Blood & Pain: My Mafia Stepbrother

chapter 5 Roman

Roman p.o.v.

I was driving like a crazy person, my men were probably thinking that something bad had happened because I behaved like a madman. They were sitting in the back seat with blank expressions but I could still guess they were scared, that I will certainly crash the car...I didn't care.

I wanted to talk to Dane. He might be in his home or my office... I will go and check his home first because it's early in the morning so, he might be sleeping. However, I had no f*****g idea why I was going to him but I knew one thing for sure if I didn't talk to anyone then I will lose my f*****g mind. And it's all because of her, Mia... why she had to be a kid, she f*****g ruined my entire f*****g plan.

Yesterday night, after talking to Dane about our new mission and about my father's order to keep mafia life a secret from her precious daughter, I went home to take some rest. I was too tired to change so I slept wearing whatever I wore at that time. When I woke up today.. in the morning, Father was going to pick them up from the airport, he warned me again about how to act around Mia and that pissed me off more so I came up with a stupid plan about how to scare her off from here. I did realise, how childish that plan was...I am 26 for god sake but what could I do, I was bored and I wanted some drama in my life as I couldn't kill anyone because of that sharif and my father.

Killing gave me pleasure, it was like my entertainment doze or something... that's why I'd survived the past two years without s*x and now I couldn't do it either. I was excited that now I will finally get some enjoyment when I'll make that b***h's life like a hell because seeing someone in pain gave me satisfaction but then I saw her...and all my plans went in vain.

She was a kid perhaps sixteen or seventeen, I obviously didn't know her age otherwise I would have never thought about hurting a kid... a silly mistake on my behalf. How the hell could I forget that Dane told me, I will teach in that same school in which my step-sister will study. I should have guessed that she was a child that's why father didn't want to involve her in the mafia business, at least he was showing her mercy by hiding her from our dangerous world. I wish he showed me the same mercy when I was a kid.

So, my plan failed even before I started it but that's not the main problem, the main f*****g reason why I ran away from my own house like a f*****g coward was that I got a f*****g boner seeing a f*****g teenager who is my f*****g stepsister. What am I a f*****g paedophile?

This happened barely some minutes ago when I was talking to Mariano, my father's right-hand man. We were talking about our recent drug delivery when I noticed that Father and her wife came into the living room. So, I stood up from the couch, ignoring their presence and leaned near the window, gazing at those lily flowers. It always helped me to keep my mind calm.

My father once told me that my mother liked lilies that's why I made a big garden full of lilies because it made me feel like she is with me, watching over me.

I was busy in conversation with Mariano when I first saw her. She was in the garden standing there alone, couldn't see her face clearly but she was staring at flowers and then she started rubbing her eyes. I thought she is definitely some weirdo...who cries seeing a flower anyway?

So, when my father called my name and introduced her to me, then I turned around...unaware of what was waiting for me there... the most beautiful green eyes I had ever seen. And for a second, I was just lost in them.

As she stared at me with her big doe-looking eyes, her small...not too short, but still small body wrapped under a loose sweatshirt...And those raven dark hair, long...oh so long wavy curls, resting on her shoulders, her hair were messy, her eyes looked tired...and her lips seems dried as if she hadn't drank water for a long time but still... she looked like an angel.

Her lips were so red and pouty that I wanted to kiss and bite them until they bleed...And before my mind could process anything or I could stop my thoughts...they were already there, that urge, I hadn't felt in years...That vicious hunger, I kept locked inside me, wasn't latched anymore.

As I saw her, all I could think about was, I wanted her...I wanted to make her kneel in front of me or tie her up in my bedroom and f**k her until she begged me to stop. Images of her tieing in my bed begging for my mercy crying and moaning in pain and pleasure came to my mind and I started breathing heavily.

I came out of my disgusting ingenuity when my trouser felt a little too tight... and only then I noticed, that I got a f*****g boner.

My stupid mind was so lost in her that I hadn't spoken anything but she didn't say anything either...She was just staring at me, why she was not speaking? I thought and noticed that her eyes travelled from my legs to my forearms and then to my chest and my lips. She wasn't staring at me she was admiring.

Confused, I kept looking at her, asking myself that, Why she was looking at me like that... no one ever adored me the way she did.

Women were either scared of me or hated me. Whenever I get some women's attention all I saw was lust in their eyes but the way Mia saw me with that innocent look in her eyes... I almost forget about my plan of hurting her.

How could I ravage such an angel, and she was just a teenager anyway. I am heartless but we never hurt kids, it's a rule we never involve them. We were breaking our rule by implicating that sheriff's brother but it is first and last I will not do anything to a kid.

There was silence in the room, I hadn't spoken and she also stood there like a statue and my f*****g d**k was behaving like a beast. I had to go before they noticed that huge bulge in my trouser. So, I picked up my coat and ran away from my own home...and ended up driving my car like a f*****g madman.

After some long fifteen minutes, I finally arrived at Dane's house. His car parked there means he was inside. After hurriedly getting out of the car, I knocked on the door.

No one opened, so I knocked once again... if he didn't open this f*****g door in five minutes, I am gonna break this door. Going to knock again but stopped, hearing noises from inside maybe he was coming.

The door opened and instead of Dane, another familiar face welcomed me. Georgia.

"Hey, Ro what are you doing here is everything alright" Georgia, asked with concern in her voice.

I didn't like when she called me Ro. We are not in high school anymore. I wanted to tell her that I don't like it but I didn't want to be rude to her and after what I did to her... the least I could do is to be polite.

" Yes everything is okay I want to talk to Dane. Can I come in?" I replied. However, I didn't need her permission but still, I asked just to be polite.

"Yes, sure come in," she said and I entered the house.

Dane's house was smaller than mine but I liked it here more. It's cosy and felt like home. Like always his house was perfectly clean. Georgia always kept their house clean. I remembered when I used to live here with them I made this house trash by leaving my things here and there... and then Georgia and Dane scolded me like some old hags.

We were so happy...so perfect until I ruined it all. Thinking about old times always made me sad and that's not the reason why I came here. So, ignoring that nostalgic feeling, I sat in the living room in my usual place. They still hadn't removed my black couch which I brought specially for me, because Dane always used to take the whole couch on a movie night and I had to sit on the floor so I brought another one for me.

I was so lost in my thought when I felt someone's hand on my shoulder. Turning around, I saw Georgia smiling at me and Dane was standing there with two glasses of wine with him. They already knew I am in bad mood... know me too well.

"So who dared to piss you off that early in the morning," Dane asked, chucking and pouring wine before sitting next to me on the couch.

" My step-sister, I met her and her mother today. I was planning to make her life hell so I could get some enjoyment because I am so angry that because of her I have to act like a normal person which I am not.", I blurted out in a single breath, " I planned everything that how I make her miserable and make her life like hell then she will beg to go back from where she came. I was so excited.." I can't complete the full sentence because Dane interrupted me and said " she is a kid Roman we don't involve kids in our business and we don't take revenge on kids. You make that rule"

" Let me complete Dane don't interrupt me you know I don't like when you do it." I groaned, taking a deep breath before I start again " so where was I... yes, I planned everything but when I see her and understand why my father doesn't want her to know. And I decided I will not do anything but now I am so angry because I can't fulfil my plan. And you know what happens when I get angry" I told him everything. Not everything.

I didn't tell him the real reason why I was angry. I know he will freak out when I tell him what type of things I wanted to do with her.

She is a child for god sake. I had done so many bad things, I killed so many people and tortured them in a way that one can't even imagine, but the things which I wanted to do with her... disgust me because She is a kid and my step-sister. Even though I didn't like that my father married that woman but I had to accept the fact that Mia is my sister now and she a f*****g kid.

" You know roman if you tried to pay attention to me and what I was saying yesterday then you will be able to know the fact that she is a kid before making your master plan on revenge. I told you that we will be teachers at her school. She is starting her senior year and she is seventeen which means a kid" Dane mocked.

Now I should tell him the real reason why I came here. I didn't know how Dane will react... and why I even telling him. When things like this happen I felt bad that I killed my therapist...he was helping me. Why I always ruined everything and now I was talking to Dane like he is my therapist.

I was thinking about how to tell him but then he asserted " let it be Roman she is our sister and it's not her fault that her mom married your father."

What did he just say Our sister?

Our sister

Our f*****g sister. fuck

"Umm, what do you mean by our sister," I asked. I know what he meant but I still asked to confirm.

" I mean she is our sister. Mine and yours. We are like brothers and your sister is my sister and I always want a little sister but instead of a sister I got you, an arrogant brother. " Dane said, smirking. I just rolled my eyes at his comment that I am arrogant.

I didn't reply anything to him yet. Should I tell him or not? He didn't even meet Mia and he had already made her his sister. I was sitting there quietly drinking my wine.

"Why are you so quiet I was just joking. Anyway, I am so excited to meet her how is she? We were going to teach in her school which means we can protect her from those rich kids who try to bully her and I will teach her self-defence so she can protect herself when we are not there."

" And You can teach her how to use the gun. We will give her everything she wanted and once she turns eighteen we can ask her to join our business if she wants she can join us... She will be our precious little doll what do you think roman", Dane asked with so much hope in his eyes. He was acting like a little child who got his favourite candy.

Dane is so excited and happy. The last time I saw him this happy was when Georgia accepted his proposal.

I remembered he had a little sister before but she was killed by the Russian mafia along with his parents, my father saved him from them. I know he misses his sister and now when Mia became my step-sister Dane is thinking that he get her sister back. I can't tell him.

Not now

not ever

He wants to protect Mia from everyone but how can he protect her from me...