“But do you realize what you’ve come to think?” she asked in dismay, she was incredulous and deeply angry.
“I know that it goes against Nature, that it is a horrible thing … but I don’t know where to turn, I don’t know what to do anymore! When I am alone and I let myself go, I think about how it could end and I feel annihilated. An unstoppable agitation takes me, the level of adrenaline grows in me with despair, with the desire to shout and destroy everything around me, with the desire to escape to a place that does not exist. And so I find myself lying on the ground, paralyzed by the chip like that cursed night, prey to tremendous pain and prisoner of myself. I’ve never told you this before tonight because I didn’t want you to worry about me, but it has already happened to me many times.
