Cold yet warm.... Soft yet hard.... But in all of these, I could still pick his minty taste thtough the kiss.
My brain has gone fuzzy.... I was too shocked to push Jameson away.
I was f*****g being kissed! By non other than my roommate! And this is my first kiss!
As if coming to the realization that my first kiss is being snatched away by a fellow guy, I quickly came back to my senses and pushed Jameson with all my strength which thankfully was successful this time and I quickly got down from the bed and moved very far away from it and from Jameson
I furiously cleaned my hurting lip as I looked at Jameson still feeling shocked at what just happened
How could he kiss me!
He's straight and so am I so why?
" Why the f**k did you do that Jameson! Why did you kiss me!" I yelled furiously.... I was angry... Very angry.
How could I loose my first kiss to him, a guy... Throughout the years of our relationship, I have never kissed Sena for once.... Not because I didn't want to but because I didn't know how to and Sena had said we should take it slowly and shouldn't kiss untill we at some certain level.... But now, I've just shared my first kiss with a f*****g guy!
" See I'm sorry Tommy... I'm sorry I took you unaware but I just couldn't hold it any more" Jameson replied getting down from the bed wanting to move closer but I quickly moved backwards making him halt on his steps. He had a pained look on his face but I do not care!
" Exactly! Why couldn't you bear it anymore and kiss me! Have you been having weird imaginations of kissing me? Because I see no reason why you would kiss me like that!" I yelled out whatever that came out of my mouth carelessly not putting much thought into it
" Yes you're right, I've been having weird imaginations about you... Not only to kiss you but to bend you over my reading table and f**k you into Oblivion" his reply made my face pale from shock...
The heck! So.... So he has really been having weird imaginations about me... I just said those words out of anger not knowing he really has been having weird imaginations about me. I was stunned into silence, not knowing what to say
" I know this might come as a shock to you but that's the truth" he said and then continued
" See Tommy, I like you.... No I mean I'm in love with you, I am madly in love with you Tommy, I really am. But you've never seen me as a lover but just a friend and I don't want that"
" The only one you've ever noticed was Sena... Everytime Sena Sena Sena! You are so obsessed with Sena and kept on mentioning her not knowing you were hurting me in the process"
" You think it was easy to pretend I accept your relationship with anyone that is not me? I don't! Seeing you being all cozy with Sena makes me so jealous that I started hating on Sena"
" I thought she was also in love with you untill I saw her with some other guy so I started paying attention to her movement and realized that she never loved you but was just using you... I was happy that atleast she felt nothing towards you... Call me selfish I don't care"
" Aren't you curious about why I finally decided to expose her? It's because I was fed up with how you keep acting with her! I was tired of it and wanted to separate you guys so I sent you that picture"
" And now that she's out of the picture, I'm going to have you all to myself.... I'm never going to let you slip out of my hands ever again"
His words kept shocking me that I was even more than flaggerbasted right now.
Did he just confessed that he loves me? Like Jameson loves me???
It should be known that this guy who just said he loves me right now is a f*****g womanizer!
Dude chases everything underneath a skirt! His type of girls are girls with big boobs and breasts.
He never goes a day without bedding nothing less than 2 girls from campus. I have even complained at his choice of lifestyle but the reply I always get frim him was 'p***y is life'
As if knowing what I was thinking, he quickly tried explaining himself
" I know you might be thinking about my sexescapes with those girls but the honest truth is that those were just facades..... I'm not into girls..."
" I know how much you hate gay guys so I decided to hide my sexuality from you by using those girls to deceive you and every other person"
" If you don't believe me now huh, I'm going to prove myself to you"
Before I could even digest his confession, he has already pulled out his phone and dialed a number which he put on loudspeaker....
The conversation between him and the girl shocked me to the core... He called upto five girls and the things they said were different but all pointing at one direction
He was saying the truth! He has never really slept with the girls... Just paid them to stay with him for a few hours nothing more!
Now I was even more shocked.... So I've been leaving with a gay guy all these while, not just any gay but one that is in love with me!
No wonder he always look at me with those affectionate gaze.... No wonder he always act like I'm his property!
I now understood all his actions towards me... Even though I had felt he was gay because of the way he acts towards me, I had completely trashed the idea thinking it was just him being caring
It's all now rushing back to me like a heavily blow...
I staggered back unable to ascertain all of this information.... They were too much to bear
There's nothing I hate more than gay.... I find them disgusting and irritating.... But now, I'm entangled with one that is obsessed with me
" Get out!!!" I yelled out not able to take it anymore.... I couldn't stand being in the same environment with him.... He's disgusting
I'll make sure I move out of this apartment first thing tomorrow morning.....
Jameson stood still not moving an inch, in fact it was like I didn't say anything because he stood rooted not batting an eyelid
I figured out he was still going to prove stubborn even in this situation and he wouldn't leave so I decided to leave for him instead
But before I could even touch the door knob, I was already dragged back into a warm embrace
" Where do you think you're going to? I told you I'm never gonna let you go and I mean it... I don't care if you hate gay or not , I don't care if you find me disgusting... But one thing I care about is that I'm going to make you mine wether you like it or not" and with that he took my lips into his again