October 27th
I wonder how I used to spend so much time alone. And happily alone! Not begrudgingly. I wasn’t lonely. I wasn’t miserable. I wanted those moments to myself.
Now, I feel desperately lonely whenever Bonnie goes home. I want her here with me all the time. That’s not good. I need to rein it in or I’ll scare her off. More than that, I need to rein it in or I’ll start to go crazy whenever Bonnie isn’t in the same room as me.
Maybe I’ve already started down that road.
Definitely I have.
The second she shows up, I forget any bit of angst I felt when she was away. So I forgot to ask her if she knew that her phone had been off all that time. I didn’t even think about it until she’d come and gone.
When we’re together, I’m so overjoyed to see her that I want to maximize t
