The Hidden Soul

Chapter - 2

Caroline's POV :

It was finally dinner time.

We all were sitting on the dining table and having our dinner.

Meanwhile, I said, "Dad, tomorrow morning I'm going to get a mirror for myself."

"What? you are still not done with the shopping?", my dad said.

"Sorry dad, I missed to buy a mirror. I had written it in a paper and.... ", by the time I could finish dad Interupted saying, "Okay, okay, please go and finish it up soon."

"Yes dad, thank you. ", I replied.

My mother was staring at me as if I had done a sin. I was glad that I had got the permission to go out the next day.

Two hours after the dinner we went to sleep. I was excited but still nervous and I was unable to sleep. I wanted to talk about my feelings to someone but I had no one to talk to. I thought of calling Jack but I did not want to disturb him. I was trying to sleep and then finally after a long time I slept off.

Morning my eyes opened while my alarm rang. It was 6.00 a.m.

The audition was at sharp 10:00 a.m.

I wanted to get up early and get prepared and reach on time. I began getting ready. I had to do my make up like a model which I remembered in the morning.

As soon as I rememberd about that I started panicking because I did not have a mirror in my room. I was so busy in being excited that I forgot that I did not have a mirror. I was worried how to get ready.

But somehow I had to get ready so I decided to sneak into my parents room and get ready and do my make up. My father and mother would wake up around 5:00 a.m. After that they would be busy in their chores. I was waiting for my dad to leave the house and my mother to go to the kitchen.

Few minutes later,

I finished my work and it was time for me to get ready. I saw that my father had already left and my mother was busy in the kitchen.

I realised that was the right time. I slowly went to their room and got ready. I utilised my makeup skills and did my best to look good and stylish. I took almost half an hour to get ready. Once I was ready it was time for me to leave. I did not want my mother to look at me.

If she would notice me then she would ask me many questions about my makeup and my clothes which I did not like. So, without informing to her I went out of the house.

I carried an extra t-shirt and a bottom wear with me so that I could go to the mall and change my cloth in the washroom over there, just to be safe while returning back home.

Sigh.

I climbed the auto nearby and went to the location where the audition was to be held.

It was a very new experience for me and I had no much knowledge about it. I did my own research and reached there.

I had reached the location earlier. I was glad that I was not late. I was ready to wait but not make them wait. While I was sitting in the lobby and waiting for the audition to begin I could see that there were many other girls entering. I learnt that they were also their to participate in the audition just like me.

When I looked at them I felt they were more experience and better than me.

My confidence starting shaking a bit as I was a fresher with no experience. It was a very new experience for me and I did not have anyone with whom I could ask guidance from.

I did not lose hope. I decided to give my best and participate confidently.

Though I was saying I did not care about the results, deep inside I wanted to get selected.

Few minutes later.

When it was sharp 10:00 a. m. people were called one by one. I was on number three. A few minutes later, my number was called. I went inside and gave my audition with full confidence. I forgot all my anxiety and gave my best. I answered all their questions and followed their instructions.

It was a reputed company and if I would get selected there I knew I would get N number of opportunities in my career.

That's why I wanted to get selected there regardless of the restrictions at home.

It was a mixed feeling because I was unable to guess if they would select me or reject me.

I did not think deeply about it. Once I was done with my audition I just came out of there.

Later, spoke to one of the staffs over there. While talking I learned that a few of the people were getting selected on the audition day itself right after their audition.

Few of them were already selected and only few were required. I realised that I was not selected on the spot but still there was a small hope left because they would select few more people after all the auditions were completed.

There was lots of ups and downs going on but I decided to leave from there as I did not have any other work to do over there.

When I came out of the audition room I noticed there were many other rooms too.

The note on one of the doors read as, 'changing room'. It meant people were allowed to change and get ready there before and after the audition.

I realised I could have changed there itself instead of sneaking into my mother's room. However, I went to the room and changed my clothes and wore a comfy over sized t-shirt and a bottom wear that I had carried with me.

I also cleaned my face because I did not want to keep the makeup on.

My next task was to find my dream mirror.

So without any delays I left from there in order to hunt for my dream mirror. I had a few shops in my mind so I decided to go to those shops and look for the kind of mirror that I wanted.

I did not have a personal vehicle so I had to use auto and bus to travel everywhere.

I was dreaming about the moment when I would get successful in my career and have all that I wanted.

Meanwhile, I travelled by auto and reached to one of the shops that was on the top of my list.

I went there and explained them the kind of mirror that I wanted.

They took me inside and showed all the types of mirrors that they had.

But none of them matched as per my dream mirror. They did not even have an option to customize the design.

That shop was out of my list.

I again went to another shop. But I was unsuccessful there too.

It was not that easy as I thought.

I tried searching the mirror in many other shops but I was unable to find the exact mirror.

I was upset. But I was not ready to give up.

As it was already late that day I decided to go back home and try hunting for my mirror the next day.

So, sadly I returned home.

As soon as I entered the house my mother said, "Okay, so finally you are back home. Why are you so late? Did you order for the mirror? "

"No Mom, I went to different shops and searched for the kind of mirror that I wanted but I did not find it at all. They did not even have an option to customise it. So I was unable to find that Mirror today but I will try to find it once again tomorrow. I am sure I will find it soon, somewhere or the other.", I replied with a low voice.

"Oh God! you are unable to do one simple work, Caroline. Why are you having so much complications in selecting a mirror? Why can't you just select one simple mirror which you can find in the shop easily? Why are you behind a kind of mirror that doesn't exist at all?", my mother showerd her question angrily. I looked at her with sorrowful eyes.

"Mom please! the mirror exists and I will find it soon.", I said and ran to my room.

I could hear my mother murmuring but I did not respond and stayed quite.

I was sitting alone in my room. My eyes were moist. I was unhappy with whatever was going on. Nothing was going right at that point of time. I just felt I had been a failure in my personal and professional life.