's hurting," my wolf says in the back of my mind. "I told her we should wait, and she didn't want to," I responded angrily. I didn't want to hurt her, but Scarlet doesn't know that she has only seen my wolf's side; he is sweet and gentle, but that's not me. I close my eyes and concentrate on the bond to hear her thoughts and feelings. Her mind is blurry, which usually happens when there are mixed feelings. She is still determining if she wants to marry me?! I keep digging and see Myles in her thoughts. Why is she thinking about Myles when we are in the shower together? My heart begins racing, and I feel my eyes darken. My wolf tries to reason with me, but I am too furious with someone who is supposed to be my mate.

I know we still have a lot to learn about each other, but I can't help but feel unwanted. I exit the shower without saying a word, trying to control my anger. I quickly get dressed and walk outside to the front of the apartment, where our bikes are parked. I sit on my bike and try to devise a plan to get her to come with me back to the pack lands.

Nature has a way of balancing things out, which is almost comical at this point. I have a naturally toxic way of thinking, but my wolf is the opposite; he analyzes details and tries to understand. I am dominant, and he is co-dependent, as is Scarlet. In her thoughts, I could see that she is independent and strong, while her wolf is very co-dependent and only wants my wolf. Everything should be okay if I can get her to the pack lands. She has to agree to come with me and leave this life behind her, but how do I get her to do that?

(Scarlet's POV)

I feel Kollin trying to comfort me by rubbing my back, but all I can think of is how much I will miss my apartment, job, and friends—especially Myles, who has always been there for me. I don't want to just up and leave him, at least not without saying something to him. What would I tell him?

A weird feeling hit my stomach. The feeling was hurt, but it wasn't me feeling it. I turned around, and Kollin was getting out of the shower. What did I do to make him feel hurt? I rinsed off one more time and got out. Kollin was nowhere to be found in the apartment, so I quickly put clothes on and brushed my hair. I walk outside to see if he is still here. He was quietly sitting on his bike and looked deep in thought.

"Are you okay?" I asked, concerned. "Yeah, I just needed a minute to think. How do you feel about visiting the pack with me for a few days? I will bring you back here if you don't want to stay after a few days. If that happens, I wouldn't mind leaving the pack and staying with you." He responded. He definitely didn't want to waste time, and what he said sounded heartfelt to make me feel more comfortable. "That sounds good; I just have one request," I said happily. Kollin finally looked at me, "What's that, Luna?" He said, half smirking. " I want to meet up with Myles and Aiden before we go. I'm sure they already think something is wrong with how we both left last night without saying anything," I said, laughing. Kollin's face tenses; his eyes darken slightly and then return to the usual green.

"I don't have real feelings for him, Kollin. I told you that. Myles has always been there when I had no one else. I'll go alone if you have a problem with it," I snapped. Kollin stood up from his bike, maintained intense eye contact, and walked up to me. Grabbing my face, he whispered, "I told you, you are mine. If you need me to clarify what that means, then I will take you back into that apartment and show you, and it won't be anything like this morning," he finished with a smile. I couldn't help but like the jealous side of Kollin; maybe I wanted him to take me back inside. "but for you, little Luna, we can go for a little bit, and then we need to get on the road. You can't tell him about everything, but you could tell him that your father reached out, and I offered to take you to see him," he said calmly.

I am starting to see different sides of Kollin; he is caring but also has a dark, possessive twist. "that's fine. Do you want to be my backpack?" I asked jokingly. " You must want me to take you back inside, huh?" he smirked. "Not now, Alpha... we don't have time for that," I said while putting on my helmet and getting on the back of his bike to be his backpack. He happily growled at the sound of being called Alpha. I texted Aiden and Myles in the group chat and told them to meet me at a little ice cream place because I had some crazy news to tell them. On our way to the ice cream place, I felt at peace and excited to go to the pack lands!

Aiden and Myles were already parked when we pulled up; Myles did not seem happy, which I knew would probably happen. "Hey guys!" I said, smiling. "I was going to ask what happened to you last night at the meet, but now I see," Myles said passively. We started walking over to a picnic table out front to sit down. "It's not what you think, Myles. I found out some pretty life-changing news last night," I said. Aiden smiled, "Yeah, she's pregnant, bro," he said, laughing. Myles's head snapped to me quickly with concern because he knew I hadn't been with anyone else but him. "Nooo, Aiden, I would be losing my mind! I found out who my father is, and I'm going to see him for a few days!" I said, excited.

Aiden smiled and said, "That's crazy! I am happy you found him!". Myles looked relieved that I wasn't pregnant. "Good, I know you've always wanted to know more about your parents," Myles responded after Aiden. Myles looked over at Kollin and then back to me, "are you taking your bike to see him?" he asked. Kollin finally chimed in, "I offered to take her so she doesn't have to put extra miles on her bike." Myles nodded, "Scarlet, can we talk for a second?" he said, looking at me. I stood up and walked with Myles about ten feet from the table. "Are you sure you want to go with him? He's a little weird, and I don't want anything to happen to you. You haven’t known him long".

My wolf instantly became defensive because he was talking about our mate. "Nothing is going to happen, Myles; you need to chill out. Kollin is actually really nice," I said, defending Kollin. Myles grabbed my hand firmly, "I just care about you, Scarlet, and I don't have a good feeling about this," he said quietly. I could feel Kollin's stare burning a hole through me. "We should get going, Scar, if we want to make it there before it gets dark," Kollin shouted from the table.

I pulled away from Myles, "I will be fine, I promise," I said before walking over to Kollin's bike. Kollin handed me my helmet and whispered, "Sorry, Luna, I could feel your anger and didn't want you to say something you shouldn’t". I smiled. I was happy he did that because my wolf was not pleased, and I don’t know how to fully control myself yet. We headed back to the apartment, long enough for me to grab a bag of clothes for a few days, and then we started on a 3-hour ride to the pack lands!