Chapter 4
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As our tongues battled for domination, the image of my mother crossed my mind in just a few seconds. Still, it was enough for me to snap back to my senses and push Killian away from me.
“What's this?” I asked him with a mocking grin. “I thought you never loved me and yet you act like you are craving for me. What an amusing behavior, Killian.”
I did not want to show him that he still had me wrapped up around his thumb after the betrayal he did to me. I wanted to show him that I simply kissed him back to test him if he was still into me. And I definitely felt it... that was the kiss he gave me before when we were still so f*****g in love with each other.
But instead of seeing him all flustered, he returned an even more annoying smirk.
We wiped off the edge of his mouth and replied, “It is you, Daphne, who still hungers for me. With just a simple kiss, you gave in even if you knew that I am your stepfather.”
“You were my lover before that!”
“Were, Daphne, were. It's past tense. It is a good thing you accepted that already. Now, get your ass out of this place and have dinner with me and your mother.”
After saying that, I watched his back as he strutted out of my apartment. Hearing the door automatically lock itself, I slid down on the floor gripping my hair. I could only shut my eyes with the hope of not letting another tear drop but it was just impossible... too impossible.
Killian had been my life for the past years. My world revolved around him... we planned our future, our wedding, and how many children we wanted to have. I did not know where our relationship went wrong but he suddenly backed out and married my mother. He did not give me the time I needed to process his decision and simply left me dumbfounded.
He moved on while I was still stuck at the time when we were dating. It was hard. I thought that if we see each other now, I would be prepared to hold my head up high and greet him as if we did not spend our past as lovers. However, our encounter just now just proved that I was wrong. I still did not move on... I still f*****g love him.
Heaving a sigh, I went to the bathroom and doused myself with cold water. It helped me calm down, thus, I changed into a simple casual outfit—a black sleeveless cropped top paired with a dark mini-skirt. Looking at my reflection on the mirror, I nodded as a self-encouragement before leaving my apartment.
Heading to the parking lot, I was taken aback to still see Killian waiting near his car. He opened the door to the front seat and motioned me to get in.
“No, thanks. I can drive,” I stated as I walked towards my car which is, unfortunately, just beside his.
I was about to open the door but he slammed his hand over it, shutting it back close. Still, he hovered over me so near that I can smell his intoxicating scent. Not wanting to give in to the seemingly irresistible temptation, I pushed him away but he would not even budge.
“When I say I will drive you there, all you have to do is nod your head. I do not want you to act so rebellious.”
After saying that, he gave me no time to fight back as he grabbed me by the arm and forced me inside. It seemed like he was not yet satisfied that he pushed his body over mine and simply used the seatbelt as an excuse to do that. When he managed to put the seatbelt over me, he looked at me while I stared down. Him being this so close to me was a weakness I cannot possibly overcome. And what made it worse was that he seems to know about it and was teasing me as much as he pleased.
“Taming you is so easy,” he snickered which totally pissed me off.
I lifted my gaze and locked eyes with him. As he gave me a mischievous look, I returned a deadly glare and smirked.
“I know right. It is so easy that any man can get me.” I softened my expression. “Satisfied?”
“Are you telling me that you slept with other men?”
“So what? It is none of your business.”
He chuckled as if he really does not care about it. But then, my heart almost skipped a beat when he suddenly drew closer that our noses were touching. It was as if he was still teasing to kiss me.
“You did not let me f**k you within the years we were in a relationship. Interesting.”
When he was about to close the gap between us, I immediately shut my eyes with the thought that he was going to kiss me again. However, a few seconds passed and all I heard was the door shutting. When he sat on the driver's seat, he was shaking his head with a smirk plastered on his lips.
Fuck him!
On our way, we were both quiet not until Killian broke it.
“This CEO you are dating, did you meet him overseas?”
“No. I met him the other day.”
For the second time, he chuckled. It may sound amusing to him but it is more amusing to me. If he thinks I cannot play dirty and still act like a damn saint like before, well, he is totally wrong.
“So it's just a fling, huh.”
“Of course not,” I negated. “That was just how exactly we started, wasn't it?”
“Then, are you trying to make him like me?” There was a hint of arrogance in his voice which simply pissed the s**t out of me.
But then again, I had to calm down and play with him in this game. If I get mad, that would mean that I lost.
“No. I do not want him to be like you who leaves me hanging without any explanation and marry my mother. That is just so sick.”
Somehow, that rendered him quiet. Good for him. Stealing a glance in his direction, I noticed how his knuckles almost turned white as he tightened his grip on the steering wheel. I wanted to hold him and tell him over and over again that my feelings for him still remained the same. But doing such would make me a mistress of my own mother's husband. I do not want to hurt my mother despite the betrayal she did to me.
“Do I know him?” he suddenly asked after a few minutes of silence.
“Yes,” I replied. “He is an accomplished man after all.”
“I will be the judge to see if he really is an accomplished man.”
This time, it was my turn to snicker at his statement. It was meant to annoy him.
“Be my guest. I can arrange a dinner date for you and mother to meet him.”
After that, we remained quiet until we reached the mansion. Killian went inside first since I had to gather myself to have the strength to go through this night. After taking in some deep breaths, I left the car and was escorted to the dining hall.
Mother was already there having some wine and when she saw me, she raised her glass and flashed a wide smile.
“My dearest daughter!” she exclaimed but I remained indifferent.
I simply sat on the chair near her and poured wine for myself as well.
“So, how is your work?” she asked.
“The usual. Nothing worth mentioning.”
Just then, she held my hand and squeezed it as her eyes met mine.
“Honey, I understand if you won't forgive me... us. But I do hope that a time will come that you will accept our situation.”
“I already accepted it. It's totally f****d up but it is tolerable.”
I snatched my hand away from her. It was obvious that she wanted to say more but I looked away from her and drank from my glass of wine, showing that I was not at all interested to what she had to say.
After a while, Killian came and even though I was there, he still walked up to my mother and kissed her on the forehead. Disgusting! f**k you, Killian!
I did not want to see that but I could see them in my peripheral view. Still, I chose to keep quiet and pretended that I saw nothing. He sat across from me and he gave me a sly look which immediately vanished when he looked at my mother.
Fucking b***h!
We started to eat and since I was not really in the mood, I never spoke a single word even though they tried to engage me in their conversation. I just came here to show myself because I no longer have any plans in coming back here.
“Ah, by the way, Daphne,” Killian called out but I just continued to slice my steak. “Are you not going to tell us about your new boyfriend?”
I looked at him, rolled my eyes, and and chewed on my food without replying. He just wanted to act like the nicest father as if he never kissed me just a while ago. What a hypocrite.
“Really?” Mother asked as if it was the most amazing thing she had ever heard... well, of course, it is.
She would see it as a way for me to move on from Killian and finally acknowledge their relationship without any grudge. But that is never going to happen.
“Yes. She told me about it on our way here,” Killian replied.
Out of annoyance, I kicked his shin underneath the table. He immediately winced but still tried to suppress the pain.
My attention returned to my mother when she clasped her hand and smiled at me.
“Then, that is another good news today,” she commented.
I creased my forehead. Another? Then, that means that there is still some news she wanted to tell me. It was probably why they insisted that I come here. Just thinking about what it is makes me nervous because it felt like it was something I would not like.
“What is the other good news?” I asked.
“I am pregnant.”
Those three words were too heavy that it felt like they pummeled me six feet underground. What the actual f**k?
“The doctor said that is a menopausal child so it can be a critical pregnancy. But I think it will be alright.”
Not knowing what to say. I just wiped my mouth.
“Let's have a double date someday with my boyfriend,” I stated and before they could say anything else, I stood from my seat. “I am done so I am leaving.”
I turned my back on them and headed outside. I did not bring my car with me so I would have to wait for Killian. That was much better rather than staying in that suffocating room with the two of them. It felt too crowded for the three of us. And seriously? She was pregnant? At that age? I... It was just incomprehensible!
I waited for about an hour before seeing Killian walking towards the car. His expression was indifferent so it is hard to tell what happened... I do not give a f**k anyway.
“Up until now, you are still such a brat,” he commented as he started the engine.
I scoffed. “But you still loved this brat.”
“With this much bitterness you carry around you, you are openly proclaiming that you still love me. When are you going to move on, huh, Daphne?”
“f**k me,” I claimed that caused him to step on the brake and we came into a sudden stop.
He looked at me with a surprised look.
“f**k me and I will take it as a closure for the both of us.”
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