Someone should have warned me. Rubi, Amber- hell, even my brother. They should have told me that if I got closer, any more closer to Cristiano… That it would be hard to back out from him no matter what.
I was torn, stuck in the middle of it all, like I had dug a deep hole and kept digging, but the truth of the matter is… I didn’t feel regretful about my choices. I wasn’t disappointed nor dismayed about what happened or what was happening.
In reality, as I talked and got closer with Cristiano, I found myself becoming more and more… at ease. I don’t know why, I didn’t understand, but even if I didn’t, I just let it be.
I let it be because when he looked at me, when he smiled, or when he cracked a joke and we would laugh, nothing felt better than that moment with the two of us.
Oh god
