i heart you

The thermal energy of the sunlight comes through the opened window touches her face smoothly making the sense of a sleeping bird. She could feel the rays on her cheeks, which is both soft and warm to her skin. She could hear the usual sound of the crows which is so irrefutable. Slowly opening her eyes looking the blue sky through the opened window beside her bed she realizes its morning. Her head was so heavy that she wasn't able to get up. Finally she took the efforts and sat in her bed trying to remember what happened yesterday. What has she done this time? All she remembers about last night is that she was arguing with her mother with an ambiguity of manner . Her mother shouted at her,"Jabeen don't you dare you step a foot out of that door." She said with an air of confidence, "Watch Me." and left the house, keeping the doors half opened. As she was walking outside in her yard she saw a car coming. There were her friends in the car waiting for her to get inside. The more she is getting closer to the car , her heart was beating the more faster . She was having second thoughts that, should she listen to her mom stay home at Thursday night and be 'The nerd of the Year' in her class or should she go out with her friends and hang with the coolest people in her school . All she didn't want and was on the top of her list was not to be a 'Nerd' . By the time she reached the car. One of her friends got out from the car. He was wearing a navy blue T-shirt with black ripped jeans. His brown hair was like usually waxed and spiked up. She tried to distract herself from the situation where her mom is really angry with her. She said, "Hey. Nice Tee." It looked like her friend wasn't in a mood to talk and he was in a hurry, so instead of saying hi like he usually does he opened the front seat door which was reserved for her and said, "You ready?" She was a bit shocked seeing her friend react like that. She was also thinking about her mom staring at the opened door of the car. She looked at the door for a second and glanced back to check. She could see her mom through the door standing in a serious way crossing her arns across her chest and waiting for her to change her mind. She didn't know what to do. As always she was indecisive and such things always leads her to wrong ways. Seeing her mom like that she got scared and immediately looked at her friend back, with a nervous smile she replied to him, "As ready as I'll ever be." Her friend rolled his eyes like he wasn't really in a mood for this drama . He shows her the door bringing a tortured smile on his face which seemed fake to Jabeen. She knew he was pissed so without arguing like every day she gets into the car silently . Her friend walks past her and sits in the driver's seat and asks, "Are you going to close the door or what?" She couldn't take her eyes off her mother. But hearing her friend calling her name she closed the door listening. The window of the car beside her was open and her mind was on her mother the entire time that she barely saw there were her other female friends in a back seat of the car. They all shouted together, "Mark, what are you waiting for? Drive!" She hears Mark shouting at them, "I am trying okay?" Mark looks at her like he's going to say something mean to her. Taking her eyes off her mother she buckled up her seat belt up and looked at Mark saying, "Alright let's go." Mark rolling his eyes again and releasing a breath out of frustration turns the keys inside. The sound of the car restarting reaches her ears including her mom shouting, " Jabeen! Don't go out at this late hour. Your dad is going to be really pissed." None of them heard her mother because they didn't care. But she did. Her mind couldn't do anything. Because at that time she thought it's just for a day. So, not caring about her mom's feelings she looked on the other side of the car and turned on the radio ignoring . Mark turned the volume of the song up. And they left the place in the blink of an eye. A sudden breaking of glass takes Jabeen back to her reality. She found herself still sitting on the bed. She is out bursting into tears while thinking why she left in the first place. Because she has no idea what happened last night . Was she drunk ? Did she make out with her ex ? Loads of questions where running inside her mind . Her eyes caught a bracelet in her hand which had written , " Don't worry . God has better plans for you." Thus she got the courage to get out of her bed . Entering her bathroom she first looked at the mirror and this time besides her large forehead she sees the black lines underneath her eyes . After getting freshened up she got downstairs to get some cold water so quench the remainings of last night's thirst for adventures. She is wearing her old black T shirt and panda printed pajamas . As she entered the kitchen fragrance of chicken curry her mom always makes on weekends reaches her nose . It was like she could feel the taste of the curry in her mouth . She is walking slowly towards the fridge so that her mom doesn't know . As soon as she opened the door of the fridge a voice with a soft tone reached her ears , " I made fresh lemon juice for you . It's on the dining table ." She turned back and sees her mom cooking . For a second, she was thinking why her mom is being nice to her after what just happened last night ? But again hey , her mom is always nice to her when it's about her health . She wanted to ask her mom about last night . But again, she wasn't interested to start a fight with her. She is about to leave the kitchen and something said in her head , "Ask her . It's now or never ." So, she took the guts to say , " Mom how drunk was I last night ?" Her mom stopped cooking . She looked at Jabeen right through the eyes saying , " Why would you want to know that? You were completely ready to make us the worst parents in this neighborhood." After hearing her mom Jabeen didn't say anything. She was speechless. She was trying to get out of her own mess by leaving the kitchen avoiding the conversation . Her legs moved forward but her mom stops her adding, "Don't leave." with harsh voice. She stops standing firmly saying " For your information, it's the first time I got this drunk and you think it's my fault ? " Jabeen's mom shouted furiously, "First time? You have been doing this since the past week." Jabeen didn't like the conversation . She didn't anything to say anymore. She knows that she can use some fresh lemon juice to ease herself down and so she leaves while her mom sighing hie sighing goes back to what she was doing. But when she got to the table she sees the glass empty standing in the middle . Her head got so hot that it was like lava coming out of her brain. She screamed saying, " ADIL! AHIL! COME HERE NOW YOU IDIOTS. " At that time her screaming was louder than the full volume TV on. The twins came running towards her when they heard her horrible screaming . The tall one said looking at her " What do you want from us now ?" with a sarcastic tone . Jabeen said loudly , " Who drank my juice?" crossing her arms. The short one says, " It wasn't me . It was Ahil" pointing at Ahil, Ahil looked at Adil saying , "Hey, you promised me you won't tell her ." Jabeen knows it was one of their those tricks again. Apparently, Ahil doesn't drink juices much. So, it must have been Adil. She pulled the ears of Adil saying , " I know it's you " Adil says laughing , "Okay, I am busted." trying to push her hand off his skin. Adil knows how to act . He started acting like it hurts a lot . Ahil like always steps in to rescue his brother by removing Jabeen's hands from Adil's ears pushing . Jabeen looked at Adil arching one of her eyebrows saying , " I am going to tell dad that you guys are dating and you know how much he hates dating at this age . I mean I don't even remember dating when I was 13." Adil and Ahil looked at each other and started laughing. Right now, they know exactly what they need to say to get out of this trouble . Ahil said , " But i do" "WHAT" . Jabeen was confused. " Yes we do remember. You even cried after your breakup when you were telling us bedtime stories. I mean who does that?" Jabeen wants to tell them the real reason she cried but again they are just kids. She shouldn't be sharing these things with them . Ahil started saying again , " If you tell dad about us . Then we will tell him about the new guy you are dating " Jabeen knew she has nothing against them now. So, she saying nothing she left the room quietly . She goes to her room and lays down on her bed looking all over it. Clothes everywhere, it smells like alcohol and Chips . She is hurt after listening those things from her own brothers. She is about to call that one person who has always been there for her . Just as the moment she took the phone on her hand the screen flashes with his name bringing a smile on her lips. " Hey man! Sup? I was just about to call you." " Hey , are you okay?" his voice seemed caring. " Yeah why?" " You know last night...." "YOU KNOW? " she got up sitting o her bed curious to know. "Yeah." Aabir sounded quiet on the phone which was making Jabeen more scared. Her heart was racing. "What happened really?" her voice was husky. "You forgot again?" he says annoyed with a hint of careness. "No( giving that cheesy smile she gives when she's nervous)" "You don't remember a single thing, do you?" Aabir says as Jabeen biting her tough replies. "Really ? Stop . Just get to the point" " Well honestly nothing really happened . You just got drunk like always and I bought you home when I found you" Aabir esplains releasing ten tension off Jabeen's face. " You were there?" She says remembering. "Yes." " But you said that you weren't invited." "Yes but then you ex called me to pick you up." " My ex? He was there too?" Her voice was suddenly high thinking about him. "Yes" Aabir affims. " Ohh .. Okay... Anyways I was just drunk? I don't believe you." She says mildly hoping it was true. " Well, don't freak out!" her heart rt started beating faster. " WHY?" Her breath got heavy. "You got baked." Aabir says slowly yet the words were piercing her ears. " f**k! No! You are kidding right?" She leapt keeping her hand on her hear as she can feel the beatings getting higher. "Ehh ! No." Aabir replies wiry his head down. Jabeen gets quiet on the phone . Being scared about her deeds . Then Aabir breaks the silence saying, "If that makes you happy , I got there just in time and got you home. So, no pictures were taken or stuffs happened." "You sure ?" Her voice got a little happy. "Yeah" he smiles assuring. "Thanks dude , that really does make me feel better. Thanks for always being there for me ." she says as she later down on her pillow relaxing, holding the phone close to her. Aabir didn't say anything like he was waiting for something and there was a pause for a few seconds and Jabeen couldn't take it so she breaks it saying, " Are you okay?" her voice seemed scared. But Aabir didn't answer and comes up with a question fixing his throat. "Can i ask you something?" " Yeah?" Aabir was silent on the phone . Jabeen knows he does that when he's nervous about something . Before Jabeen tries to ask him again what wrong , she hears her dad's footsteps coming to her room . Jabeen's heart starts pounding out of her chest . One question came onto her mind, did her mom tell her dad about last night ? Then, she would be dead . She was now in a state where both her body and mind were paralyzed .