The next day, I woke up with new motivation as I thought my life had had enough. I need someone who can help me, someone who can motivate and help me to get up after this great setback. Yesterday, I thought there is nothing in my life now but then a thought popped in my mind that being wolfless is not my mistake at all, in fact, they are the ones who betrayed me and put me in this situation.
I dialed Lily’s number because I know that she can help me at this moment in my life where I felt like I was stuck in the dark alley where no light of hope is present. Although we are far from each other, we are truly best friends who fit the "Two bodies one soul" saying. She is not only my best friend but also my secret keeper, my motivator, and... this list can go on and on.
After talking to her, I felt much more relaxed as she is my knight in shining armor. Now, I know what I have to do next. I know asking for parents’ permission is a li’l bit difficult for me but I have to do this and I can go to any extent for this as I want to go far away from this place at any cost.
As the clock struck 5, I gathered my courage and headed towards dad’s home office as I knew he would surely be there and I had to talk to him first before announcing my decision to the whole family.
The lights were on great!!! It means he is in his office.
"Now I just have to go and simply ask for his permission, simple right Ronnie? I can do this... Just breath in, breath out, breath in, breath out great," I said to myself.
Pfft! I knocked at the door slowly. “Come in” deep and authoritative voice of dad came.
“umm…Dad, I want to talk to you” without wasting any time I said clearly.
He looked at me questioningly “Yes?” he inquired with curiosity as I never asked for anything directly from him and mostly my lovely bro’s do this for me.
“Dad, I want to go to Los Angeles for my graduation,” I stated timidly.
He sighed “Ronnie you know that we all love you so much as you are. You don’t have to go to LA because of…”
"Dad!!! I just need some time to recover. I am not running away from all these,” I cut him in the middle and stated truthfully.
"I don’t want somebody to think I can’t face all the situations but I need some time," I added and he remain silent.
After a few moments which felt like centuries passed to me dad finally said with a sigh “Ok, I gave you permission but there are a few restrictions which you must have to follow," He said and I nodded.
My heart swelled with joy but to show it right will not be a wise idea, So I kept myself calm and composed and agreed to his conditions without any hesitation and offered him a small smile before exiting from the office.
After I reached my room, I locked my door and did a small victory dance, and informed Lily through text.
Dad was looking more serious today than usual or perhaps today’s dinner was not like usual days in which we teased each other and Steven always takes my side whether I am right or wrong, the dinner was always cheery and joyful, unlike today, where all are looking either sad or worried.
“Guys! I want to tell you about something important!” I said and they all became alert in a second before looking towards me.
“umm…I am going to LA for my graduation,” I said after gathering up my courage.
“What?” they look at me like I am crazy.
“Nope, you can’t go!” Steven said to me sternly.
“You didn’t even travel to another city without someone let alone country” mom second him as well.
“For god's sake guys' I am 16 now, I want to be on my own'' I stated confidently.
“Look, Ronnie, If you want to do this because of Caleb then…” I cut Steven in the middle of the sentence.
“Enough Bro!” I said loudly. I look at them with expressions of hurt etched on my face.
“Why do you all think that I am doing all this because of Caleb? He rejected me, chose his Luna, and made his final decision. I accepted his rejection and that’s it. There’s nothing more in it and Why you all cannot understand this simple thing,” I said li'l a bit louder than intended.
I hate those pitiful glances which my family gave me at that time. My appetite was all gone by now so I left the Dinner table and headed towards my room.
I pack all the necessary stuff in two hours, It is almost midnight so I leave my packing and head towards the bed but I know sleep was far from my eyes.
Those disgusting scenes play in front of my eyes again and again and I hate their laughing and mocking faces. How I can be so blind or should I say stupid?
The whole time they played with my emotions and feelings, Now making me more vulnerable with each passing second “I am that bad”? I asked myself.
I know my whole family didn't like it a bit about my decision but "I will stick to it. That's final and there's not any doubt in it".