"I can pay for some professional tutors to help me, so why do I need to disturb Miss Rachel's time for something like that?" I pondered, grappling with a heavy burden of inner conflict. The necessity of maintaining a certain emotional distance from Rachel weighed heavily on my mind, but against this backdrop, the undeniable reality loomed that she was the designated tutor for my studies. This contradiction left me in a precarious position; how could I navigate my desire for distance when my academic progress depended heavily on her support? "Pay for a professional tutor? Your company struggles to keep your amnesia under wraps, you know? Even the school has made it so that no one will ever speak of it again, so don’t bother hiring someone who could potentially leak your personal informatio