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10 years ago
"You know how it goes Alessandra, I just enjoyed our relationship until it last. My parents would never approved of our relationship. Alam mo ang lahat ng bagay na yan when you agreed with me on this. Kaya hindi ka na dapat magtaka now that I'm breaking up with you." naiiritang sabi ni Sancho sa kanya.
I couldn't utter any words. Masyado akong nabibigla sa mga nangyayari. I thought that the love that Sancho and I shared were real and honest. But to my disappointment, it was just a past time for him until his parents decided kung sino ang babaeng dapat na ipakasal sa kanya.
Hindi ko alam kung dapat ko bang paniwalaan ang lahat ng naririnig ko mula sa kanya.
"I thought you love me?" cliche mang sabihin pero yung lang ang mga katagang lumabas sa aking bibig.
"That's bullshit! No matter how much I love you or you love me, you will never be good enough for me. Kailangan mong itatak sa isip mo ito. Ang mayayaman ay para lang sa mayaman at ang mahihirap ay para lang sa mahirap. Mayaman ako, in fact, sobrang yaman. Hindi ako nababagay sa isang mahirap lang na tulad mo..."
"...Wake up! You're ain't cinderella at hindi na uso ang fairytale sa panahon ngayon. You have to wake up in the reality na may mga bagay na hindi talaga pwede kahit anong pilit mo. Just like us, I'm sorry but one day I'll gonna marry a girl whose rich, sophisticated and elegant na nabibilang sa alta sosyedad. Kaya habang maaga pa lang kailangan na nating tapusin to." mahabang paliwanag ni Sancho.
It feels like forever habang pinakikinggan ko ang bawat salitang binabanggit ni Sancho. Malinaw ang bawat pagbigkas nito sa mga salita but something inside me refuse to believe anything he said. Gustong gusto kong isipin na panaginip lang ang lahat, isang masamang panaginip.
But I just realized that my hands automatically went to Sancho's face. I just slapped him and damn it hurts. Clearly, indicating that everything is way far from being a dream.
"So sinasabi mo bang ka-bullshitan lang lahat ng pinagsasabi mo sa akin? Na hindi mo naman talaga ako totoong mahal? Lahat ng pangako mo sinabi mo lang because you feel you need to say those words to me?" mahina ngunit may diing tanong ko sa kanya.
"No! But... I'm sorry, sooner or later you will realize that all of these, I did these for you. Because I care about you and believe it or not I did these because I really do love you." buong sinseridad nitong sabi sa akin.
"Now that's bullshit! Pagkatapos ng lahat ng pang iinsultong sinabi mo sa akin kanina ngayon sasabihin mo sa akin na ginagawa mo ito dahil mahal mo ko? Putang ina!"
Hindi ko na napigilang magmura ng mga oras na iyon. Parang pakiramdam ko sasabog lahat ng ugat sa katawan ko dahil sa sobrang galit ko sa kanya. How dare he say those thing then eventually tell me that he did all this to protect me because he cares for me, that he loves me. I don't know but it really hard for me to believe that.
"Stop cursing! You know how much I hate to hear you talk like that. Hate me all you want, but that doesn't change the fact that I'm leaving you. I'm sorry."
And with that he left, leaving me shattered and broken. I can't do anything that moment but to broke down in tears. Hindi lang simpleng iyak iyon kundi hagulgol.
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That incident left me with nothing. Parang nagunay ang mundo ko ng paulit ulit kapag naaalala ko ang masasakit na salita na sinabi nya sa akin. I heard it as if he's telling it to my face and it's on the replay button. Paulit ulit itong tumatakbo sa isip ko. Pakiramdam ko ng mga oras na iyon mamamatay na ko.
Then when I opened the television, there I saw him, gorgeous as ever. All smiling and all willingfully charming the press with his dashing charisma. Looks like it was the same interview everyday but this time beside him was a beautiful, sophisticated and elegant woman. Kung hindi ako nagkakamali anak sya ng isang sikat na senador, na napapa-balitang balak tumakbo bilang presidente sa susunod na halalan.
Parang dinudurog ang puso nya while watching him getting cozy with that girl. It's just been a week after their break up and then there he is, all glorious and ready to take the world down. Samantalang ako isang linggo ng nagmumukmok sa kwarto, ni away maligo o magsuklay man lang.
I turn off the television and went to look my self in the mirror. To my surprise, I absolutely look terrible. This is not me. I should never let myself down just because of that stupid asshole.
That very moment I decided to leave everything behind and back on my feet. That day I promise to myself that I would never let myself fall in love with anyone like Sancho Rodrigo dela Vega.
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I change the cast again!!!! HAHAHAH
Jennie Kim as Alessandra/Ali (binago ko din yung name nya dati Alexandria, so wag malito pag may iilang hindi nabago.)
Tom Ellis as Sancho Rodrigo Dela Vega
itutuloy ko na to guys since malapit ng matapos si Loving Mr. Wright! Support nyo din to ha!