Caylee It feels like the world around me is closing in. I know it isn't fair that I pushed Craig away, but I can't deal with him touching me or trying to tell me that everything is okay. I can't deal with him telling me that he understands, because he doesn't and he never will. I slept in the arms of the man that murdered my parants. I nearly killed my own family to please the same monster that tortured me. I allowed him to use me because I couldn't take anymore suffering, never considering what my sister had to endure. I know she would've been stronger, would've found a way out. As for Craig, he got justice for his family, for his sister. He stepped up and became the hero, became stronger. He found other friends and family and I found pleasure in my enemy. That is what bothers me the mos