I get bogged down with work and end up with the headache from hell, before heading home; it's been a stressful first day back, and now, more than ever, I'm hating his absence. We're a team … We work on all this crap together and we do it well. I've never had to single-handedly take over and I don't like it anymore. I'm angry at him for making me do this. Angry at the way my emotions are up and down, and I can't stick on hating him or missing him.
I know it's part of my job and I know I'm capable but still … I detest it. I know more about the Carrero empire than I could have ever imagined, I've so many staff at my fingertips it's terrifying. I converse with lawyers, security, HR, and other crazily titled employees constantly, and sometimes I wonder how my head hasn't self-imploded. I'm onl
