I'm His Mate

Chapter 10: How Can I Ever Hurt You?

"Do you believe in soulmate Audrey? The match made by the moon, true love?" he asked.

True love from the moon?

True love is something that I have never believed in my life. Love is when you have someone special in your heart. Someone you will protect and cherish forever. Love is something that you will carry until you die. Love is something that lasts no matter the circumstances. Maybe I have not received it that’s why I don’t believe it. My Aunt and Grandma love me but there’s always a space in my heart that is always empty. Why did my parents leave me alone? Why is it that only Grandma Candice and Aunt Beth who cares for me? Am I not a lovely child? Will I ever experience it?

I laughed. "No.", I said shaking my head. It was too good and it cannot be true. It's not that I don't want to believe, it was just hard to believe that someone is willing to be with you until the end. People always leave.” I said and he was shocked.

“Audrey, the first time I have seen you I know you are the match for me. I loved you since then and it never faded and not even once. Your whole existence matters to me. I know that I have loved you all this time, my moon.” He said and held me hands again. “You are my mate.”

"What are you saying Troy? Why would you love someone like me? Tell me." I asked in confusion. We are just children before how can he be so sure?

"You said that people leave right?” His face darkened. “Yes , even you left me. But I am different. I am a wolf and when a wolf loves we never leave.” He said and he gripped my hands in pain. “I waited patiently for you Audrey for all these years. All I ever think of is this day that I can finally say that I love you. I wish I can forget you too but that’s not the case.” He cried. “Every time I think of you my heart hurts!”

“Troy please yourself calm down.” I said and pulled him into a hug. I’m being too insensitive right now. We are different from each other. However there are things that don’t seem to make sense. Why would he call himself a wolf?

“You are the match given to me by the Moon goddess Unlike before I can take care of you now and I will never let you go.” He said and his electric grey eyes stared at me with determination. I smiled. He said that he wants to take care of me?

"Troy. Stop this." I said and sighed. I let go of him and faced him.

"When I was a child, everyone refused to play with me. I am the son of the Alpha, everyone is afraid to hurt me or even just talk to me. My mother died giving birth to me, it was then I saw my father slowly losing his control to himself. I was alone and you found Me.", he stare at me with his electric gray eyes. “Back in the mansion near the tower when I was throwing my golden ball and you got it. You were angry and punched me in the stomach, I'm surprised. Really, because nobody ever dared to do that.", he chuckled.

"Who will throw a golden ball without any caution anyway," I mumbled.

"That day, I felt something special. Every day I become even more attached to you, every single day I need to see you even though I know how badass you are ordering me around. And you know a lot of stuff, so I followed you like a dog." he sighed. "But then, when I asked my father about it. He said it was too early for me. That the bond will only get on the way, but I never let him stop me but then, you're leaving. You left Me.", he hissed.

"I-It was my father, his job is unstable and we have to move. I can't stop him.. I don't want to leave you all alone." I said. I really don’t know what will happen to me before because I only rely on my father.

"But you did, remember that day when I was crying onto your lap and we made those promises? The letters, the calls, and the kiss?" he said. I remembered that he grew attached to me that he doesn’t want to let me go. That’s why I gave him light promises before I leave.

"Yes, that when I came back, if I came back here, I will give you a kiss and we will be together forever. I remember those parts." I laughed dryly, but we we're too young back then. I don’t know if we can do that now.

"However, there is something I want to say to you before I get the answer." he said and he stood up, the absence of his hand from mine made me realize how cold it was outside.

He strips his shirt off and he threw it on the ground. "Troy what are you doing?!"

"I'm a werewolf Audrey. I am a beast and I want to be honest with you. Please watch me change." He growl as the moon illuminated his body and how his bones and skin changed into a black wolf form. He howled to the moon, I heard it. It was like from last night, the lonely howl of the wolf, his fur that looks just like the dark night sky. He opened his eyes and a pair of red bloody eyes stared at me. I want to run; I want to hide from the wolf, but not from Troy. With this creature that stood before me, I see a friend and I see beauty. It’s still Troy, he will not hurt me!

I look at his eyes and he looks really sad and lonely. Instead of being afraid of him, am I in the position to do that? I left years ago and he became like this. If I look at him by his appearance he will be hurt again. I need to understand him more than anything.

"You're beautiful, Troy. I don't care if you're a wolf, I know you will never hurt Me." His fangs gleamed, his snarling became even more wild. “..because you’re Troy.” I cried and he slowly shifted back.

"How can I ever hurt you?"

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