The story of a voicless ghost

Chapter three

I don't need to tell you if I came back or not, you know I did. There was something so mysterious and magical about that place, about that ghost. I decided that I wouldn't bring the subject of his past unless he does first, I learned that sometimes people want to keep those things to themselves and mostly a ghost, their past is the reason they're still wondering those places. That white rabbit that once guided me towards the house keeping its distance now trusted me and allowed me to pet him, I suppose this is how I'll spend my entire summer. When I arrived to the house I went straight towards the library where I had met Abel for the past few days but when I arrived he wasn't looking like himself. 

He wasn't there waiting for me as he had done the last time, instead he was sitting at the piano looking at it with a sad face, I suppose he was lost in his memories because when I said hello he jumped. Abel didn't say anything, he just waved from the piano but didn't move, something was wrong. I had no business asking him what was wrong with him, last time I asked him a personal question it didn't turn out great. This time I did bring my professional camera, I wanted to start taking pictures of the place. I let him know and I started walking around, then I remembered I hadn't explored the first floor. I went into that hallway with the furniture and at the end there was another glass door, I couldn't quite see what was through that door but all I saw was green, I walked through.

I found this huge inner garden, it was beautiful even if it looked a bit abandoned. I started to wonder how great the place would look under the moonlight, I really needed to stay and sleep here some day. At the end of this room there was an archway that lead towards the gardens I supposed. The place was full of statues, bushes, trees and even a maze, honestly I couldn't understand how this place could be abandoned. I walked for a while looking at the statues which looked really old but majestic, after some time I looked back and saw the hole mansion at last, I had no idea this place was so big. I then noticed something was written in the archway as I headed back, it said:

Gaudeamus igitur iuvenes dum sumus

It meant " So let's enjoy, while we are still young". I smiled as I wondered who's idea was to write that phrase. While I came back to the library I looked at the photographs I had taken from the place, and I have to say they were pretty great. When I got there Abel was near the door with a book on his hand, I suppose he had been waiting for me. He raised his head when he saw me but still didn't smile but I could sense something in his eyes, was it fear or sadness? Abel didn't say a word but he grabbed my hand and guided me up the spiral stairs to the third floor, where was he taking me now? He guided me towards a huge hallway were paintings that looked really old hung, I wanted to stay there but Abel insisted, we climbed some more stairs, I had no idea the place had a forth floor.

It was this beautiful room with marble columns and glass walls and roof, these people loved glass. He finally let go of me and examined my astonishment face with curiosity, like if he hadn't seen one in years, but I guess he hadn't.

"Like it? In this room most of the parties were held but now that its abandoned I come here to think"

"This place doesn't stop surprising me" I say not noticing Abel's face is the total opposite as mine.

"I think its time to tell you the truth" he said. I looked at him confused, what truth?

"What do you mean?"

"I'm going to tell you my past"

 I went silent and paid as much attention I could. But instead of talking he just remained silent, like if he was remembering something very painful, I gave him his time, its not everyday you get to tell the story about how you used to live when your not. He finally looked me in the eyes, the looked watery.

"The thing is...its been so long...I woke up and found the place deserted, my memories flashing like if they had happened just a few seconds ago...I wanted to forget a while...I wanted to fell free for a moment...but I never knew that I would have to suffer the consequences...not those at least..." Tears were now falling from his eyes.

"I've spent the past years not thinking of my past life...I wanted to live a new chapter you now?"

His voice started to quiver. 

"But...then I met you...so full of curiosity...you asked me about my life and then it hit me...I...I tried as hard as I could...I ran through the place trying to get at least just a clue...and then I realized...I had forgotten"

He was now on the ground shaking and crying."I CANT REMEMBER!... I JUST CAN'T! All my life...gone forever...I can't remember if I had a sister, if I had a dog, god I can't even remember how I died!"

I knelt in front of him and tried to wipe his tears but he just threw himself towards me, desperate for a hug. I never knew a simple question could destroy someone in a matter of seconds and I hated myself for being insensitive. I couldn't even nearly imagine the pain he must be feeling right now, forgetting your entire life, forgetting who you were when you were alive and forgetting the people that he had watched grown and loved.

"Its unfair..." he said after a while.

"It really is... for just a moment I wanted to get used to being the thing that I am...but I never wanted to forget my life...not the only precious thing I had left...and now its gone forever...I will never remember what it felt to be hungry or tired, I will never know if I fell in love...and now I'm just a useless ghost that has no idea who is he waiting for...if I'm honest I wish I could die again, I can't even bear thinking of how disappointed I am with myself...god I can't even see my reflection"

Really, how stupid was I? I had a ghost wrapped around me mourning his forgotten past but I couldn't even get a single word out of my mouth, but what could I say to comfort a boy that had no idea about his life? I remained silent. It was the wisest thing to do, I knew that anything I said in that moment would make it worse, I just limited to stroke his hair which calmed him a bit. I decided that I couldn't just leave him suffering like this and blaming himself, I had to do something.

"You know what, I'm going to help you remember"

He looked at me with sad eyes,"How?"

"I don't know but I have to try, you are my friend after all, I can't leave you here in pain"

He smiled a bit and stared at me with gratitude and then he hugged me again.

"Don't leave me"

"I wasn't planing to"