TWICE BURNED: SHAOSHANG'S SECOND CHANCE

CHAPTER 2

SHAOSHANG'S POV

I don't know what's wrong with me. I told Alpha Jackson that I will be waiting for him to make a decision but now I want to be in his arms. How am I going to show him that I'm not going to have a problem with him taking his time to make a decision?

I don't want to seem weak. If he decides to divorce his wife, I will be his Luna. How am I going to be a Luna if I can't even make up my mind about what I want?

I know that this is normal, he is my mate after all. I can't deny the attraction I feel towards him but I can at least learn to control it.

My life is already a mess and I can't complicate it any further. If I do something that I will regret later, I have no one to support me and I don't want to be all alone.

I know that I've been all alone but at least I had people around, people to talk to even if they weren't nice, at least they were there. If they think that I messed up their Alpha's marriage, they will hate me even more. I don't want any of that.

I noticed that my room smells like him and even though I want to deny it, it feels nice to have his scent around me. His scent somehow calms me, it gives me comfort.

I decided to do something with my time, staying in the room for hours doing nothing gets boring. I wonder how these rich people do it.

No, I'm not criticizing them but I wonder if they don't get bored since they have people doing everything for them. I have done nothing for two weeks but I am already suffocating.

I made my way to the backyard, the sun shining bright and its feeling just right on my face. I don't remember the last time I was out just to feel the sun on my skin. To be honest, I had never.

I decided that it was a good idea to shift and give my wolf a well deserved run. I went to the woods and found a tree and stripped my clothes and put them there.

I shifted into my grey wolf and ran around for a few minutes before a large black wolf joined me. I instantly knew who it was even though I had never seen him before. Even the air around him matched him.

I decided to play with him. I gave him a sign and he understood it right away.

We ran for what felt like hours before we shifted back to our human forms. To be honest, I didn't think much about it because wolves don't care about being nude but the look Alpha Jackson gave me made me realize that it was a bad idea.

Before I knew it, I was pinned to a tree and Jackson's lips on my lips. The way his hard chest pressed my breast made everything magical.

"Are you testing me?"

"Huh?"

"Why did you shift in front of me?"

"Why did you shift in front of me?" I asked him back.

He just laughed and kissed me again. "I see you've grown."

"What is the meaning of that?"

"What is the meaning of what?" He didn't stop kissing me, not that I wanted him to stop. I like the way his lips feels like in my neck.

"You said I have grown. What do you mean by that?"

"Nothing. Just that you now have the courage to be sarcastic with me. I never thought I'd see the day when you could do that."

"I've always been like this, but you wouldn't know that because you've never seen me."

He stopped the art he was doing with his mouth and looked at me.

"I have always seen you, Shaoshang. I know it might not sound true but it is. I just didn't show it you and I'm sorry.

"I know you might never forgive me or forget about it but I will do everything in my power to make sure that you never feel alone or lonely."

I don't know how to react to that. I have always seen him grumpy. This new side of him is difficult to understand.

"You know, I have been thinking about how foolish I've been these past few days. If I didn't get married to Alexa, I wouldn't have to choose. I wouldn't be in this mess."

I hate it when I hear someone mentioning her name. When I didn't know that Alpha Jackson is my mate, I was confused as to why I hated that girl.

Now I know the reason. Sure she bullied me too since she came into this house but at that time, I really thought that I hated her because of that.