The past
Chapter 1
Simon’s pov
I suppose I should start at the beginning so you know how we got to where we are today, I guess it all began when I was around four, and mum was pregnant. I was so excited to be getting a little brother or sister to play with. Mum and Dad were both excited and happy, too. Well, at least that was until dad found out it was a sister I was getting, and then he wasn’t as happy.
When Sienna was born she was the cutest little thing I had ever seen she had dad’s black hair like me, but she didn’t have his grey eyes like I did, no she had mum’s green ones and they looked like sparkling little gems.
As soon as Mum was better after having her, all dad did was complain about needing a second son and mum better do her job right and give him one. Being small, I didn’t understand it at the time, and by the time I grew up, I forgot until I started to look back and remember.
Finally, one day, he became happy again, and his good mood stayed all through mum’s pregnancy. This time, I found out I was getting a brother now. I hoped he was as good as Sienna, she was cute and smiled at me every time she saw me and she never cried like my friends brothers and sisters.
When Stuart was born, he cried all the time he looked just like dad and me, I didn’t understand why dad was so happy with him and not Sienna. He was always crying, and Sienna was always happy, I liked being with Sienna more. He got better as he got older. It took him ages, though, and even then, he kept throwing tantrums until he was 4.
When I got to 10 years old and Sienna was 5 and Stuart was almost 4, dad told me I couldn’t spend time with Sienna anymore. He explained to me all the differences between girls and boys and their places in the pack.
I didn’t really like it much, I didn’t like the thought of Sienna or mum being treated badly or looked down on because they were girls. But I knew how nice dad was to mum and how good an Alpha he was, so I knew Sienna would have her mate to look after her.
I also knew that I had to listen to him so I could be a strong Alpha when I grew up or I wouldn’t be able to look after my pack properly, then everyone would get hurt. It was then that my training started properly with my dad, and it was hard.
Every time I tried to spend time with Sienna or talk to her nicely, I would get punished in some way. It could be extra training or stopping me from seeing my friends. Dad drummed it into me that I was being punished because of her, and it was her fault.
I slowly started to drift further and further apart from her until I could barely stand the sight of her. Eventually, even mum didn’t talk to her or give her any attention when we were all together. The only one that still spoke to her was Stuart, I don’t know why he liked her when no one else did.
I mean, all she did was cause us to get hurt and in trouble. It would be best for him to just pretend she was not there like the rest of us. She didn’t even try and talk to mum, dad, or me anymore, and that suited me down to the ground.
Then one day after she turned 17 she was just gone, I am not even sure how long she was gone before we noticed but Stuart was going mad about it and mum was actually upset about it all. I really don’t understand why she was so upset about it it is not like she bothered 7 when she was here.
Mum begged dad to get in touch with the council to tell them she had gone missing and send out people to search for them, and he promised her that he would. It was a few days later that I asked him about it because I hated seeing my mum and my brother so upset.
He just told me straight out that he hadn’t bothered to talk to the council and he wasn’t going to waste anyone’s time by sending his men out to look for his ungrateful daughter who probably ran off with a man. I felt slightly guilty for lying to Mum and Stuart, but to be honest, I was glad she was gone and couldn’t cause us any more problems.
It was 6 months later when I was in dad’s office with him, and he received a call to say she was alive and had been kidnapped. He didn’t care at all about what had happened. At that moment, I started to question things and wonder if what I had believed all of my life was true.
When the council came 2 days later to inform the family what had happened to Sienna and ask why he hadn’t gotten in touch with them about it. I felt physically sick, and they didn’t even go into any details. Mum had to be sedated, and Stuart punched dad and then me.
It was then that I realised he had been lying to me all of my life. I knew it was a lie he told me and the council that he thought she had run off because she was a problem child, and I am sure they saw right through him as well. It was at that moment that I started to look back and remember how he manipulated me and turned me against her.
I knew that it was just his own prejudices against women that made him act the way he did towards her, but what he did was beyond cruel. I started to do my own thing and have my own values in life, I hated the way dad behaved and thought. I could see everything that was wrong with the way he ran the pack, and how his pack members were treated.
I didn’t want to rock the boat too much yet and him to not pass over the Alpha title to me as I knew that there was too many changes that needed to be made and the sooner the better. The only way it could be done is by becoming the Alpha.
A year and a half or so later, the pack was attacked by the elite squad, and Sienna was a part of it. I was extremely shocked to find out that dad was the mastermind behind the trafficking of the women and responsible for the kidnapping of his own daughter.
All of the ranked members were taken to the dungeons, and Sienna refused to look at us or talk to us as Constantine the Vampire councilman compelled each of us to answer their questions truthfully. It was a big relief to me to discover that my dad was the only one in the pack who was complicit in the crime.
I was made Alpha as he was put to death, mum was desperate to talk to Sienna, and I was also desperate to make amends, not that I knew how to, I mean is there any way to make up for this. I just left her, I knew no one was looking for her, and I didn’t even care what kind of a brother am I?
It was no surprise that the only person she could bare to speak to was Stuart. He was the only one who had always been in her life. I know Mum wanted to she was just too scared that dad would take it out on me, so she sacrificed her daughters happiness.
So as she left, it was yet again just Stuart left with her contact details. Only this time, I actually desperately wanted to talk to her and be there for her. I longed to hear her voice and have her in our lives, I wanted to be there to help her any time she needed it.
Eventually, mum was allowed to get in touch occasionally. They were more like acquaintances than mother and daughter. Me, on the other hand well let’s just say all of my efforts had been ignored and unanswered. She wanted nothing to do with me.
I hurt her badly, I understand that, and it is my own fault that I have lost my sister. My dad had ruined so many lives. Our whole family has fallen apart because of his sick and twisted actions, mum is a shadow of herself and I am not sure if she will ever forgive herself for the pain her daughter has felt throughout her life because of all of us.
