Chapter 6 - LOGAN
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I watched as Lilah walked from the room, knowing I shouldn't have kissed her the way I did. It was just instinct, or maybe habit. I don't know. I wanted to kiss her, I know that much. But I wanted to kiss Ani earlier too. How does this work? My poor brain was struggling to comprehend.
"Logan" my Dad boomed, "have you dealt with this?!"
Are you f*****g serious?! I fumed internally at my Dad. Like it's as simple as just letting Lilah know I'm done with her and that I'm with Anya from now on. Oh yeah, all done Dad! f*****g d**k!!
But knowing better than to talk back to my Dad and Alpha like that, I just looked up at him with distaste clear on my face. "Well, she knows if that's what you mean!"
My Dad slammed the door with enough force to make the wall shake as the door hit the frame, and then he crossed the room in about three steps to the chair behind the desk. He flung himself onto the seat and sat with his arms crossed, his dark grey eyes looking at me.
"I know this isn't easy Logan, we thought Lilah would be your mate, we all did, but the moon goddess does things for a reason, and she put you with Anya. You can't mess with that".
I stood staring back at him, knowing I couldn't yell all the things I really wanted to say to him.
An Alpha has to be shown respect, even by his son and future Alpha, so I had to listen to what he had to say...
You can't kick off, even if he is being a total tool, he'll kill you. Yeah he's stating everything you already f*****g know, but still... stay calm Logan, I spoke to myself internally trying to stop myself reacting to my Dad's insensitivity.
I don’t want to be here with him, I want to check my Lilah was ok. But, is she even mine anymore? s**t! I can't think like this can I?! They're going to be expecting me to be apart from her. End everything with her. How can I do that? She has been such a massive part of my life for so long, I don't know that I can. Sure, I have Ani there now...
I thought of Anya. We've been friends for years, but she doesn't know me the way Lilah does and doesn't have the same connection we had. This isn't right, there has to be some mess up somewhere. Maybe I can reject her and take Lilah as a chosen mate instead? But the pull to Anya was strong, it felt so good... f**k I don't know, fate was one big f**k up!
"Logan, I know you love Lilah, she's like family to us all, but that is what she will stay now. Family, a pack member, the daughter of my Beta." Dad was breathing deeply as he spoke, clearly thinking carefully about his words "You have been blessed with a beautiful mate who will work with your mum to become a wonderful future Luna."
Dick.
"Dad please" I interrupted, not wanting to hear all this, not wanting to think of another girl in the Luna role, when for so long it was a role we'd spoken of Lilah being in. I'd always imagined Lilah as my Luna, and now things were messed up, and I didn't know where to go or what to do.
"No Logan, it's true, you have been blessed with meeting your mate young, she's someone you know well, that your pack know and love. She will make a wonderful Luna. And you are lucky to have been blessed with a mate, you know that." Dad continued.
Fuck he seems on a mission today to hit me where it hurts, like this whole s**t show isn't hard enough already, I just need a recap from good old Dad...
"You need to accept that Lilah was never yours in that way," I could feel rage building up inside of me as my Dad was saying these things. Why the f**k does he have to speak like this?!
"Our goddess has other plans for her, she must have," he continued, looking at me. I could feel I was shaking in anger as he was talking. "She is fated for someone else..."
I could take no more, the thought of Lilah with someone else filled me with fury. I flew from the room.
Slamming the door as I went, storming straight out of the pack house as I went, not even looking back, knowing the one thing I needed was space, maybe a run, and the one thing I could now do was go in my wolf form. I headed toward the forest ...
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