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I woke up suddenly hours later and sat straight up in bed. Tears were already beginning to fall, but I
had remembered something. Something that was different in my nightmare. I jumped out of my bed
and ran down the stairs to go find Casey and Chase. I needed to tell them immediately what I had remembered . I wasn’t even sure what time of the day it was, and here I was running through the packhouse in my pajamas. Pack members bowed and tried to greet me as I passed them. I couldn’t stop. I didn’t have time to explain. “Chase, Casey!” I yelled out to them. “Alpha Claire, the Beta and his wife are in the study”, a kitchen worker called out. “Thanks”, I yelled as I ran towards the study. “Chase , Casey
I need you two quickly” I said, running into the room. Guards shifted immediately thinking I was in
danger and Casey looked like she was about to pass out. “Claire, what is wrong?” Chase asked, trying to
calm everyone else down before I sent everyone into a panic. I remembered then that my emotions affected everyone, so if I was panicking then they would as well. I stopped dead in my tracks and took a deep breath. “I am OK everyone. I’m sorry that I alarmed everyone. Please forgive me. But Chase and Casey, I need to see you NOW!” I explained. Chase and Casey quickly followed me into the office down the hall. Chase closed the door as he came in behind the two of us.“I remembered SOMETHING.
SOMETHING DIFFERENT” I said as the door shut. They both looked at me stunned. “What do you mean?
Claire, what do you remember “ Chase asked me with shock all over his face.
“The one that got in the back to check on me….. I knew him. He had to have belonged to the pack” I
blurted out before I thought about what to say. Anger flew into Chase immediately. “WHO WAS IT
CLAIRE” He demanded to know at once. “I’m not sure, Chase. But as he was getting out, when he thought I
was dead, he was sad and he sniffed like he was crying. He tapped my leg and apologized for what had
happened before he got out. He called me by name.” I explained as tears were now running down my face quicker than I could wipe them. “OK Claire, you need to calm down some”, Casey said as she made me sit down and take deep breaths before anyone could say or ask anything else. When I calmed myself down, I looked at Chase and Casey. “If you saw a picture of him could you identify him” Chase asked, looking hopeful for once. I looked at the ground in shame as I shook my head no. “I can” Saharra said in
my mind. “What? You can? How?” I asked her, shocked and totally surprised. I forgot that you could tell
when someone was talking to their wolf. Their eyes will glaze over.
“Claire, since when have you had your wolf”, Casey asked me, looking hurt and betrayed. “That doesn’t matter right this moment, but what does is Saharra can recognize him, she said,” I answered excited, forgetting the fact that they would now know that she has been with me all of this time and I had not told them. I looked at Chase and could not tell what he was feeling. I stood there quietly as they processed what I had just said and I waited for the explosion that I was sure was coming.
Casey sat down in the chair next to her and I sat on the edge of the desk. Chase still had not said a word.
I looked at him. “Chase, I am sorry I did not tell you. You have to understand that at first I did not know that
was what it was, all I could think was that my parents had been killed. Then it was all about my bloodline and the danger I would be in if anyone knew that I had lived, and then about me taking over as soon as I received my wolf. I was too scared to let anyone know about her. I was not ready to take over. I was only four. I was still a child. A child that had just lost their entire world”, I explained. I did not mean to hurt either one of them. That was the last thing I ever wanted to do. Those two stepped up and became my parents. They have seen to it that I had everything that I wanted and needed, along with making sure that I remained safe. Chase had grown the pack to be the largest in the nation with the main job being to keep me protected. Casey, of course, took over all of my mother”s Luna duties and ensured that the pack was well cared for while raising me. Now that I saw the pain in their eyes, it made me feel like a selfish spoiled brat who only thought of herself.
“It is OK Claire. We understand why you did it, but why keep it from us all of this time? Especially since your wolf was there with you and we could have done things a little differently with the investigation. She could have remembered the man’s smell and could have been able to pick his scent there”, Chase explained.
Now not only did I feel horrible, I felt stupid. Why did I not think about that? We had the one thing that could have caught the ones responsible for killing my parents and I hid it from everyone. I allowed them to go free instead of making them pay for what they did all because I was too scared. “You were just a small child, Claire. You were supposed to be scared” Saharra said, interrupting my thoughts. “No I was not. I was the Alpha’s daughter. I am a female Alpha and one with true original blood. I am not supposed to be scared. Everyone else is supposed to be scared of me and what I can do”, I answered her back. “Well then. Give them a reason to fear you. Make the ones responsible for all of this tremble when they realize that you are alive”, Saharra suggested. She was right. I had been worried and scared my entire life of someone realizing who I was instead of embracing who I am and why Alpha females are feared to begin with.
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