The Shadow Within Me

Chapter Forty Three - Desire

Calyx Nyxerian Paraiso

It's been 30 minutes and she still hasn't woken up from her slumber. I don't know why I'm getting anxious about her well-being.

"What's taking you long to wake up?" I paced back and forth while watching her sleep on the sofa.

Her desire isn't dead, that's for sure, then is her desire sleeping? I shook my head, that can't be right, but what's taking her so long to wake up?

I've decided to stop and tried to do the brutal way of waking up someone, "Hey woman wake up!" I violently shook her shoulders, so that woman surprisingly grunted.

She continued grunting until she decided to open her eyes, my eyes widened when I saw that her eyes weren't the sapphire one I always admire, it was red like mine.

It reminded me of what I read in the book a while ago, the victims' eyes change colors depending on what they want to do or fulfill. So why are her eyes red? What the hell is her desire?

"C-Calyx? W-What are you--um, where are we?" she curiously asked while raising her body as she continued roaming her eyes around our surroundings, so I furrowed my eyebrows at her.

"We are in my secret place and you're here because you're dumb," I stated while sighing in disappointment.

"You shouldn't have opened the books on those shelves, it's dangerous that it might cause your death," I explained coldly before giving her the book that she opened. She looks highly confused about what I was saying to her.

"Now, if you don't want to be banished from this world, what do you feel and desire?" I firmly asked so she furrowed her eyebrows at me for a moment.

"W-What do you mean about my desire--" she stopped talking after she mentioned desire, her strange eyes glinted for a moment before looking at me intently.

"I have to get stronger, I have to get stronger, I have to, so my parents won't be disappointed in me," she mumbled in a strange tone before standing up as she looked for something inside our room.

I watched her do her thing and was almost surprised that she knew where to find my sword. How on earth does she know where to find it when it's hidden on the back of the small fridge? This woman is terrifying.

She then started using that sword professionally like she was sparring with someone. I couldn't help but watch because what's happening right now is pretty interesting.

"Cool, you're not making any mistakes," I commented while watching her swing and glide with that sword. I'm pleased to find out that she knows her way with sharp swords.

I wouldn't have any problem training her about it sooner, my eyes peered from below and noticed that she was about to trip herself on an uneven platform.

"Woman, look out," I warned her, but she looked like she's deaf to even hear about it. She tripped over there and hit her head on the ground.

"s**t!" I ran over there to help her get up, the good thing is, she didn't have any damage on her forehead.

"Woman, woman! Wake up!" I screamed, but she didn't respond to me. She's breathing normally though.

"Why the hell am I even here?" I fumed before deciding to place her on the sofa because she was unconscious again. I tried to open her lids and noticed that it was still red.

I glanced at the book and opened it, she did her desire, right? Why the hell is her eyes still red? What the hell is going on with this freaking book?!

It took me a while to look for answers, it was said that she has to fulfill her deepest desire for her to come back to reality. This means what she did a while ago still wasn't enough. I was highly pissed off with what's going on and threw that book away from us.

"Hey woman, you have to wake up, and fulfill whatever desire that you have," I shook her shoulders violently, so she woke up once more.

"Great, now, what's your other desire?" I calmly asked, this time it was odd because she wasn't talking. She was just looking at me intently like she knew me deeply.

She slowly paced towards me before reaching out to cup my cheeks. I almost backed away from her touch because it ignited some sparks that I most especially wouldn't like to feel.

It's hard for me to stay away if I continue feeling those volts rushing to my sleeping veins, "What the hell are you doing?" I don't know why I felt nervous with her intense staring.

"To be loved by someone I like, to be kissed by my pair is something I want to fulfill," she whispered before she started leaning in towards me. 

I couldn't say anything at what she said, I don't even know what's going to happen right after she said those words. Just how many freaking desires does she need to fulfill? This is freaking annoying me!

She was almost near my face when I stopped her. I can't do this, I can't give her false hope even if it's possible that she may not remember what's going to happen here.

"You can't kiss me, woman, you can't, we can't," I firmly stated, so her red eyes glinted, which made her shout in pain.

"Ugh! Ahh!" she screamed like she was being punished on the inside, so I grabbed her shoulders to force her to look at me but she was in so much pain to even stand.

"Woman! What the hell is going on?!" I panicked because she looked like she was suffering so much from the inside.

I glanced at the book that I threw and it was glowing, I immediately ran over there to check and was astounded upon reading what I've read at the last part of the book.

"Beware, if the desire isn't fulfilled, life will be eaten up and he/she will be banished in this world like they never existed,"

"s**t, this is my fault, I stopped her desire," I gripped my hands before deciding to go back to where she was limping and wincing in pain.

I looked at her intently and saw that she was crying in pain while hugging herself. It boils my blood just by seeing her suffering like that. For a moment, I had no idea of what I was about to do to her.

My breathing almost hitched when I kneeled and used my hand to raise her chin, "I'll f*****g burn this book after this," I claimed before crashing my lips into hers.

I closed my eyes after tasting her divine lips again, it didn't change from the first moment I claimed it.

It was soft, sweet, and warm that woke up the rest of the veins that's been sleeping inside of my cold, hardened body. 

I knew from that moment I let go of her lips that day in her room, I will regret ever kissing her again. My senses couldn't even control my hands as they started roaming around her worship-worthy body. I easily lifted her and placed her on my lap without breaking our kiss against each other.

Even if I don't mention it, I knew I was starving for this, thirsty for her kisses and touches. Her small grunts, whenever I caress her back, make it even hard for me to stop from going further.

She slowly grinds at the top of me, so I grunted in desire making it harder for me to control myself as I pinned her underneath me without leaving her lips. She let out a small moan when I breathed on her neck and kissed it.

Her sweet scent would be one of the reasons I'll lose my sanity right now, "Damn it, woman," I breathed while licking her neck.

"C-Calyx," she whispered, so I stopped after hearing her for the first time mentioning my name. It sounded so different like it was a sweet melody being played for my ears.

"You said my name," I smiled before caressing her cheeks, "I didn't know that you knew my name," I almost chuckled while kissing her forehead. It's absurd because I know that she knows my name, but she didn't even mention it before until now.

I claimed her lips once more and was glad that she immediately responded to me. We're ravishing each other's mouths like there's no tomorrow.

Both of our desires grew stronger and didn't realize that the book was glowing massively. My hands slipped underneath her uniform and decided to unbutton her blouse, I couldn't think straight, all I wanted was to be closer to her.

I was pulled back to reality when I noticed a strange light emitting around my room. That woman lost consciousness after I let go of her lips.

My arms wrapped around her waist and placed her gently on my lap again as I stared at that book intently.

"Oh? Would you look at that, you can't even handle my desire compared to hers," I smirked before grabbing that book that looks like it's shaking with fear.

"My desire couldn't be counted by the pages inside you, you should be mindful of that, you don't know how much I thirst for that woman," I firmly stated before summoning my elemental power.

At first, I thought I don't have any powers after dad just let me borrow half of his powers, but Hailey made me realize that I'm not just only that. She knew I was a human dragon that summons an elemental power.

"Now let her go or you'll be burnt into ashes," I threatened, so the book just glowed and a ray of light towards that woman's head.

I waited for the light to disappear and when it's done, I stared at that book intently, "I hope you don't take this personally, but a book like you shouldn't exist too," I used my element of fire to burn it.

The book made a crackling and sizzling sound, it almost sounded like it was pleading for me to stop.

"Mess with me and that woman, everyone who ever tries will be punished," I firmly said before throwing that book away from me.

I immediately checked if her eyes were back to normal and sighed in relief after seeing those sapphire eyes of hers.

"And you, don't open that dark shelf again," I warned, but I'm sure that she couldn't hear me yet right now.

I waited for several minutes for her to wake up. It's been a while, maybe that book took a toll on her body, plus it was my fault that she was hurt that badly.

If only I had kissed her quickly earlier, she wouldn't feel the pain that she felt a while ago. I stared at her intently, a memory invaded my mind as it revealed to me her desire a while ago.

"To be loved by someone I like, to be kissed by my pair is something I want to fulfill,"

Does she know? Does she know that she's my mate? I clasped my hand against each other before placing them on the front to cover my mouth.

Does she really like me? Did she mean that desire? Was that desire really meant for me? I hissed just the thought of her having that desire towards someone.

But she can't, she can't be with me, at least not now, "It's better this way, we're both better in this kind of relationship," I claimed, but I know deep inside it isn't what I want.

"You're just scared," my eyes widened after hearing that voice inside of my mind, "You're scared that she might avoid you if she ever found out the real you,"

"No, that's not true," I touched my head because it was aching so badly again now that this voice talked.

"It's true, you're scared that she wouldn't treat you like how she treats you right now, everything will change if you get closer to her, you're afraid that you'll in danger her life," 

"Get off my mind!" I screamed, but that voice inside of my head just laughed like it was joyous seeing me suffering like this.

"You can kick me out if you wanted, but you know that we're both the same," that eerie voice continued talking in my mind as I tried to get rid of that voice over my head.

"S-Stop it! Leave me alone!" I gritted my teeth while trying to squeeze my head, "Get out of my mind!" I yelled.

"I would never go out, you let me in and it's only a matter of time until we'll both meet each other," that voice sounded so confident that we'll see each other sooner.

"T-That will never happen, I-I won't let you," I sternly said, so the voice just laughed probably because of my perseverance.

"I would like to see you try to stop the disasters from letting me out of your world," that voice laughed inside of my head that's making me slightly deaf. W-What does that voice mean about that?

"We'll be as one again, together we will conquer the world you failed to dominate," the voice added, but I didn't mind it as I continued blocking my ears and head using my hands.

A soft, warm tapped from my shoulders was to be felt that distracted me from that voice, so I slowly raised my head and was astounded upon seeing her awake.

Those sapphire eyes of hers immediately comforted my well-being, "C-Calyx? W-Where are we? What's going on?" she confusedly asked, so I felt relieved seeing her okay.

All of my worries washed away after she mentioned my name, "Nothing, let's just get out of here," I invited and dragged her away from that secret room.

Whatever thing will come, I will be ready for it and that voice.

To be continued…