Finally, the day of my scan had arrived. I had been in agony waiting for the next chance to see the jellybean. Emily couldn’t get the day off work, so I was all on my own. Although she had made me promise to message her as soon as I knew, she was almost as excited as I was. Things over the last couple of weeks had been awful. I was in a funk and really hoped the scan would give me some joy to cling onto.
Thoughts about Luca getting married had consumed me. Leaving me restless and feeling more alone than ever. The nightmares were still plaguing me and affected my sleep on a regular basis. Between the nightmares, the pregnancy and work, I was battling constant exhaustion. The lack of caffeine probably didn’t help either.
The parenting classes had been going really well. I was beginning to
