It takes only one night

Chapter 4

Annabella..

I was pleading Grandma not to open for my dad who was banging against the door harder and harder by every second. It'd been a week since I have settled in with grandma. All was going well until they found out the real reason I left.

"I will handle him, you go to your room until I call you out.",Grandma said while I dashed quickly to my new room.

Pressing my ear against the slightly cracked door, I heard dad say. "She's f*****g pregnant? How? When?"

"Calm down, she doesn't need you to tell her she f****d up. She already knows that, what she needs is support, love, and caring. Be there for her, she needs you."

The old lady was so freaking amazing, I love her so much. Footsteps down the small short hallway lead to where I was hiding, behind the door, crouched down, holding my knees to my chest.

I felt ashamed; it wasn't like I was having s*x with countless guys. It was one time, one time where I felt in no control of myself. It just happened. Did I regret it? Yes? But do I regret keeping the baby? f**k no!

He or she doesn't need anyone; I'll care for my own. Even if I have to work my ass off."You're sixteen, Annabella, you shouldn't have had your legs spread apart at your age. Look where it's gotten you at, is this how you planned your life? Being pregnant at sixteen? What about school? What about your teenage years that will wash away before your eye's? You won't be able to do anything now, you now have a responsibility. A human being that has so many f*****g needs. You understand your current state, Annabella? Who is this f*****g asshole anyway?"

I just stared at him, "I swear dad it was a one time, my first time, I swear. I've never done any of this s**t, and when I did, I f****d up big time. I know you're disappointed in me, but I f*****g swear that it was my first time ever having s*x and I got screwed big time. I've even tried to get an abortion, but I couldn't-"

"f*****g hell, Annabella!" he yelled out. Pacing his old room, his shoulders slump in defeat. His hands covered his face while sitting on the edge of his old bed.

"I'm sorry, dad, but I can't kill the baby. And for the guy, I don't know his name."

"WHAT? ARE YOU f*****g SHITTING ME, ANNA," he shouted at the top of his lungs, causing his face to turn red.

"What do you mean you don't know who you slept with? Is he from your school? Where does he live? I can go talk with his parents. They can't let their son get away with what he did, he has responsibility als'"

"Dad, it wasn't a boy from our school. I...." f**k, was I supposed to tell him the truth or lie? "It was at a party, one of my friends invited a couple people from another school and it got wild, things happened. I'm so sorry, dad. I promise you don't have to worry about spending any money on the baby. I'll get a job here and work my-"

"You think I care about money? I care about my baby having a baby while she's still a baby herself. I care about how much you're going to miss out on, how you won't enjoy anything anymore. You won't be able to go wherever you please, you won't be able to sleep in. A baby is a big responsibility. How can you care for a baby when you can't care for yourself? You don't even know what's ahead of you, Anna," he stated while walking over to me.

Holding his hand out, I grabbed it. He pulled me up and embraced me in the warmest hug I've had from him in a long time. "This doesn't mean I'm not mad, this means I'll be with you no matter what. This will be hard on us all, especially you, but we'll get through this. I just can't believe my own baby is having a baby of her own." Dad said while hugging me tightly.

"I'm so sorry, dad, I don't know what else to say."

"Your mother is freaking out, you know. She's on her way. She'll be here by tonight, guess you'll hear her vent as well. But don't be sad about it, she's going through hell after Kyle's death. I know you are as well, you should have told us what was happening with you Anna. We might yell and shout in the beginning, but that doesn't mean we'll abandon you."

Dad said, causing me to actually think that everything was going to be just fine. "You'll have to think about school, I have to look for another job," Dad mumbled out unintentionally.

I felt bad I was putting this amount of responsibility on his shoulders, it wasn't his job to care for the baby, but mine. "No, dad, since I decided to keep the baby. I'll be the one who pays all the expenses, and about school. I don't want to go back-"

"What do you mean you don't want to go back to school? You want to be sixteen, pregnant, and a dropout? My god Anna, where did I go wrong?" Dad shouted while I blew out a deep breath.

"If you would have let me finished, I've would have said. that I don't want to go back to public school, instead. I'm going to do homeschooling, also find a job where I can work, and save up for the baby's needs. I also want to stay with grandma, no one has to know about my pregnancy," I said what I had planned so far.

Was I going to find a job where they would hire a someone with no experience of work in anything whatsoever?

Was my plan going to be the way I envisioned it in my head?

I had to wait and see what the future held for me, along as I had my family with me, supporting me emotionally and not financially, then I was sure to be OK.

My mistake, my actions, my decision. So, it's my responsibility to work this out, be one hell of a fighter, pick myself up, and move forward with my life.

"This isn't going to be easy, Anna, just want you to know that," Dad stated, bringing me down.

"You know what, I'll try my best. You live and learn, but never give up. I just hope I'm able to do what's right."

Dad placed a kiss on my forehead before leaving me alone with my thoughts.

Get your s**t together, Annabella. I hope I don't regret what I'm doing. I placed my hand over my stomach.

"I wish you never came at this time, but I still will try to be the best mom to you."

~

It was around seven at night, mom was on sofa, looking at me with disappointed eyes. She yelled, screamed, shouted all her anger at me. I just sat there taking all she had to give. I wasn't going to stop her. She's been keeping all her pain inside since she found out Kyle was sick, kept it together for him, dad, and me.

"I said it was the first time I did anything like this mom, I messed up but I can't erase it. If I did, then I would. I mean… I tried, but couldn't do it. I couldn't kill the baby, mom, I'm sorry. I don't have anything to say but sorry."

She wiped her tears away, her knees were shaking while she rubbed her hands together. "She's pregnant, our baby is pregnant," she whispered while looking at dad. "I can't believe how careless you were to not even use a f*****g condom. Why were you having s*x, anyways? Who's the dad? Do you even know his name or was a one night stand? IT ONLY TAKES ONE f*****g TIME. Look what that one time did, Anna. This isn't some game. This is a baby we're talking about. You ruined your life so easily. Here I thought about this moment, you know, maybe when you were in college, but now? At this age?"

"I'm sorry, what else do you want me to say?"

"Don't say anything, I don't want to hear it. Start planning on what and how you're going to support that baby, work, school. Cause let me tell you something, it's not easy juggling life. Let alone with a child. Sleepless nights, diaper changes, crying for no reason, food, clothing, the list goes on and on. How are you going to do all that with school and work? Tell me Anna?" Mom shouted while standing up.

"Ok, that's enough on the girl. She understands what's coming her way, she's staying with me. Let her do this, we'll be there for her of course, won't we?" Grandma asked as she looked at both my parents.

"I can't be here, I lost one child. I can't watch the other one lose the most important years of her life raising a baby, when she isn't fully grown herself. Sixteen… she's f*****g sixteen, for crying out loud."

Mom rushed towards the front door, having dad follow her quickly. Grandma took a seat next to me, pulling me into her arms.

"I'm here, Annabella, don't worry! They will also be there for you, they're just upset, that's all. Give them time, they'll get over it. For the meantime, start planning on what is it that you'll do next. Just know, I'll do everything possible to help my sweet Annabella."

Gripping onto her sweater, I cried.

"Thanks for not telling them who's the father, Grandma."

"I won't, if you don't want to tell them, then I won't either."