The Target

Chapter Seven - Secret Feelings

What was the point of marrying someone if you were going to be unfaithful to them? That question occupied my mind until I reached the Pillow mansion.

Martha was amazing. She was the most selfless and amazing person I've ever met yet she was married to an ass of a human being.

I quickly jumped back in and took my clothes then put them on after shifting back to a human being. I looked at my wristwatch and noticed that I've been gone for just over an hour.

'Nothing much.. They have been gone long I just want to check if they are okay..' I heard Martha say when I made it down the second stairs to the second floor.

She showed up and gasped before holding her chest, "God you scared me.."

I looked at her, right into her eyes. I knew what was about to happen was wrong but I couldn't stop it even if I wanted to and I couldn't even help myself.

We looked at each other for a while and then I quickly looked away. I couldn't believe that just happened.

" Sandra.. Sandra.." she called out for me and I turned back to her, "Sorry Mrs Pillow I was... I was sleeping.. Umh.. Pumpkin is still sleeping. I came to get something to drink."

She smiled, "Oh yeah you must have been sleeping if you call me that.. I was worried a bit. You can come join us you know.."

"I don't want to impose.."

She brushed my shoulder, "Don't be silly.. Come drink with us."

"Not alcohol though. I still have to drive back home."

"Mhmm you could sleep over.." she hummed and took a glass of wine, "Just come get drunk okay."

I didn't argue. I followed her slowly to her friends.

"Hey ... Where have you been?" one lady asked and I smiled, "Just laying with Pumpkin then I ended up following her to dream land."

"Isn't she the sweetest. My babysitter just puts my baby in her room and leaves her there." another one said and Martha cleared her throat, "Natasha no... This is Sandra... Sandra and not the babysitter.."

I looked at her, was she drunk?

"Nice to meet you Sandra not the babysitter.." Natasha said and everyone laughed. I smiled. They might be spoilt rich trophy wives, but at least they were nice and a bit funny.

"So Sandra.. Are you married?"

Everyone gasped and that lady laughed. "What ? She's hot like I said."

"Umh ... I'm actually not married." I said feeling naked in front of them.

"No boyfriend or girlfriend... At all?" Natasha said and I smiled at how inclusive she was.

"Nope .. Definitely no boyfriend.. And no no girlfriend at the moment."

"At the moment. At the moment? So you date women... Only?"

I laughed and blushed a bit, "Yes .. Yes I do.."

They all looked at Martha, "Girl you scored. You don't have to worry about Robert trying to sleep with this one."

Martha sighed, "Okay you guys are drunk.. Can Ya'll leave now.."

"We want to talk to your attractive lesbian babysitter.. Do you fancy any of us Sandra..?" the one who was quiet said and she sounded very wasted.

"Okay ..." Martha sighed, "You guys are really drunk right now. Should I call you guys your drivers. Steph stop asking inappropriate questions."

"No this is a very fair question." Natasha said and looked at me, "You better say it's me.. You fancy me."

I laughed and looked at Natasha, I looked at her right in the eyes and smirked, "I fancy you Natasha..."

She brushed my cheek and then let go, she clapped her hands together and took her glass of alcohol, "Even though my husband is cheating on me with some slut right now.. I do not want to be unfaithful. Stop looking at me like that Sandra."

I laughed and took my glass, "Can I have some wine please.." I said that looking at Martha and she just looked at me. Everyone in here seemed comfortable and Martha didn't seem like she was comfortable.

That's when I realized that she has actually been quiet since she heard about my attraction to women.

I frowned and retreated my glass, "Okay ladies.. I think I have to go now. It was nice chit chatting with you. I have to go check on the baby."

"Don't go..." Natasha said, "I really like how you look at me.."

I got up and laughed. "No .. I have to go unfortunately."

'Martha why didn't you stop her. God she's so attractive. I have never seen a woman so attractive. I mean I love men but she's so attractive..'

'Shut up Natasha. You're drunk..' I heard Martha say and made my way upstairs.

I opened Leslie's room and got inside. She was still sleeping. I went to sit on the chair that her mom put in there and watched her sleep.

My mind was all over the place. I couldn't think straight. Was Martha going to fire me coz I'm a lesbian.. But also, who were the werewolves I met in the bushes earlier...

The thought of having to call my father was just too much. He would have a 1000 questions about why I was in others territory and I wasn't ready to answer anything to him... Worse because I haven't answered any questions to my boss yet.

I sighed and closed my eyes a bit. Robert's image of him having s*x with that girl came to my mind. I sighed. Him and all their husbands sounded like jerks.

"Pumpkin .. Mommy..."

I quickly got up and went to Leslie.

"Hey ... I'm here.. Mommy is downstairs."

She got up into a sitting position and looked at me. I smiled at her, "How was your nap.."

"Pizza .. I want pizza.."

I laughed, "Yep you must be starving. Let's go see what I can make for you downstairs.. But you are definitely not getting pizza. That's not healthy."

I gave her my hand and she took it and got up, "I want mommy then.."

I laughed at her, "Woow.. Way to tell me you don't want me pumpkin."

She laughed and hugged my leg, "No you are pumpkin.."

"You're my favourite pumpkin.."

"Noo you're my favourite pumpkin.." she said and I laughed as we walked down the stairs. I held her head since she was still hugging my leg, , "You like saying no don't you..?"

"Eventually .." she said and I stopped walking to look at her, "What was that pumpkin?"

She laughed, "I don't know.."

I laughed too and took her to the kitchen. I placed her on her chair and kissed her cheek, "Be a very good girl and wait for me to check what I can make you okay?"

"Okayyyyy pumpkin ..." she said cheerfully making me smile.

I went to the fridge and someone cleared their throat behind me. I turned to my boss standing there with her friends.

They all just smiled at me and I furrowed my brows.

"Do you guys want something to eat?" I asked since they weren't saying anything.

"No .. We already ate and Martha told us you cooked. You can cook.. The food was really nice." Natasha said and I smiled, "Thank you.. Perks of staying alone after high school, you learn to be independent."

"Where are your parents?"

"Mom is back at home in Cape Town.. My dad is travelling around the world.." I almost said 'recruiting our kind for the academy' but I stopped myself.

I looked at Martha and still couldn't read her facial expression. She didn't look like herself. She was too quiet it made me uncomfortable.

I sighed looking at her, "I was just dishing up for Les... I can stop and leave if you want."

"No don't.. You look really good doing that. Do you workout?" Steph asked. If Martha wasn't acting weird I'd have laughed, but she was quiet and I felt like I wasn't welcomed anymore.

I went to kiss Leslie, "Let me go pack pumpkin.."

"No .. I want food.. Please... Please pumpkin." Leslie said as I was about to pass next to her mother and go upstairs. I stopped and looked at her. She looked away.

I shook my head and went upstairs. I took my bag and put the rest of my things inside.

I slowly made my way downstairs after a few minutes.

It was clean. She was sitting there eating something with Leslie.

"I'll go.."

She just looked at me and said nothing.

I shook my head and sighed, this was just getting to me now, I had no idea whether she'd want be to return tomorrow or not, "Okay Mrs Pillow am I fired..?"

She looked at me shocked, "What ? Why?"

I shrugged, "Because I'm a lesbian and you are not saying anything at all to me. So maybe you don't want me next to you and your daughter.."

"Don't be crazy.." she said, "I'm just too drunk I think.." she hiccuped, ".. I can't stay with Les alone when I'm like this.. Don't go please."

"What's wrong..?" I asked putting my bag on the table and going to her totally forgetting how I was feeling a few seconds away. She shook her head, "I've been trying to call her father and he is not answering his phone or getting back to me. He's probably busy.. I'm just so tired you know. Emotionally. I am tired so much of this marriage.. Of everything."

Okay, she was really drunk.

"What are you eating there?"

"Do you think there's something wrong with me?" she asked totally ignoring my question.

That hit me, "Why are you asking that?"

She smiled, "My husband doesn't want me. He has lost interest in me."

"Husband ... Husband.. I want a husband.." Leslie said and I smiled at her before looking at her mother. I wished right there and then that I could tell her what I really thought.

I wished I could tell her that she makes my heart skip a beat every time I see her. That I feel like I'm inside a fresh boutique of flowers everytime I stand in her presence. That her voice makes my blood flow in the fastest way possible and her smile brightens up my day. I wished I could tell her that if I was her husband she wouldn't even be doubting herself because I'd make sure that she knows her worth every single day. I'd make sure she knows that she is loved and she is enough.

I swallowed, "Ask me that question again tomorrow Mrs Pillow.. And I'll give you an honest answer."

She laughed, "Yeah I'm really fucked."

"f****d .." Leslie said and I laughed, "Okay I really need to separate both of you. You are just not good for each other at the moment."

"Martha please kiss Les so that I can take you to bed."

She pulled her daughter's hand and kissed it, "Never settle for less than your worth honey. I love you okay and always remember that.."

Leslie laughed, "Mommy ..I love youuuu.."

I looked at the little kid, "Sit tight pumpkin.. I'm coming back, I just want to make sure that mommy doesn't sleep on the stairs."

"I don't want to sleep.." she responded and I laughed, "You just woke up pumpkin. I'm talking about mommy."

I went behind my boss and held her shoulder, "Where am I going?"

"Drunk people are going to sleep."

She laughed and got up. I put her arm over my shoulder and held her waist then helped her make her way upstairs to her bedroom.

I laid her in bed and took a small blanket then put it over her, "Rest okay. I won't leave I'll be in the guest room."

"Thank you Sandra.."

I smiled, at least she still remembered who I was. I closed the door behind me and went back downstairs to Leslie.

When I reached there she was now done eating. She took her plate and showed it to me, "Finish .. I finish my food."

I smiled. "Yes you did.."

"Wii wiii. I want to go wiii wiii..."

I took the plate to the dishwasher and then took her out of the chair to her bathroom. After helping her she pointed at the gym and I went in there.

We both started working out. She enjoyed being on my back when I did push ups or when I made her do the same excersises as I did.

Later on I made her supper , gave her a bath and then put her to bed.

I went to switch on the dish washer when she was sleeping and debated whether or not if I should go check on her mother. It's been more than four hours.

I sighed and decided to watch television. My phone started ringing and my heart skipped a beat when I saw who the caller was.

Was I ready? Why was he suddenly calling?

I closed my eyes a bit before re-opening them and answering, "Dad ..."

'You imprinted on her?.. '

"Dad I didn't.."

'You didn't what? You didn't what? She's the target.. How could you do this Sandra? You're supposed to be investigating her and not doing this. Why are you protecting her?'

"Dad you know I couldn't help it. I just couldn't. And I don't think she's involved so I'm not protecting her."

'Right .. Is that why you imprinted on her? I taught you better than that.'

"Dad calm down. And how did you know? How..." then the wolves I met up with in the morning suddenly came to mind. Was he having them watching over me?

"Are you stalking me?"

'I'm not stalking you. You just showed me where you are by running around on other people's territory. Why did you go to their land? You know very well that you are not supposed to do that. Now I have to make excuses for you.' he shouted.

I hated him when he shouted.

"It's the job dad. We are in danger and I had to do something to find out what was going on.."

'Or maybe you wanted to find out if Robert was really having an affair so that you wouldn't feel guilty for imprinting on his wife? Are you insane?'

"I'm going to hang up now.."

'Sandra Joel..' he said sternly.

"No dad. You shouting at me over something I can't control is just not fair. It's not fair at all."

'What happened with you and that first girl... That girl Lucia.. You guys were good together.. This thing of you jumping from one woman to another is unacceptable... Your mother and I..'

Oh God not that. Not everyone had a perfect love story like him and my mother.

"Lucia and I broke up over two years ago. I've been single for over two years. But you and mom refuse to believe that. Also, I can move on with whoever I want dad, whenever I want even." I argued.

He was now touching a very sore subject.

'I did not raise you to sleep with married women. It's enough that I have to deal with you being with a woman.. Now I have to deal with this too? Have you no respect for yourself? Are you set into being a disappointment to me your whole life?'

My heart broke while listening to him, I couldn't believe it and it really broke me that my father still was having a hard time accepting who I loved. After 13 years of knowing my sexuality, he was 'dealing with it.' so he was dealing with me.

"I have to go.." I said in a whisper and he groaned, 'Sandra..'

"You're insulting me dad... And it hurts. So I'm just going to hang up before I disrespect you and become even a bigger disappointment to you than I already am.."

'You are doing as you like. You need to come back home and...'

"Goodbye .. I'm hanging up now." I hung up before he could say another word.

I felt like slamming the phone to the wall but I stopped myself. I groaned and turned around to be met by Martha... She was standing there looking shocked.

"Hey ... Sorry ..did I wake you up..?"

She shook her head, "Forget about waking me up, are you okay?"

I sighed, "I'm sorry... Just.. My dad gets to me sometimes.."

She just walked to me and pulled me into a hug. I sighed and pulled her closer to me.

She shivered a bit, "I was cold.. God, you're so warm..."

Perks of being a Werewolf.

"I know.." I said and she brushed my back, "So please calm down.."

I laughed internally, she didn't know that I was always warm under any weather condition. Me getting yelled at by my father had nothing to do that.

But I hugged her tight. At least I could enjoy that for the time being.