I have worked my arse off for five days getting this club ready, and now, as opening night looms upon me, I stand out in the car park giving Feral his daily food portion. Sun blazing down on us in this gorgeous weather, warming my head and shoulders in my loose shirt dress, completely out of the norm for the time of year and I feel a little less tense than I did indoors. My nerves for re-opening night have been getting to me for days, and I'm strung up to high heaven with a constant lead weight in my stomach.
I may have grown a little attached to this snarling little ginger beast and have been feeding him twice a day when I pop out here for air. It's become ritualistic for me. Escaping my confines for breathing space to expel my anxiety and seeing to this hopeless creature. He's starting
