Mob Mistress

Chapter Four

Stefano

She didn’t think I heard that small noise she made but I did. I was so hyper aware of everything she did I was positive I would hear her heart skip a beat if I listened closely enough.

“They think we are in love.” I whispered it into her ear. Meaning for it to be romantic. For her eyes to soften again and it had the opposite effect.

“You are a good actor.” She almost spat it out. “You fooled me for months so goes to reason you would fool strangers.” There was so much emotion in her voice , so much hurt for a second it left me speechless.

“I didn’t fool you.” Why couldn’t she see? Why couldn’t I get her to listen? Every time I thought we had taken a step in the right direction , she backed up.

Yes I was married. But I hadn’t married for love. Why couldn’t she see that and understand?

“I never lied to you Lily.” I kept my voice low and my lips just brushing her ear. The smell of her skin mixed with the coconut scent of the oil I had rubbed across her shoulders was intoxicating.

Tempting me to kiss her, to nip at the exposed flesh as my hands explored beneath those little triangles.

And I hadn’t lied to her. I just hadn’t been entirely forthcoming.

“Get off me Stefano.”

“Lily.” I resisted the urge to roll my eyes.

“Get the f**k off me Stefano , you lied by omission.” Her voice was rising and I darted a worried look around. So far no one was looking but if her voice kept rising the way it was and I was pretty sure it would then the stares were only a matter of time.

“Come with me Lily.” She wasn’t the only one who could be angry. Did she think she was the only one who was hurting? Did she think I felt nothing. That this wasn’t killing me.

I wasn’t known as a patient man , but I had been patient for her. I would be patient for her forever if needed but we couldn’t go on like this.

“The f**k off me Stefano, I …”

I didn’t let her finish. Standing in one fluid movement I had her over my shoulder in a flash.

She squealed and my c**k throbbed as my hand came down on her ass. The cheek fit so perfectly in my hand. “Not another sound Lily, until we are in the hotel room.” My voice was dark, and I knew she wouldn’t say another word.

Most people obeyed when I spoke to them in that voice.

Someone several places over laughed loudly , whatever they thought was going on , they thought it was romantic.

Just two newly weds who couldn’t keep their hands off each other.

If only.

“Do you want to put me down now.”

Closing the door , I threw the lock. Not answering her, I moved towards the bedroom.

“Stefano.”

“No Lils.” My hand squeezed her cheek , not hard but enough to cause her to gasp. I kneaded the flesh through her skimpy bikini bottoms.

Shit I wanted to touch her.

“You need to listen to me because I can’t do this anymore.” Dropping her into the middle of the giant four poster bed I watched as she bounced.

How would she look with her arms and legs tied to those posts? Her body open and willing for me?

“I’m not asking you do to anything Stefano.” She scrambled backwards as I sat on the bed and there was real fear in her eyes.

Shit.

I had made her afraid of me. Did she think I would force myself on her? Was that what she thought I was capable of? I was a killer, I didn’t flinch at the thought of spilling blood or snuffing out the light in someone’s eyes but I would never…

Never touch her against her will. The thought was repellant to me.

“You are killing me Lily.” I dropped my head into my hands. The emotion making my voice shake.

“What do you mean?” Her voice was quiet but close. Closer then I expected.

“Lily you have to know how I feel, how I’ve felt from pretty much day one. You drive me insane.” I was shaking my head.

Feelings. They sucked.

“You are married Stef…”

“I know I am married Lils, I know I should have told you. I know I should have been honest with you but I was a fool.” I wanted to turn towards her and capture her lips. I wanted to put everything I was feeling into that kiss as I pressed her down into the mattress.

But I didn’t turn.

“I wanted you for myself, I have to admit that. At first it was s*x, and then I got to to know you and it turned into something different. Something I had never felt before. You weren’t just a woman I wanted to f**k. You turned into my friend and that scared the s**t out of me.” I paused as her hand touched my bare shoulder. “So I didn’t tell you, because I didn’t want to lose you. I didn’t want to lose the first woman I had ever had true feelings for.”

I heard her suck in a breath. And then I let her wet cheek against my back.

“I have never felt this way before Lily, I wasn’t even sure I was capable of feeling this way and I’m positive no one else did. Luca is closer then a brother to me but you..” Finally I turned , I couldn’t look at her. I needed to get this off my chest before I did that. Talking and sharing my feelings was utterly foreign to me.

“And your hatred is killing me.”

“I don’t hate you Stefano.” Her voice was quiet. “I don’t think I could ever hate you.” She seemed to admitting it more to herself then to me and I finally let my eyes wander over her face.

Her beautiful tear stained face.

“I … I.”

“It’s all so f****d up.” I let my head fall against hers. I was a killer, a made man and this woman had totally destroyed me.

“Will you hold me Stefano?” Her lips brushed my lips. “Like you used to? I miss you holding me.”

My heart thundered back to life as I returned her kiss with a small one of my own. “I’ve missed that too Lils.” And I had. More then anything else I missed how close we used to be. “I’ll hold you forever if you will just let me.” I scooted up towards the pillows, holding my hand out to her and drawing down into the circle of my arms.

There was no way I could ever let this woman go. She was the only good in my life. Without her I would be nothing but darkness.