ARIEL I felt like I had been punched on my guts , my breath knocked out of me. I couldn't accept what I was hearing. The woman who had been helping me, guiding me in the most difficult times of my life, was married to one of the men responsible for my husband's hostage. Sarah's words hung in the air, heavy with emotion. "My husband is a member of the kidnappers, and is also part of the men that cause pain to you guys," she said, her eyes growing moist. I felt a rapid rise of shock and anger, my mind racing with questions. How could she have kept this secret from me? Why had she helped me if her husband was one of the kidnappers? I gazed at her, searching for answers, but she simply shook her head. "I'm very sorry," she murmured, her voice very low. I was at a loss. I drew a calming