I stand outside the main door of Club Carrero and stare at the sinister blacked out building with major trepidation, like I am walking into the lion's den. My heart in my mouth and my hands wringing one another nervously as I try to find the courage inside of me to walk on up. I feel like I have run a marathon, even though I only walked for twenty minutes.
It looks exactly the same as it did all those months ago, yet seems alien to me now; so much larger and more imposing. I have been trying to drum up the nerve to go to the door and press the intercom to alert someone to my presence. I just cannot seem to find it in me.
I keep looking up at the black tinted windows on the other floors and wondering if he is here. Wondering if they can see me standing like some lost little i***t and laug
