Dark Memories

We can be friends

"My name is Chris Zayn", the other guy said to me which I bluntly ignored. I was done with arranging my stuffs and I actually want my privacy.

Sometimes, when life get too complicated or I feel I needed to do some thinking, I just go to the movies. But right now, I just want this whole room to myself. The sight of Treena, Clark and Zayn disgusts me already.

I sighed out and sat on my mattress. 'I really wish y'all will get the hell out of this room', I said in a whisper, in such a way that no one heard but me.

"You said what? Clark asked staring into my eyes, 'None of your business', I replied and brought out my phone, Treena and Zayn just stared at me without saying a word. "I think I have to get the hell out of this room" Treena finally broke the long silence. 'Same here', Zayn and Clark chorused at the same time as if they all planned it. Then, they all finally left the room.

"Arrgh, finally!!! I said and laid my back on the mattress, looking up at the ceiling.

I really don't know how the hell I'm going to cope with this demented roommate of mine, she slept with those two crazy guys all at once. If momma was here, she would have requested a change of room for me.

I decided to call momma and let her know everything was okay and I've finally settled down in my dormitory. "Momma, where are you right now? I asked her immediately she picked the call. 'Munchkin, I'm with the new date I told you about', she said sounding all excited. "So, how is your dormitory and roommate? She added showing more interest in me; "Everything is cool, I really have a lovely roommate", I lied.

"Munchkin...." She was saying when I heard a male voice on the phone, 'I can't wait to see what you've got for me', the person said in a tempting way. I suppose that is the date momma was talking about.

Soon, I heard momma moaning hard over the phone; I just decided to end the call, I don't want to hear more of those sounds.

Actually, momma and dad divorced six years ago when I was still a little girl, I don't know what really caused the separation but I guess momma just couldn't keep up with dad weird behaviours. They used to be the perfect match until we lost my little brother then, who was kept in dad's care.

6 years ago

"Sweets, help me watch over Derek, I have to drop Mycelia off at school and meet with a client", momma said to dad who was busy with a project on his laptop. 'Sure, drop him in the baby's carrier, I'll take care of that for you dewdrop', dad replied, focusing more on his laptop. Momma just dropped Derek on a sofa chair next to dad and we both left together.

I don't really know what happened after, but my aunt came over to get me in school after we closed in school that day, it has never happened before, it was weird, but I didn't bother asking because I'm a shy type and an introvert to be precise and I actually went to see a therapist once because momma and dad thinks I'm a sociopath but I'm getting better already.

I stayed over at aunts' for a whole week and by the time I went back home, Derek was no where to be found. Things started falling apart since then.

I once eavesdrop on dad and momma's last argument before they decided to separate. "I told you to leave the baby in the baby's carrier and you just decided to ignore that and do as you wish", dad said and he twitched his lips in pains, his eye was red and swollen. "So now you're blaming me for our baby's death", mom said in a whisper as if she didn't want me to hear, 'I told you to watch over him and you just chose your stupid project over my baby', she screamed, losing her temper already. She then began to sob profusely, "you know what? She added and bit on her lower lips, "I want a divorce, see me at my office at 12 to go see a lawyer", momma finally finished her statement, she took her ring off her finger and threw it at dad's face.

That was all.

That is all I can remember so far, I actually blame myself for Derek's death; because, I felt momma would have been there with him if she didn't have to drop me at school, I know I caused it all.

I closed my eye in agony as the memory flashed back, I've never being able to forgive myself ever since, I caused Derek's death, I caused momma and dad's separation.

Since then, I was determined to to fulfill momma's dream of becoming a successful journalist, I decided to put my dreams aside, it was really hard trust me, to put my dream of being a successful artist apart and focusing on momma's dream.

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It was morning, the clock radio started making noise, I was disgusted with the sound; so, I rolled over to the side of the bed and silenced my clock radio, I must have slept off while thinking yesterday, I peeped from under my duvet, it was dark, not even bright yet and this annoying clock radio just disturbed my sleep. I pulled the duvet back over my head and went back to sleep.

"White, what the f**k are you still doing on bed? A voice said to me after maybe an extra hour, or two more hours of sleeping, it sounded like Treena's, but Treena wasn't in the room since yesterday; so, it must be one of my imaginations. I went back to sleep.

"White!!! A small hand started shaking me gently, "Come on girl, get off your duff, it's your first day in class and you're still planning to go late" the voice added. I removed the duvet from my body and gently opened my eyes "f**k!!! I screamed, the day was bright, Treena was fully dressed and she stared at me like I was a fool. I got off bed and wore my flip_flop, I rushed into the bathroom to do the necessary.

I didn't even have the chance to wash my hair, I just poured water on my body and got out of the bathroom, Treena was right on her bed, in the room. "Be fast, I'm waiting for you" she said. "Thanks", I replied, I cleaned my body, wore my undies and slipped on a sleeveless purple dress immediately, I tied my hair in a bun and I wore my black jelly shoes; "I'm done" I said to Treena in less than five minutes and she just laughed and said nothing, we both grabbed our bag and ran to class, Monday morning always sucks.

"Treena, you're late again" the lecturer said immediately we entered the class, she ran her eyes through me and said "And who are you?

"Just someone special" Treena replied instead as the whole class focused on us like we were movie stars. "Just take your seat and don't distract my class", the lecturer said and we both went to an empty seat, we were partners, again.

Actually, I don't like the fact that we sat together, but at least, she acted nice to me this morning and just saved me from the lecturer's wrath. So, I'll let yesterday pass and we might actually end up being friends.

The boring lecturer went on forever, it was like it was never going to end, but I listened attentively, including Treena.

After class, I packed my books into my bag. "Hey, who is this? A purple haired girl suddenly walked up to Treena and asked, "My roommate, nothing more I swear", Treena replied as if she was trying to save herself from trouble. The purple haired girl stared at me for a while, rolled her eyes, then went back to her seat. I just ignored her to prevent chaos.

The class was soon scattered, people made noise, some were walking about and the most annoying part was that the purple haired girl was looking at me like I stole her boyfriend. "You didn't get to eat breakfast, have this", Treena said and she handed me a pack of chocolate and a juice box, "Thanks" I replied after collecting it. "f**k you, Treena" the purple haired girl suddenly stood up again and shouted; then, she came towards me like she was ready for a fight. "You're such a twit" she screamed at me and grabbed my hair, I dropped the chocolate and juice box and also went for a hair, "And you're a nuisance!!! I shouted at her and grabbed her hair harder. The whole class surrounded us and hailed the fight. I was annoyed and there was no way I will loose to this b***h; so, I left her hair and went for her face, I will make sure I spoil that well dolled up face of hers. Treena struggled to get to us and finally stopped the fight, but by then, I already left a big scar on the purple haired girl's face. Treena faced me and said,can "Are you alright", "Yeah" I replied her.

Then, she grabbed the purple haired girl by her hand, she took her to a seat and made her sit down. Treena brought out disinfectants and she applied it on her wound. Then, she dressed it up for her. "She's just my roommate baby", Treena said and she sounded sorry for everything that happened. "I thought you left me for that dag", the purple haired girl replied. Then, they hugged, I mean they hugged tightly!!! "What the f**k is this? I shouted out, then, Clark who I didn't even notice was in the class all along came to me, "You're one good fighter", he said with a crooked smile. "That's Treena's girlfriend", he added. "Girlfriend, as in what? I asked totally confused, hoping it wasn't what I was actually thinking. "She's a lesbian" he said, winked at me then went back to his seat.