The Blood Pack (book three)

Chapter two

I froze, what the hell? After a few blinks, I turned slowly to see a man with his face dark and his eyes looking straight past me to Harrison. Harrison's grip on my hands loosened as he stood and walked over to the man, wrapping his arms around him and kissing him passionately, right in front of me. I picked up my bag, feeling embarrassed to be witness to such a scene when just moments before Harrison only had eyes for me. The two broke apart, breathless, then Harrison turned to me with sad eyes. "Sanna..." he started.

I held up my hand. "Harrison, I am happy for you, I really am. I think that I should go though." I tucked my hair behind my ear and kept my head low as I made a quick get away out of the restaurant, feeling the hostesses smug smile leering at me as I all but burst out the front door. I jumped into my car and started to head back to my pack territory. My eyes started to mist up with tears and it became harder to see so I pulled over to the side of the road. The tears started to fall down my cheeks as my anger and hurt took over me. "f**k!" I yelled as I hit the steering wheel. "f**k! f**k! f**k!" I screamed as I continued to let my rage out on my defenceless car. My head fell back as my tears fell freely like they would never stop.

Was I upset that Harrison had found his true mate? No, I was happy for him, he was such a great guy and deserved to be happy even if that wasn't with me. Was I upset that Harrison had never once shown an interest in men yet his true mate was a guy? No, I knew that the mating bond was special in that way, it didn't take s****l preference into account. So why was I so sad? Why did I feel so betrayed by him? Maybe I just felt betrayed by fate, that I should spend so much time, loving Harrison, getting close to being his chosen mate, and then on the night we are going to claim each other Harrison finds his true mate. In the restaurant we would never have been in if we hadn't been about to claim each other. Why? Why would I have to go though this pain of loosing someone so close to me, someone who owned my heart? Why couldn't fates be damned and Harrison still decide to choose to be with me? 

There was a time when I was hell bent on finding my true mate, not wanting to settle for anyone other than the other half to my soul. But, after seeing the m******e that happened when Cassy's 'brother' Liam attacked alpha Ash's territory, I had decided that may, just maybe, my true mate was not sat out there pining for me, but could in fact be dead already, or taken by another. Trust me to choose a guy who in fact still had another half out there, living in the same f*****g town right under his nose this whole time. I felt like a fool, a complete and utter i***t for thinking that anything in life would be as simple as finding someone you love and who loves you and settling down for a happily ever after. 

I dash my tears away and restart the car, pulling back out into the traffic. If I am going to have a monumental breakdown then I would prefer to do it in the privacy of my own home. I turned off the main road and down the dirt path that led to the gate, driving slowly as to not completely ruin my suspension. I pulled up at the gate and was not surprised to see Theo still on duty, Theo always seemed to opt for gate duty these days. He looked at me with a confused expression but opened the gate anyway. I drove through and just as I did a new wave of what can only be described as grief washed over me. I stopped and let my whole body shake with the sobs that wrecked through me.

My car door was opened and large arms looped around me, unhooking my seat belt and pulling me from the car. It was Theo. My arms wrapped around his neck as my legs wrapped around his large torso. "Sanna?" he whispered into my ear, but I could not respond, all I did was hold tight to him and cry my heart out.

He started to walk with me in his clutches. He was so warm and comfortable, I did not want to let go. He pushed into the pack house and I could hear the voices of others coming from the living area. Oh god, I had told Cassy about my suspicions that tonight would be the night. Now I would have to tell her I was wrong, so very wrong. I was not ready for that, for her pity. Luckily, Theo didn't take me that way. He strode up the stairs and around the balcony to a room I think was his. He walked in and sat down on his bed with me in his arms. He stroked my hair and back so soothingly with his big strong hands. My wolf was purring and pushing against his touch. Her ego had been bruised and she wanted to know that it was not her that was wrong or defective but the world.

I pulled back slightly and Theo looked into my eyes, wiping my tears away with the pad of his thumb. I leaned into his delicate touch as I kissed the palm of his hand, gauging his reaction. He didn't pull away or look at me with disgust. In fact his eyes seemed to look at me questioningly. I turned slightly and moved my hands to the back of his head, pulling him closer to me. I kissed him softly on his lips, giving him a chance to stop me. He didn't seem to retract so I kissed him again, a little deeper and a little longer.

Theo let out a deep growl and grabbed the hem of my dress, lifting it slightly, his hands skimming over the sensitive skin of my thighs until they came to the small of my back, his hands feeling the contours of my body, holding me to him as he did. The sensation was amazing, his strong hands so delicate against my skin, I wanted more. I continued to kiss Theo's lips as my hands moved down, over the strong muscles of his chest and abs that seemed to bulge and flex under my touch and then up, under his shirt. They glided over his hard muscles that bunched and flexed under my touch again, my core tightening at the strange sensation. I smiled to myself at his reaction as Theo bit a little at my lips for them to open. I groaned and did as he wanted, enjoying his taste, letting him explore my mouth as I explored his.

Theo slowed down the tempo of the kiss, placing three short ones onto my lips before pulling back breathless. "Oh Sanna, you are so perfect." he groaned as my body experienced a shiver of delight at his words. Theo was hot, built like a literal brick wall and sexy as hell, for him to call me perfect was a massive ego boost to me and my wolf. "I can't do this though Sanna." he moved back slightly and removed his hands from up my dress. "You are so sad right now and I am..." he trailed off as his face looked as sad as my own, like my sorrow was reflected in his face. "It's just not right."

I nodded and slowly slid my hands from under his t-shirt. "Your right. I kissed you for the wrong reasons and anything more would be for those same reasons." I gave him a weak smile. "My wolf is smug as f**k you think we're perfect though, even if the truth is far from it."

I slid from his knee and started to walk towards his door. "What happened? On your date night with Harrison?" he said, I could hear a little guilt in his voice as if he had been part of a betrayal.

Without looking over my shoulder I just said. "He found his true mate, and it wasn't me." I felt my eyes sting again with tears as I left his room, not wanting him to see me cry like a baby again.

I could still here the voices from downstairs. Should I go and see Cassy? She was so emotional at the moment with the pregnancy that I didn't want to upset her, but I knew she would find out eventually and I didn't want her to feel I hid it from her. I sighed and decided to get this over with now, cry all the tears I had to cry and then try to move on in the morning.

I walked down stairs and into the living room. "Ste, you gotta be more careful with who you bring home man." Jonny sighed.

"Why? You can't resist my left over honeys?" Ste laughed.

"No, I found one trying to break into Alpha Ash's office. She said she thought it was the bathroom."

"My office?" Alpha Ash asked.

Jonny nodded. "She is in interrogation now, waiting for lover boy. Not sure what she was hoping to get out of trying to pry into your office though, she just started to mutter that she thought it was the bathroom."

"Ste!" Alpha Ash growled.

Ste held his hands up. "Okay, okay. I will not leave my dates unattended on the territory. Makes it easier for me anyway, they get clingy when they spend the night." Ste laughed as he got up.

"Or you could dial it down on the sexathon you seem to be on lately." Cassy offered. "Are you aiming to make your way through ever she wolf there is?"

"How do you know you have found the right one until you have tasted every flavour?" Ste walked towards the door. "Hey Sanna, you okay?" he said as if just noticing I was there.

"Weren't you meant to be on date night with Harrison?" Cassy asked, a bright smile on her face that fell when she turned slightly towards me. "Sanna what's wrong?"

I sighed and walked into the living room, sitting on the chair Ste had just vacated. I told my tale, trying to hold back my tears enough to get it out. My breathing uneven and laboured for my efforts by the end. "... I don't even know why I'm so sad. I mean that is everyone's goal right? Find your true mate? Maybe I was just playing with fire letting myself get so attached to Harrison when I knew we were not meant to be together."

"Sanna." Niomi sighed. "I once also felt that if you weren't with your true mate then you were stealing someone else's partner from them. But the more I think about everything that me and Luke went through, the more I think that the mating bond is more of a suggestion than fate."

"Yeah I mean, me and Ash got together before we felt the pull. So did Luke and Niomi, if we were only meant to be with our true mate, why doesn't it always go off like an alarm bell? Why does it hide behind our subconscious and wait for us to figure it out." Cassy pushed up off the sofa, taking a few attempts before she finally managed to make it to her feet and waddle over to me. "You cannot keep yourself locked away for someone who may not be there anymore." she whispered. "You knew that after the fight with Liam, remembered." I shuddered at the memory, so many had died that day. I heard the creak of the floor boards above us and knew it was Theo moving about. Even more shifters had been taken by the monsters that kidnapped him and Luke. There was a good chance that my mate was dead. I mean one wolf destined to be with another in a sea of millions. The odds were slim to begin with but with all the other horrors in the world. I nodded to Cassy who gave me a reassuring smile. "There will be someone else out there for you. Just don't give up. After all alpha Ash's dad was like five hundred or something before he met Victoria. You think he was a nun all those years."

"I'd rather not think about that." Alpha Ash grumbled and Cassy chuckled.

"It's true though. Bet all your dad's had a good dip of their wicks, just like Ste here." Cassy chuckled as she slid onto the arm of the chair and pulled me to her side. "It's okay to feel sad, you lost someone that you loved. Just because they were not your true mate does not make your love for them any less. It is okay to grieve but don't let this stop you from putting yourself out there." I nodded and allowed a few of my tears to fall.

"She is right Sanna. You can't keep that hot little body of yours off the market." Ste winked, leaning towards me slightly.

"No Ste. Not you." Niomi laughed.

Ste shrugged. "Can't blame a guy for trying." he said with a wink as he started to go back out of the room. "I'll be back after I have interrogated my little Vixen."