I finally managed a little sleep after obsessing crazily and turning my head inside out for a few hours. Torn about the choice in front of me I never imagined I would ever have.
Alexi loves me.
Alexi is offering me something real.
I think the world has ended and hell has frozen over because I cannot seem to digest this at all.
I never in a million years would have imagined him of all people, offering me something that only a few months ago I had longed for from him. I had been mush at his feet and would have done anything for a chance at claiming his heart, and now here I stand with exactly that, and it's like it's not even real. Detached from any sense of reality and floating like a numb blob of confusion in my head.
My initial reaction to his confession of love was anger because of
