I wanted to go and check Gabe was ok, but right now Esme and Mateo were by his bed, and I felt it was necessary to let them be with him. Dan and I were standing in the corner of the room. Both quiet, both watching the scene in front of us.
I wonder if he is full of emotion and turmoil like I am. It doesn’t feel right seeing Gabe like this. He is a warrior, he is not meant to be weak and vulnerable in a hospital bed. Not to mention quiet and unable to be cracking jokes, having a laugh like he normally does. It feels so wrong in so many senses. It makes this whole situation so much more scary to me.
That probably doesn’t make sense. But that is how it feels. He looks ill too, and that is not good. I hope these Drs are able to help him. I truly do. My gut feeling is that I want him taking
