"We should be going now, it was good seeing you." Atticus says his hand gripping onto Thaddeus' shoulder as my male stares daggers at the table, his eyes black and body vibrating with fury - the way he's been since I came back to sit.
Julius has been all over me, unapologetically kissing me, touching me and I can see the rage that's built within Thaddeus. I kept telling him to get off of me as kindly as possible to try to put Thaddeus at ease but nothing has worked, all I want Thaddeus to do is tell everyone we're together so I can get rid of Julius for good but he won't.
My brother only occasionally snaps at Julius to get off of me especially when I say no to Julius but he forces his lips onto mine - Darius almost beheads him.
Darius stands shaking hands with Atticus and Thaddeus "Of course, you must be busy. Come on Julius we should be going as well" my brother says to Julius who has me on his lap, lips on my neck as I squirm trying to get off but that only makes Julius aroused "We'll bring my female as well" he says, forcing me to turn my head so he can kiss me sloppily, a growl comes from Thaddeus making me pull away.
'I don't want to go with him, let me stay with my friends' I whine in my mind link with Darius who turns to look at me and shakes his head 'You need to come back, dad wants you spending more time with Julius and his family for when you're mates' he tells me 'I don't like him - he forces me to kiss him, please Darius don't make me go with him' I beg 'Fine'
"She's staying with her friends tonight, let's go Julius" my brother says pulling him up "Come outside Isilee, I want to say goodbye" Julius says, dragging me by my hand without me responding. As soon as we're outside he pulls me into his side "Why don't you come back to my house? You know you'll have fun with me" he says smirking as his hand slips under my coat to grab my behind making me jump, trying to pull away "No thank you, I'll stay with my friends" I reply giving him a tight smile as we reach the car.
He unlocks the car and opens the back door making my brows furrow in confusion as he pulls me around in front of him "Do you need some convincing?" he growls huskily, pushing my body back into the seat, forcing me to lay down with him on top of me, pressing himself between my legs and pushing his lips on mine.
I try to push him off "Stop-" I gasp, wrenching my lips from his but he snarls pushing himself against me more and restraining my wrists above my head in a tight, painful grip whilst I cry and scream beneath him begging him to leave me alone. He growls again "Shut up" he seethes forcing his lips onto mine as one of his hands grips the top of my thigh, quickly moving up my thigh until his hand has the fabric of my underwear in his fingers, slipping the fabric to the side making me sob even louder praying to the Moon to help.
A furious roar jolts us both, and Julius is torn away from me a strangled cry coming from him as I take a gasp of relief. My hands come to cover myself as I sit up, sobs escaping me whilst I try to calm down and recover from the shock.
"Isilee!" Darius runs to my aid, his hand on my shoulders but even that contact has me jumping in fright "Did he-he" he can't finish his words as he looks at me disheveled appearance, I shake my head to relieve him. "But he alm- he almost did" I cry, crumbling as my brother holds me in his arms shielding me from the violence taking place just a few feet away - Thaddeus beating Julius as Atticus and Jasper try to relax him.
"Why didn't you mind link me? I would've come sooner if I had realised - I'm so sorry" he says kissing the top of my head "I - I don't know. I couldn't think properly, I thought he-he was going to" I have to swallow down the words not wanting to finish the sentence.
He presses his forehead to mind, his hazel eyes identical to my father's staring straight at me "You won't be mated to him, I swear to you Isi. I've notified father of what Julius just did and he's furious, he won't let him anywhere near you. We will both make sure of it, Leifer and mom too. We'll tell everyone of his shameful behaviour, no pack will want to be associated with a s*x abuser" he says, anger burning through his eyes as he promises my protection.
He pulls back "My father wishes to deal out the punishment" he tells the males, Thaddeus throws Julius onto the floor spitting on his unconscious body "Take him before I kill the bastard" he growls his body shaking violently as my brother grabs Julius by his hair dragging him over to the car.
Atticus offers me his arm and I quickly take it as my brother comes towards me with a bloodied and bruised Julius "Are you alright Isilee?" Atticus asks me, bending down from his large height so he can see me "Yes, thank you" I whisper, quickly wiping at my eyes as I see Thaddeus pacing the car park looking as if he'll shift any moment.
"Dad wants you home Isi," Darius tells me after stuffing Julius into the backseat, his words cause a growl to erupt from Thaddeus and I notice Atticus' eyes glazing as they mind link "We will care for her for tonight, I'm sure she doesn't want to be near that male after he molested her." he says, Darius nods coming over to hug me gently "Stay safe Isi" he says kissing my cheek before getting in the car and speeding away.
"Take her to the house" Thaddeus orders "Thaddeus I-" he runs off before I can finish making my heart break and more tears leak from my eyes "He just needs to calm down" Jasper says softly taking my other arm. "Does he hate me?" I whimper "He loves you silly, like Jasper said he just needs to calm down. Give me your keys I'll drive your car back to the house" Aurelia offers smiling kindly.
I shuffle through my bag, noticing my shaking hands as I grip the keys still shaken from Julius' attack "You should go with her Dom" Atticus tells him, Thaddeus' brother rolls his eyes and follows after Aurelia as they get in my car.
"Seraphina, Jasper take one car Dahlia and I will go in the other with Isilee." Atticus states with no room to argue and I follow him blindly, I can't help but worry about Thaddeus he seemed so angry with me mostly and I don't understand why. I didn't ask for Julius to attack me. Just the thought of his hands on me again have me wanting to scrub my skin over and over in scorching water to rid of his scent, burn his fingerprints off of me.
"Your suitor seems pleasant" Dahlia sneers from the front seat as we drive "Dahlia" Atticus warns, "What? She is supposed to be mated to him soon but she's been seeing Thaddeus, why not devote yourself to one? Or is one not enough for females like you?" she growls, Atticus growls back his one more dominant "Enough" he demands.
I notice his hand being placed on her thigh as he glares at her, she puts her hand on top of his exhaling "Sorry" she mutters, I see Atticus rub her leg before he takes hsi hand away after lingering.
He clears his throat "I apologise for Dahlia's words Isilee" he says sincerely but I simply turn my head away looking out of the window "No need to, she's forgiven" I say looking down at my hands resting in my lap. "I only said it because I care for Thaddeus, he was struggling to stay sane when you were with Julius" she tells me "I know" I whisper biting my lip in nervousness, unsure how to feel or act.
He slams the door when he enters the house, finally, "Upstairs everyone" he growls and they all follow his order whilst I sit in one of the chairs, nervously playing with my fingers just like I had been since the car ride.
Thaddeus paces the room, until he suddenly stops and turns to me "Do you let all of your suitors touch you?" he snarls making me swallow, trying to keep a calm composure "No" I whisper "You were more than happy to kiss him all f*****g night Isilee!" he growls, banging his fist on the wooden cabinet "I didn't want him to"
"But you let him kiss you! Touch you! No wonder he tried to f**k you!"
"I didn't want him to touch me" I cry, feeling hurt that he's blaming me for this "I told him no but he-he didn't listen, he never does" I murmur, sniffling as I wipe my nose "He's done it before?" he growls before shaking his head laughing darkly "Of course he f*****g has! Everyone of your f*****g suitors have touched you haven't they? And you kiss the bastards back, what else do you do? f**k them? Have you f****d them Isi? All of them? How many? Tell me how many you've f****d!"
"None" I whimper, "I've only been with you and you know that" I cry "But you still let them touch you!" he growls, slamming his hands on the wall "You're mine Isi! Mine! Do not touch any of them do you f*****g understand! You don't touch any other male! Don't kiss any other f*****g male! Don't f**k any of those cunts!"
I burst into tears, hating how he's shouting at me like it's my fault for Julius "We wouldn't have this problem if you were my mate" I tell him, wiping at my tears "If you just spoke to my dad he wouldn't take me to these suitors"
"So it's my f*****g fault?" he growls angrily, gaze finding mine "All you have to do is speak to him and-"
He roars "No! I don't have to do s**t Isi! You are mine! My female! So don't go near any other male! Why should I have to tell you that, you should f*****g know!" his breathing increases, harsh breaths escaping his nose as his fists clench, his body trembling in front of me as he screams in my face only making me cry harder as the male I love is shouting at me.
The back door opens and I turn to see two males coming in "Is everything o-" he's interrupted by Thaddeus' angry growl "f**k off upstairs" he snarls, they bow slightly "Yes your m-"
"Piss off" he snaps making them both head upstairs, each step creaking with their bodyweight, I see him stand up straight in front of me inhaling deeply "You are not to see any more of those males. I don't care if they're your f*****g suitors you aren't seeing them" he orders.
"You need to speak to my dad then I won't see them" I say quietly waiting for him to shout at me again "I am not speaking to your f*****g father! You tell him that your are mine and you won't have any one else!" he growls "I have but he wants to meet you, he thinks you aren't committed to me"
"I don't care what he thinks Isilee. Why do you always want more? I love you isn't that enough for you? Or do I need to be a f*****g Alpha for you and your father to like me?" he snaps "It's not about a title Thaddeus. It's about if you truly love me like you say you do. We've been together for two years and you haven't made an effort to even mark me, or speak to my father to make your intentions clear and have me as your mate. I can't help but question your love for me, your commitment to me because my father's right; it's obvious you aren't devoted to me, you don't want me as a mate" I whimper.
"I f*****g love you! Don't you dare question that Isi! I love you!"
"If you don't want me as your mate just say it" I whisper, closing my eyes as more tears flow from me trying to prepare for the pain, he lifts me up bringing me to his chest "I do want you as my mate" he says softly "Then why won't you commit? Why won't you make it happen? I've been waiting for two years, what's holding you back? What's wrong with me?" I cry opening my eyes to look at his sapphire ones.
"Nothing" he says kissing my cheek softly "You are perfect Isi and I love you so f*****g much" he tells me "So why won't you make me your mate?" I whimper "You already are my female, you're mine and I'm yours" he says "But I'm not am I?" I whisper, pulling away.
"I think I'm going to go home" I say quietly, wrapping my coat around me "Where's Aurelia? I need my keys?" I ask, he doesn't reply only stares at me. I sigh and wipe at my tears as I go upstairs following her scent until I reach a door and knock.
She opens it and I see Dahlia and Seraphina sat on the bed looking back at me "Here you go" Aurelia says softly handing me keys - obviously she heard. "Are you okay?" she asks me "Yes, thank you i-"
"You're not going Isilee" Thaddeus growls, standing at the top of the stares with a furious expression "Just come to bed, forget about everything" he says, grabbing hold of my fingers but I pull away softly "No, it's the same every time. If you don't want me just say it, please Thaddeus you're just hurting me by dragging this out if you're only going to leave me in the end."
"Stop it" he growls as I cry again, "I won't leave Isi, don't say that" he says kissing my cheek as he brings me into his chest and closes the door to the girls' room. He walks us to a room that smells of him "Let's go to bed, you'll feel better in the morning" he says but I pull away walking back downstairs and going to the door, he grabs my hip but I pull away again going out the front door and to my car.
He puts his arms around my waist "Isi" he growls "It's okay. I get it. You don't want to commit to me, you don'y want me as your female. But I need to go, I can't, I can't be here it hurts to see you" I whimper knowing that his lack of an answer to my questions tell me he doesn't want me.
He turns me around staring me in the eyes "I love you, never, ever doubt that." he states "So make me your mate Thaddeus" I plead, turning my head to the side so he sees my neck exposed he growls, but only kisses the spot where I want his mark "I can't"
"Why?" I cry hitting at his chest "Why? I don't understand" I sob feeling my heart ache "Just-just come to bed Isi, stop talking about this. I love you and that's it" he says "No" I cry as he takes out my bag from the car and brings me back inside. I push myself away from him "Stop it, just let me go" I whimper "NO" he roars "You are staying here Isilee" he orders and I feel the power of his command, my body and mind obeying him knowing that I can't leave.
"Okay" I whisper, defeated as I slump on the sofa he sighs and crouches in front of me "I'm sleeping down here" I tell him "Come upstairs baby" he says nudging my cheek with his nose "No" I whimper, not wanting him to show affection when he clearly doesn't plan to make me his female, it just makes my heart ache.
"Do you think I want all these suitors Thaddeus?" I ask "Because it seems like you do. I don't want any of them, I didn't want Julius touching me today, he almost r-r took advantage of me. I didn't want that but you think that I do" I say "So why do you let them touch you?" he asks "I don't!" I cry "They think they have a claim on me because they're a suitor so they touch me, try to kiss me and - I don't want them to. I only want you Thaddeus, I don't want any of them but the only way they'll go is if you talk to my dad and become my mate."
"You can tell them to go, you don't need me to do s**t. So don't put all this down to me" he snarls standing up and walking away from me "Stop talking about all this s**t, I love you and that's it stop trying to make everything complicated Isi. You are mine and no other male can have you so no more f*****g suitors" he finished his demands and goes to the stairs.
"If you really loved me I would already be your mate" I say quietly but I know he's heard by him stopping on the stairs "I do love you" he growls furiously "Not enough to make me yours" I say, my voice cracking as more tears fall.
"Goodnight Isi, I love you" he tells me after what feels like a lifetime of silence, I don't reply knowing if I open my mouth a sob will escape because I know he won't make me his mate and that has my heart breaking.
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Waking up to an angry growl and chatter, I stretch out my body as my eyes adjust to my surroundings and yesterday's events come back to me as I realise I'm in the living room on the couch of Thaddeus' and his friend's house.
"Isilee, you're awake?" Jasper's humorous voice greets me as his honey coloured eyes and golden hair appears above me with a bright smile that I can't help but smile back at. He holds his hand out for me and he pulls me up "Good morning Jasper" I say softly as he lifts me up and places me on the ground making me blush "f**k off" Thaddeus growls, pushing Jasper away towards the kitchen area where everyone else is eating.
His arm slips around my waist hugging me to his bare chest "My female" he sighs, nuzzling my neck but I pry off his fingers leaning away from him "Stop it Thaddeus" I whisper looking at the ground as I hear the breakfast table quieten obviously they are listening to our conversation.
He pulls us together so I'm pressed against his chest and he bends down so his heads on my shoulder "I'm sorry for upsetting you Isi" he tells me kissing my neck softly, I sigh and place my hands on his chest "Do you really love me?" I whisper kissing his cheek because I can't help myself.
He nudges my cheek as his hands tighten around my waist "Yes, so much" he says "Then why won't you make me yours?" I ask "I will, just not now I'm very busy at the moment and I don't want to make you my mate and then have to leave you for a long time it will cause you physical pain once we're bonded" he explains making me pull back ignoring the scoff I hear from Dominic.
"Why didn't you tell me that?" I say, he shrugs kissing my forehead "I would've understood my male" I tell him putting my arms around his neck "So you will make me your mate?" I ask with a wistful smile, he smiles back kissing me softly "Yes. But you're already my female Isi"
I kiss him for longer "And you're my male" I say "I only have a few more hours here Thaddeus but as soon as I'm home I'll tell my dad to stop with the suitors, I don't know if he'll agree but I'll try" I promise him, he nods kissing my lips "I won't be seeing you for a few months now my female" he mumbles into my neck "Why?" I whine, hugging him tightly.
"Work" he sighs "You'll call me though?" I ask to which he nods "I will miss you Isi" he tells me nuzzling into my neck and placing a chaste kiss "I'll miss you too" I respond
"Do you still love me?" he asks "Of course I do" I tell him "You didn't say it last night" he says "Well I do" I reassure him "Say the words Isi" he growls softly pulling back to bite my lip "I love you"
He kisses me deeply "Come upstairs" he says huskily making me blush "Thaddeus" I whisper embarrassed as his friends can hear his suggestive tone. "What?" he smirks kissing my neck "I haven't seen you for a while and I want my female bare beneath me as I'm inside of you" he says "Stop it" I mumble "You don;t want to?" he asks making me blush even more "W-well I do b-but"
"No buts, I want to be inside the female I love" he growls nipping at my neck "Let's go" he says excitedly, bringing my legs up to wrap around his waist as he walks to the table grabbing some toast that he starts feeding me "Eat fast so I can eat you sooner" he growls, I feel myself burning in a mix of desire and embarrassment as his friends are either wide eyed, laughing or choking on their food at Thaddeus' words.