The Best Friend Agreement

"I just want it to stop."

Ivy’s P.O.V

Ryder and I just arrived back from dinner, the little Italian place we were at really did do the best food EVER! Ryder seemed better than when we left and thankfully he had not looked at me again the same way he did when I first appeared in front of him with this outfit on. I do not know what that was all about. I pushed it to the back of my head.

“Wanna head out to the beach for a bit, have a beer or two, enjoy the peace and quiet?” Ryder asked

“Yes, sounds good. Let me change into my comfies.” I smiled widely at him

“You and your comforts.” He laughed “Ok I will get you out there.” He smiled

I nodded, heading into the room stripping down and pulling my booty shorts and a black tank top of and of course my fluffy boot slippers, don’t go anywhere without them. I took all my make-up off, pulling my hair back in a hair tie to keep it out my eyes. I headed out in search for Ryder, finding him sitting on the sand, close to the water on a blanket, lost in his own little world. I smiled as I watched him for a moment, the light from the moon shining on his face, showing his beautiful features. Wait? What? I shook my head, making my way over to him. I sat down next to him, Ryder handing me a beer, not taking his eyes of the ocean.

“Hey you OK Ryder?” I asked

He slowly turned around to face me, a small smile on his face but there was a sadness to his eyes and he nodded. I knew he was lying, he was thinking about Ellie again.

“Ryder come on, it is me. You know I can tell when you are lying to me. I know you better than I know myself.” I said softly

“I know, sorry. I am thinking about Ellie again.” he said sadly, resting his head on my shoulder

I reached in, playing with his hair, kissing the top of his head

“I gathered that.” I said sadly

He sighed, reached down, linking his fingers with mine as a comfortable silence fell between us. I wish I could do something…anything to make him feel better…make him forget about her even for a moment but I had no clue what to do. He looked up at me, giving me a soft smile which I returned. I reached in, stroking his cheek softly. He closed his eyes over, moving into my touch and sighing. He slowly opened his eyes, looking up at me

“I just want it to stop, even for a minute.” He whispered

“I know. I wish I could do that for you Ryder cause I hate seeing you hurting especially over someone like that. You know if I could take some of that pain from you I would.” I whispered softly

“I know you would and that is why I love you Ace.” He whispered, reaching down to kiss my cheek but I moved, without meaning to, his lips falling against my lips instead of my cheek.

“s**t! Sorry!” he said pulling away, slightly our lips were still close though

“It’s OK.” I smiled

Ryder reached in, his hand falling on my cheek, stroking it with his thumb. I took a deep breath, moving into his touch, his eyes not moving from mine. I don’t know what was going on with this little moment we were sharing, it was different. He was close enough to me I could feel his hot breath brush my lips and there was something inside of me that wanted to close the small gap between us but there was another part of me that was telling me not too.

“Ivy?” he whispered

“Yes?” I whispered back

“Can….actually never mind.” He sighed, pulling away from me

I let out a breath I never realised I was holding in. Ryder turning away from me again. I was confused on what he was gonna say to me. I lay down on the blanket, staring at the stars. Ryder soon doing the same thing. Another silence fell between, Ryder’s hand falling over mine. I smiled, rolling onto my side, resting my head on his chest, his arm wrapping around my shoulder. I snuggled into his side, something I do a lot cause there is something about it that makes me feel safe…makes me feel like nothing could get to me. I know that sounds weird but it is true, he has always managed to make me feel that way.

“Ryder what were you gonna say to me?” I whispered

He looked down at me, smiling

“Nothing, don’t matter, it was silly.” He shrugged

“Ryder!” I said sternly

He chuckled, shaking his head at me “Honestly Ivy it would be best if I never said, don’t wanna make things awkward between us.” He said

I nodded, deciding to let it drop. Though he never pulled away, he kept his eyes on me. I see his tongue run along his bottom lip when he looks at me, his eyes falling from mine to my lips. Now I know what he was gonna say. He was gonna ask me if he could kiss me. I don’t know if he realised he was doing it but I found myself doing the same back to him. A silence fell between us again. I swear he was inching closer to me with each second. I swallowed hard, staying still, not even trying to move. Soon his lips closed the space between us, his warm, soft lips fell against mine, kissing me softly. I know I should pull away, I never wanted to though, not in that moment, instead I found myself kissing him back. What started off slowly turned a little rougher. I moaned into his lips, wrapping my arms around his neck, playing with the hair at the back of his neck as we kissed, Ryder’s turn to moan against my lips. Ryder’s hand, landed on my side, slowly making his way down my body until his hand rested on my hip. Neither of us seem to be trying to stop it. I rolled onto my side, Ryder doing the same. He used my hip to pull me closer to him, our bodies pressing together. I felt myself becoming breathless with the longer we kissed. I felt his warm tongue run along my bottom lip. I groaned, parting my lips and letting him push his tongue past my lips. The both of us moaned loudly as our tongues met. Ryder quickly pulled away from my lips

“Do you want me to stop?” he said, panting

“I don’t know.” I replied breathless, confused on how I wanted this to go “Do you wanna stop?” I added

“Honestly Ivy. Kissing you a moment ago was the only time today that Ellie has not been on my mind.” He said, biting his lower lip

Maybe there is a way I can stop him from thinking about her after all. I never said another word, instead I reached in, pressing my lips against his once more, kissing him roughly. He growled into my lips, kissing me back the same way. Ryder shifted himself, climbing on top of me, not pulling away from the kiss once. I hooked my legs around his hips, Ryder’s hands grabbing my hands that were pinned at each side of my body. He ground his hips into me as we kissed, a throaty moan falling from my lips. f**k! That felt good. As I said, aint been laid in months so any intimacy is a bonus right now. Ryder pulled his lips from mine, placing them on my jawline, trailing kisses over it before making his way to my neck, doing the same. I moaned loudly, my head falling back as his lips explored new territory. I felt his fingertips trace my bare legs. My body shook under his touch, making Ryder smirk against the skin of my neck. I reached up, slapping the back of his head

“Stop your smirking.” I giggled

“Ouch!” he said glaring down at me, a smirk creeping up on his lips

“Ivy what are we doing?” he chuckled

“Um laying on the beach getting frisky.” I giggled

“Frisky? You could not have come up with a better word?” he laughed

“Shut up. Now you either kiss me or get off me, the choice is yours?” I smirked

I thought I would feel awkward with whatever this was happening between us but it was not. I felt comfortable…I felt good.

“And you say I am the bossy one.” He laughed before his lips found their way back to mine

I let my fingertips trace down his back, falling on his ass, giving it a quick grab, giggling as he moaned, making me smirk again.

“Maybe we should take this inside?” he mumbled against my lips “Well if you wanna continue wherever this is going?” he added, breathing heavily

I nodded. Ryder jumped to his feet, reaching his hand out for me to take, helping me to my feet before we made our way inside. Were we really gonna do this?