" They offered to extend my scholarship for my last year too. I say it so quietly, so sure he is about to snap this time, and that knot of anxiety consumes me. Arry s face takes on that cool, indifferent blankness that he is crazily good at, even still. Unreadable and I have no idea what s going through his head right now. He s shielding me from whatever instant reaction he is having, which is never a good thing. "
" Is that what you want to do? He sounds and looks so emotionally deadpan that I m getting nothing at all. Not even a tiny hint, which usually means he is inwardly thinking No. Never. "
" I don t know& I want to know what you think I should do. My lip quivers with nerves, his hold on me hasn t changed but he is focusing on me intensely."
"Just be honest, Arry!
