Love is blind

Chapter -1

“Hey! Are you ok? Someone call an ambulance!” someone shouted.

People were trying to wake me up. They were shaking me and trying to make me conscious. I opened my eyes and looked around, seeing that I fainted during the work. I was feeling pain in my head too. I was surrounded by many people in this shop, and they were inquiring about a lot of things.

I declared to the people that I am fine. I looked around to confirm if I was in the store or not. But I was still at my work, not in my house. I don’t remember how I got here. I do not know why I was not able to remember what I did before coming here. I was sure I was in my house, but then how did I get to work? It is strange. My body was in my house, and maybe I was sleeping on my bed, but I can not be in two places at the same time.

I absolutely wanted to strangle myself. There were so few problems in my life, and now I am acting weird. How can I faint at work? And how can I forget how I got here? Am I forgetting things?

“Hey, Ava! Are you done with your work?” The manager came up to me and shook me.

He thought I was still not conscious. I informed him that I was awake now, alive, and clearly not dead. His eyes were telling me that he was making fun of me. It is possible to faint one time, but I will not faint or forget anything over and over again.

He thinks I am an i***t, like other girls. And he always tries to touch me in the wrong way. He is a characterless man, and he always tries to do the same with other girls tok. I jerked his hand away and looked at him angrily.

“Alright, I have completed my work, and now I am leaving here,” I told him, and got out of there.

That bastard thinks I am weak like other girls, but one day when I leave my job here, I will teach him a lesson. I left there and headed for the bus. By bus, I started going to my next office job.

I will reach there in about 10 minutes. I want to survive this world no matter what, because I am an orphan. I am 22 years old and trying to survive in this world at any cost. In these 22 years I have faced many difficulties, and at the same time I have seen different kinds of people who tried to take advantage of me when I needed support. But when I came to know the reality of the world it was not too bad. I stopped believing people long ago and started to earn my own money with my blood, sweat and tears.

I have to pay for my own expenses, bills, and other home expenses. I have nobody to support me, like others. I have to earn my own money so that I can save my life. Finding a job in this big city was not child's play for me. They were not ready to give any kind of job to an orphan like me. They used to doubt me, saying that maybe I am a thief because I am an orphan. Life was never easy for me but I still survived. They used to ask me for a degree, but I grew up in an orphanage without a mother and father.

I had a bad past in the orphanage; I don't even want to think about it anymore. I educated myself with my own money. I did not have much money, so I could not choose my favorite subject like others, but I still managed to go to the office. It was an ordinary office because I had no money for an expensive office. My sole focus became survival. I wanted to survive at any cost. I wanted to live and to survive, so I had to earn.

I arrived at a restaurant after some time. It was not big, but it was not small either. The salary was not great here, but I could not get a job anywhere else because they all want degrees from big and rich offices. They all used to ask for degrees.

I used to say to they could f**k themselves. I mean if someone wants to work why does he require a degree? Only for the waitress to work! Who asks for a degree, if you want to work in a restaurant?

I also worked in many hotels too, but not big ones because the people there were not very good. Presently I was going towards my current job.

I completed my work in this restaurant too. I only had to work here for 3 hours. My body was hurting too much. I could not take a rest the whole day.

When I was returning from my next two jobs, I saw a couple coming out of the church. they were looking happy. they had expended lot of money in their marriage. They all looked rich. Then I thought about the money that was in my purse. I borrowed it from one of my part time friends. I had no money for expenses and he lent me some money

With this money I had to cover the expenses of the house, and I have to bear all the expenses of this month myself. But as soon as I saw those people, I saw they were wearing very nice clothes, and they were kissing each other. I looked at their life, and then at mine. I found there are a lot of differences between us.

I wish I could equally get the same. The money that was in my pocket, they were spending more money than that, without thinking anything of it because they were not used to earning money. I do not know why I was looking at them for so long. They did not recognize its importance. Do I want to join them? I pulled out my purse and took a deep breath. I don't know how long I will survive with this little money.

Suddenly I got a call from one of the bosses. He is 25 years old. I can honestly say he likes me. And I do not know why I think that he is calling me for dinner. I was thinking before saying anything. He is rich, handsome and gives me respect, but should I trust him? It is my life experience that I should not trust anyone after that day! I got angry and cut the call. After some time he called again and now I could not refuse him. What if he kicks me out of the job?

I picked up his call and he asked me to dinner. I knew it. I said yes I’ll meet him but I will not eat using his money. I will only meet him. I cut the call. I was heading towards the place where he asked me to come.

As I was walking towards my house on the way I suddenly felt gurgling in my stomach, and I realized I was hungry. I did not eat lunch. And then I smelled an extremely nice fragrance. I looked around and saw a food stall, and I saw they were selling some delicious food.

As soon as I put my hand in my pocket to take out my purse, I realized that I didn't have it. I felt like I had lost it. All my money was in there.I was very nervous and I could not understand what I should do. I had borrowed it from others and I could not lose it.

I started fumbling with my pockets and found I really didn't have my purse, but just 2 minutes ago when I placed my hand in my pocket I had it. This means I dropped it around the time when I pulled out my phone from my pocket. I promptly started looking for it before it gets stolen.

I started walking swiftly on a similar path that I had come from. On the road near a construction site I saw my purse, and the good thing was that no one had stolen it. There were too many laborers working. I was so delighted to find my lost purse that I did not care what was going on around me. I immediately picked it up and hugged it.

If I did not find it, then I would have been wasted this month because I would have had to work even more and I would have starved.

I was so delighted to find my lost hope that I did not care what was going on around me. I suddenly heard that an earthquake was coming. I got scared and looked around. I saw I was standing under a building that was going to fall on me. My eyes widened in fear. The laborers fell from the building, and some were trying to save themselves. I tried to run but my feet were frozen. I could not move.

The ground under me was moving. It was definitely an earthquake. I was looking at everyone trying to save their own lives but I was not able to move. Why?

I tried running away again, but I realized my whole body was frozen in fear and my legs were not supporting me at all. I felt that I did not have use of my legs to run away. Runaway from my death. I looked up and the building was going to fall.

At the same time I saw something unbelievable. The atmosphere around me suddenly changed.I was not there under the building anymore, but somewhere else. There was only loneliness and darkness everywhere. Only the sound of the wind was audible. However, an annoying voice suddenly ruined everything.

“Where are you?” A man's voice was echoing in the hall, as if he was calling out to her to hunt her. He was heading towards her and the sound of his shoes were the most frightening thing too.

“I think you should come out now. It is no use to hide now, as I am all around you. You think you can escape from me, but this is your misunderstanding because I am close to you. I know where you are.” In the dark it felt more horrifying. And suddenly a girl's voice was heard. It sounded like she was sobbing.

“b***h! Come out as soon as possible!” he shouted. The girl got up from her place and started running away from there. He laughed as he spotted her, getting up to follow her. She was trembling, but she did not stop running.

But suddenly the girl reached the roof of the building, and she jumped. My eyes widened as I saw this with my own eyes, and I panicked because I could not stop her from jumping. No...

What? It's not true! I could save her. As I was about to run there to save her, I suddenly heard a noise. Again the atmosphere changed and I found myself back under the building.

I found myself where I could not dream at all. I came back to the place where the earthquake was happening. I was no longer in the building where she jumped.

My death was just 2 seconds away from me. I could not even close my eyes as the building fell on me.

I saw my death flashing in front of me, but I could not escape from it. My eyes were open, and it felt like my head was injured. My head is bleeding. My eyes were open, and I saw people crying in pain. Some were running as the earthquake was still present around us. I saw a man who died in front of me.

Will I be able to survive? But I came to know that I am going to die. I had seen my death, but how could this happen?

No, I cannot die. I was not born to die like a dog. I have to live. I want to enjoy my life. I want to secure my future. I want to spend my money. I have not spent my whole life dying like a cat or dog.

My eyes were closing, and I could not see anything. I was about to die.

‘No, I can't die.’ As I closed my eyes, I again found myself in the place where I saw the girl last time. I was in that building again, but this time when that girl was about to jump there was suddenly an earthquake. The building collapsed! My eyes widened in shock. What? what is happening?

I looked down at my own body. I was really in this place again. It means I will die again from this earthquake. No, I can’t. I should run away, but I should save that girl too. I ran to her to save her, but it was too late. She jumped, and the building collapsed too. Will I die again…?

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I was trying to open my eyes, and I could hear the voices of many people around me. It was not just one man's voice, it seemed that a lot of men and women were talking about me.

I cannot hear anyone's voice clearly, but I was getting to know that they were talking about me.

How can this happen? Both things cannot happen at the same time? I am definitely confused. I have to open my eyes. I have to see what is happening. As soon as I tried opening my eyes, I felt like I did not even have eyes.

How can this happen? I know I am not blind. I have eyes. I see everything clearly, so what is happening to me that I do not have eyes? I tried to open my eyes again, but nothing happened. I could feel it. Suddenly my head started moving; I realized I was going out of my world. I am losing myself. I am going to die. Am I dead?

This one last memory and one last feeling settled in my mind.

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I was feeling conscious again, and was feeling like myself. I was feeling alive; and suddenly started recalling all the things that happened to me that day.

I remembered I had taken a bath in my house that morning, and left the house later with an empty stomach. On the way, I bought some sandwiches and ate them. Then later I went to my first part time job and fainted too. After going there I did some work. Then on to the next third and fourth part time job, while carrying out many such things, my day passed.

I did not remember anything from there. Conceivably I was trying to purchase something with the money I borrowed from someone after that, but I do not remember anything.

Why can't I recall anything? I know something happened after that. After a little brainstorming, I tried to remember another time. I remembered I was going to buy some food with that money because I felt very hungry.

When I tried to find my purse in my pocket, I could not find the purse and found it in the road under a building. I ran towards it. I was picking it up from there, when suddenly the building collapsed because of an earthquake.

I died!!!

How could this happen? I could not die. Was I gone?

As I tried to open my eyes again, the last time I could not feel my eyes, but now as I was trying to open my eyes, I could feel them again. I slowly tried to open my eyes because I was feeling a little bit of pain in my eyes and too much pain in my head.

I kept my eyes closed for a while and tried to open them again. I was gradually opening my eyes, but I could see everything blurred. I blinked my eyelashes two or three times, yet I could see everything blurred.

After a while, I started seeing everything clearly, and I saw that there was a ceiling in front of me. I looked around and saw I was in a room that was full of hospital machines. I was lying in bed. I saw my hand. I had a glucose IV in it, and an oxygen mask on my face.

I removed the oxygen mask from my face and tried to sit up on the bed. I sat up on the bed and looked around, but there was no one there. It only looked like a hospital room because of the machines, but it was actually a big room. I looked at my hands.

Am I indeed alive? I thought I was dead, but I am alive. I could not quite perceive anything because there was such peace, as if there was only me, and there was no one else in the whole room. But what place is this? Who brought me here? Who is paying the bill of this f*****g rich room that is full of medicines, injections and machines?! What should i do now? Should I run away before someone comes in? Yes, I should run away.

I got up from my bed and started walking out of the room. I was walking leisurely. Why does my body feel like this? I was feeling so feeble. I came out and was in the hall of this big house. I saw a door where I could escape but suddenly two men were coming towards me with a big mirror in their hands. I saw myself in the mirror, but as soon as I saw myself in the mirror, I was shocked.

It felt like my heart stopped beating. Because the person who stood before me was not me, but someone else. I was looking at myself in the mirror, but my face was different. I got so nervous that my hands went to my face automatically and started touching my face.

"Whose face is this?" I asked myself while looking in the mirror, and I could not quite understand who this was. This is not me. This is not my face, but the face is…

I closed my eyes and tried to remember. I know I have seen this face. But where? Where have I seen it? I feel like I have seen this face ages ago. After thinking for a while, I remembered. And I got extremely nervous. I got terrified; I looked at my face again and my eyes widened in surprise

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Suddenly my eyes went to a big photo that was hanging on the wall. I was feeling dizzy. There was a girl in the poster and her face looked exactly like this girl's face that I was able to see in this mirror. Why are her posters here? Her laughing, running, reading photos were everywhere.

I remember instantly. I could not believe it was not my face, but instead that girl who jumped from the roof that day. It is the face of the same girl, whom I could not save. I was there but I could not save her. How is this possible?

I was touching my face again and again and was trying to look carefully. How could I be the girl I could not save, and how did I get her face?

Am I slain? It is possible because of my death. I have lost the balance of my mind. I have gone frantic. This is not the real world. Maybe it is hell. God has sent me to hell because I could not save that girl, but I also died in the earthquake. Why am I getting this punishment?

But I am in an unknown house. I am walking around and just my face is unfamiliar. I looked at my body carefully and this body is also not mine. As I was thinking about this, something hit my mind and I looked at myself again. Suddenly everything changed and I found myself standing in the same place where that girl died.

She turned to look at me and was going to jump again.

"Hey, what is going on? Why is my face like yours?" I asked her, and she turned to the other side and looked up at the sky.

"It is neither your face nor your body. You have entered my body; your soul has entered in my body. This is your rebirth," she said, and jumped. I found myself in the same home and started sweating. I could not save her again.

But what does she mean? Why? And how?