Valentina
I'm spiraling. For the next three days, the fact that I might run into Silas half-naked by chance (if I'm so lucky) isn't enough to pull me out of the black hole of dark thoughts that just won't be silenced.
The fear of abandoning Noemi closes up my throat every few seconds, and I have been trying to hold on for dear life. I want to get it right this time. When I left for the US, I didn't. I just spoke to Niki on the phone. Didn't go to see him before I left because we had made plans for him to come to visit about two months later. So I felt like it was unnecessary. Not this time, though.
I make Noemi promise she will call me daily and squeeze her to me so hard I could swear I hear her bones crack. But I don't care. I also don't care who's watching. We have an audience of ab
