7 The table was barely big enough to hold two cold drinks and our knees rubbed together when Kel edged his chair in and rested his arm on the back of my chair. Back in his personal space, I couldn’t breathe or look away as his intense gaze drew me into a place that was both safe and terrifying. I remembered feeling like this the first time I saw Butch Cassidy and the Sundance Kid. The camera zoomed in for our first good look into Robert Redford’s blue eyes and I turned into a puddle in the plush seat. To a lesser degree I also felt it the first time I saw Dudley Henderson, the star quarterback of my high school football team. Neither of them had noticed me, but that hadn’t stopped me from feeling so alive, I thought I’d die. I knew now people didn’t die from a crush, but that didn’t miti