Their Dream Girl

11 The next day

Tau

“What?” The word jumps right out of me. Anguish like I’ve never felt before wraps around me. I stare at my twin not knowing what to say to him. So he’s going to do this to me, just because I want a life, a wife, children – things I know we will never have if we keep chasing this doomed dream. God, we have everything, money, cars…everything. But we cannot seem to find the one thing that we desire the most. A woman that will love us and cherish us both.

I’m tired. I’m tired of waiting, wishing and arguing with him.

When is he going to f*****g learn that not all dreams come true?

And to pull this s**t!

 Pretending to find some woman…all because he doesn’t want me to marry.

‘“I found her.”’ He said those words so carelessly. He doesn’t know they cut so deep because he knew no woman out there is going to put up with their needs. What woman would? Two men…at the same time…

“You go too far brother,” I say.

“Tau?” the anguish in his voice is as clear as day, but I ignore it.

“And the wedding is going forward whether you like or not.” I say walking out of the office to my room. My stomach hurts as if I have been kicked in the gut. It will pass, everything always passes.

Even Tlou, he’ll come to realize that.

I walk to my walk in closet pulling off my tie and jacket. Tlou’s room is next door to mine. I can hear him moving around in there. He sounds angry as he bangs doors. I hear a crushing sound of something hitting the floor.

I sigh, knowing I wasn’t going to let him suffer. I pull on my sweat pants and go to the adjoining door that led into his room.

His room is a mess. The bed is turned over, the sheets and covers are pulled to the floor, and a lamp flickers on the floor – broken into pieces. I’ve never seen him like this in a long time.

I know. It’s not easy to accept when your dream comes crumbling down.

I stare at him sitting on the floor with his head braced against the wall.

“It’s not just your dream that’s coming to an end, you know. It’s mine too.” I say coming to stand in front of him.

“I cannot accept that,” he says softly.

“Why not? We’ve been through this. We’ve tried. No woman fits us. They all seem to be wrong for us. Carol was the last straw, brother.” I say feeling sweat bead over my brow. For how long were we going to talk about this. I wipe at my face feeling tired. It was too late in the night to be having this argument again. I need to sleep. I have a lot of things to do tomorrow not to mention be at every wedding preparation meeting with Sade and the wedding planner. Sade wants everything to be perfect. It seemed the wedding is going to be something of a sensation in the media. And Sade was relishing every moment of it. All I want is for my parents and twin to be there and that’s it. But it seems I’m not going to have that not with the way Tlou was acting as if me marrying was the end of the world as we know it. “I’m done talking about this and testing women to see if they fit us or not.”

“But you have to with this one.” Tlou says a challenge in his eyes.

“What? I don’t have to do anything.” I say walking back to my room. He jumps up and follows me there.

“I’m not asking you. I’m telling you.”

“Don’t be stupid.” I stop walking and stare at him. What is wrong with him? I’m practically a married man.

“So I was stupid when you chose women for us.” He comes closer to me. His eyes fill with anger and it is all directed at me. “I trusted your every choice, and when it didn’t work we both decided that it didn’t work. I gave you the lead.”

“What about Carol? You decided it’s not going to work with her all on your own.”

“Did you think she was our wife, the woman who will bear our children and live in our house?” 

Fuck…I take a step back giving myself room to breathe. No. I didn’t. With Carol I think I was desperate. I needed her to be the woman for us. But she wasn’t, not by a long shot.

“Answer me brother.”

“No.”

“And Sade?” Tlou asks, his eyes burning with emotion. “You didn’t even bring her to me. For the first time you excluded me from your life.”

“It’s not like that…” I say looking away from him, because I cannot take the pain in his eyes.

Dammit!

“It’s like what?” Tlou grasps my face and forces me to look at him. “Deep down you know, she’s not the one, even for you.”

I shake my head not wanting to admit it even to myself.  Sometimes you have to do things you are not happy about. Sade is one of them. I want all of the things I dreamed of. If I cannot have them with my brother, then by God I’m going to have them.

“You can’t even admit it to yourself.”

At his words, I pull away from him and enter my room. He follows me there, not giving me the space I need.

He’s going to hound me until I give into whatever it is he wants me to do.

“And what would that help?” I ask him as sit on the bed. “I’ll only be admitting defeat, which we both already know I did when I decided to marry Sade.”

“Well, that’s good to know, because all this just tells me that we’ve been approaching this all wrong.” Tlou comes to sit next to me.

“Really?” I scoff. He does know that he sounds ridiculous, right?

“Yes. It’s my turn to choose. And I have just the girl. You’re going to love her.” Tlou says a smile blooming on his face. He looks like he is already half in love with her himself.

“I doubt that.”

“Oh, but you will. We just have to convince her that she’s ours, that all.”