AN AFFAIR WITH MY MATE

Home sick

DAMIEN’S POV

It had been a few days ever since I woke up in the human hospital and I had been wondering about the human city ever since then. I literally had nowhere to go and I didn’t even know which direction would take me to the Wolflands. I had been struggling with my scent for a few days and therefore, I could pick up any wolf scent. One good thing was happening to me though, an angel kept appearing in my dream and she was the reason why I was trying too hard to get back into the wolf lands. Even though I wouldn’t know which pack I belonged to when I got back to the wolf lands, I was relieved that I had something to look forward to once I got back there.

I was sleeping on the street and although that was extremely uncomfortable for me, it wasn’t all that bad because it felt like I could only see the truth when my eyes were closed. Whenever I closed my eyes, I would see this beautiful woman and although she never said anything to me in my dreams, her smile was enough to make my day whenever I dreamed about her.

While I was walking around in the human city, I finally picked a wolf scent. I was baffled about the reason why a wolf would be on human land but I decided that it was in my best interest to follow this scent until I finally found its source. To my luck, it didn’t take that long for me to find the wolf that had the scent and I soon found myself following it as the man drove off in a car. I was a fast runner, but I wasn’t fast enough to catch up with a car. It was clear to me that the car was driving out of the city and as soon as I was out of human eyes I went into the forest and turned into my wolf form. I had never felt so alive, it felt like hope had been revived in me and I couldn’t wait to get back home. I hoped that the first wolf I would see would be the girl that had been haunting my dreams. I had managed to sketch what she looked like on a piece of paper and I often glanced at it as if it was my map back home. For some reason, glaring at her face the whole day made me happy and gave me peace. I carried her picture in my pocket and kept it safe because I felt like losing it would be losing a part of me.

ELENA’S POV

I had been in Lukas’ mansion for almost two weeks now and nothing had changed, he was still treating me like I was either his child or his possession. He still knew that I didn’t want to be here and yet he chose not to let me go and visit my family at least. It was obvious that he didn’t care about me. What had I expected from a man like him, he was cruel and the only thing he knew in life was only to please himself. The longer I stayed with him, the more I hated him. However, despite the hate that I kept showering him with, he still seemed to have hope that one day I would willingly offer myself to him. To some degree, he even seemed to try to make me like him by doing things he thought I would like. In a weird way, I could see that he was a caring and loving man, but he just wasn’t the man for me and that was just something that he would have to accept and realize.

I hadn't made any friends in the mansion and that was all thanks to the fact that Lukas had been keeping me locked in his room. At first, he said he was keeping me in his room all because I had tried to escape the first night he was there, and then after that, he started saying that he was keeping me locked up because he didn’t want to share me with anyone. It was one thing to be with a man that I didn’t love or desire, but the worst thing was the fact that he was now possessive of me. However, I was finally seeing the light at the end of the tunnel for me because Lukas had decided that keeping me locked up wasn’t a very good idea. I was now allowed to walk around that mansion but I had an escort everywhere I went.

There wasn’t much for me to do in this mansion except spend the day watching other wolves as they trained. This was something that I loved watching because it had been a dream of mine to also be one of my pack’s warriors, but sadly, Lukas had shattered those dreams with his lust for a young virgin girl. Even though I blamed my family, specifically my mother and my father for what was happening to me, I still missed them.

I wished that I could just get a chance to visit them and see how they were doing after I left. I also hoped that when they saw how unhappy I was they would realize their mistake and demand that Lukas send me back to them. Of course, I knew that he wouldn't willingly hand me over to them, but at the same time, I had to keep some kind of hope alive. It was the only thing that helped me through my day. I now lived my life imagining what it would be like if I was still at home. I couldn't stop thinking of how life was back home and wondering if they missed me as much as I missed them. I couldn't imagine my father and my mother spending nights together and discussing how much they missed me and wished I was at home, but I knew that was something they thought about individually.

Today I was determined to ask Lukas to allow me to visit my family just once. I knew that convincing him to let me go was going to be very hard, but I was desperate and I was almost willing to do anything to get him to agree to my request. I really hoped that he would allow me to just see my little sister even once. I didn’t want her to visit because I didn’t want to expose her to the vultures that were in this mansion.

I waited for Lukas to arrive after dinner as he always did. He always slept late but he always made it a point to come and see me after dinner before he went back into his office. I was so nervous because I didn’t know which direction this conversation was going to take. My greatest fear was for me to end up under Lukas. That was something that I wanted to delay for as long as I could.

“Good evening my love,” he said as he walked into the room.

”Can I please go and see my family?” I asked without hesitation. I didn’t want to wait before asking him because I was afraid that I wouldn't up not asking him if I delayed asking.

“Whoa..” he laughed “that was out of the blue,” he said as he sat on the bed next to me.

“I miss them and I just thought that maybe you would allow me to see them just one more time”. I begged

“Am I treating you horribly?” he asked me and I hesitantly shook my head.

“Then why are you acting like I am the worst thing that has ever happened to you?” he asked.

”That is not what I mean, I would just love to see them one last time and then I promise,” he interjected before I could even make the point I was trying to make.

“If I am not treating you badly, then I don’t see any reason for you to go there,” he said.

”But they are my family and I love them,” I said and he cleared his throat.

"I am the only family that you need and I am the only one you should love,” he said getting up from bed and giving me a brief smile.

“Get that through your head and all will be well,” he said with a wink as he walked away, leaving my heart crumbling into a million little pieces. I just felt like this man hated me.

Had he just brought me here in an attempt to see just how far his cruelty could go, why would he refuse me the right to visit my own family? He wanted to be everything to me, he wanted me to think that I didn’t need anybody else if I had him and that was simply not true. Even if Lukas was my real mate, and even if I did genuinely love him, I was sure that I wouldn't abandon my own family all because I had him. Why did he have to be so difficult even in something that seemed so simple? I wasn’t asking him to let me go, I was simply asking him to allow me to visit my family.

However, I felt that I was to blame for all this because I was the one who had tried to run away the first night I was there. I had vowed to make things very difficult for him from day one and now I was regretting it because the tables had turned on me. Lukas was the one that was making things very difficult for me and I didn’t know how to change things and put them in my favor. It was clear that he didn’t trust me.