Burning Hearts

Chapter Thirty-Eight

Tana

I rubbed up against the erection poking me in my lower back. The smells around me are driving me insane with lust and desire. I moved my hand because I wanted to grasp his d*ck. I want it in me. As I moved my hand, I grazed another erect d*ck in front of me. I cracked my eyes open. I didn’t know what was happening. I wasn’t sure I could stop it either.

I rubbed over Brayon’s d*ck with my hand on the outside of his sweats. I continued to grind my hips against whoever was behind me. I needed more. I climbed over Brayon and straddled him. I could see the lust in his eyes as much as my own. I glanced over and saw Orien watching me. I leaned over and claimed Orien’s mouth in a searing kiss.

I ground on Brayon, and I rubbed Orien outside of his sleeper pants. They wouldn’t touch me. I stopped kissing Orien and kissed Brayon. I felt guilty for doing this. I really love Casen more than anything, but I love them as well. I tried to will myself to stop. I felt like I was cheating. I can’t control it. Their scents are calling to me.

“Tana.” I heard from the doorway to the bedroom. If I thought Orien and Brayon’s scents were driving me insane, Casen’s was damn near killing me. I lunged off the bed and at Casen. I kissed him fiercely like he was the air I needed to live. I hadn’t realized that Orien and Brayon had left our room. All that mattered to me was that Casen had me on the bed and had thrust deeply inside my body.

I cried out in bliss to be full. There was an insatiable fever in my body, and I needed Casen to help extinguish it. I pushed and rolled us until I was on top. I rode him hard. He met me thrust for thrust. I scratched at him and kissed him. I was punishing. I bruised his lips, I’m sure, with my kisses. Finally, as my body crested to the peak, I buried my face in his neck and bit his mark hard as I came over and over.

I could feel Casen as he filled my body with his release. I collapsed on his chest. I had no more energy to hold myself up. Suddenly, I was shivering because I was really cold. Casen pulled the blankets around us to cover me. It wasn’t enough, but I didn’t have the strength to tell him or to move. I felt the tears trickle down my face and into Casen’s neck.

“I’m so very sorry, Casen.” “For what?” “For what you walked in on. I just couldn’t help it. They smelled so good, and my body yearned for them. Well, until you came into the room. Your smell drove me over the edge. I didn’t mean to cheat on you. I really didn’t.” “You didn’t cheat Baby. We talked about this. I know you can’t control how you feel about my brothers, just like I can’t fully control how I now feel about Robyn. I love you more than anything, but I love her too. I know this is difficult to process in human form, but if we were in celestial form, each of us would probably be making love to both of you every chance we got. We all shared Juno for so many years. I started to worry she couldn’t bear our sons until I think she became determined when we wanted to save Earth and protect her. It allowed her to open herself to Ravi to give birth to Micah on Earth.”

I sniffled. “So, you don’t hate me?” “No, absolutely not. They are your husband’s too, though I want to marry you by Earth’s standards.” “Yes, I can’t wait to be your wife officially on paper. I love them, I really do, but you still drive me insane with need, desire, lust…” “Hmm, I like hearing that because I feel the same way.”

I couldn’t stop my body from trembling. “You used too much energy, didn’t you?” “Yes. I need to eat. Warmth isn’t going to help me enough. I feel like I need to eat a mountain of meat.” He chuckled in our mind link. “Robyn thought as much. Let’s dress you some and get you down to the dining room. She made sure you would have a mountain of food. I was coming to get you and didn’t expect you to have the energy to have s*x.” “It filled an emptiness I needed to fill, but sadly I think it drained what little energy I built. Why were Orien and Brayon sleeping in our bed with me?” “To keep you safe and protected. Forcing Valac out of you took a lot out of all of us and it drained Robyn and me the most.” “WHAT?”

Casen dressed me and wrapped me in a blanket as he carried me to the dining room after dressing himself again. He asked if I knew what happened last night and I told him no. He hasn’t elaborated and I’m scared of what happened. When he brought me into the dining room, the table was piled with food, especially meat for me.

“Drew, I need your help. Will you hold her and warm her so I can feed her?” “I’ll feed her. You still look tired brother.” Michael said. “I’ll help too,” Kalina offered. Drew pulled his shirt off and took me in his arms and sat me on his lap. Kalina unwrapped the blanket, allowing Drew to lift the back of my shirt and press his naked chest to me. He held me around my mid section, gently resting his hands on my stomach where my babies are. Kalina tucked the blanket around us and in behind Drew. I could feel the heat being trapped in. Michael and Kalina took turns feeding Drew and me.

I glanced over at Orien and Brayon. “I’m sorry if I did something wrong. I couldn’t help it. Casen understands and I. Well, I just hope I didn’t impact you both negatively.” They shared a look. “We want you, Tana. But only if you want us. That is why we let you take the lead. Breaking you free of Valac must have opened that deeper connection to all of us. We all couldn’t control our bodies' reactions to you last night.” Orien explained.

“I still don’t understand what happened.” “You don’t remember?” “No, and Casen said we all needed to talk about it together.” “F*ck” Brayon replied.

“She doesn’t know what happened, Casen?” Brayon blurted out. He looked up from his plate. “No, she doesn’t seem to remember or know.” “Somebody needs to tell me.” I said, across all their minds. “Not right now. You need to eat and get warm. When you are taken care of, then we’ll sit down and discuss things. Just eat. Please.”

I scanned all their faces that I could see. They seemed to want me to eat, so I would eat. I gave a slight nod. It felt like they sighed internally at my response. It took a couple of hours before I felt full enough and was warm enough to stop shivering. I watched some of the time as Kalina and Drew’s baby pressed out in her stomach with a kick or a punch. I kind of couldn’t wait to feel and see that. Watching their baby kick helped to calm me some too.

When I could be freed of my blanket cocoon, I reached for Kalina’s belly, stopping just before I touched her. “It’s okay. Go ahead.” I laid my hand on the last spot. I saw the baby kick and waited. I had to wait a few minutes, but then I felt her belly get pressed in a quick flutter in my hand. I loved it.

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I sat on the couch watching tv and had to snatch another tissue. I’m out right sobbing like someone has died and what happened to trigger that response what watching a baby trip on wobbly legs and fall to the ground landing on their b*tt. There was a knock on the door.

“Come in.” I stuttered in a sob, gasping for air. “Oh Tana,” Michael said as he came into the room. “What happened?” He asked softly. “The baby, the baby…” I grabbed a tissue to blow my nose. “The baby, fell, fell, on his, b*tt.” I wailed out as I gestured to the tv.

Michael sat next to me and in behind me. He lifted me into his arms and curled me into him as he tucked my back and side to the inner part of the couch and pulled the blanket down over us. “You’re going to be fine. I’m here. Just try and rest.” I continued to sob as he handed me tissues. He stroked my hair and back and gave kisses to the top of my head.

I couldn’t go to class the past couple of days. I can’t seem to control my emotional state. Casen finally told our professor that if she was uncertain, we were a couple, and I was pregnant and haven’t been feeling too good. I balled to miss class too, but she understood and told me to take the time I needed. She knows I will catch up as soon as I feel better. So, while Casen and Orien have been in their classes, everyone here has been trying to help me. Sadly, only the brothers seem to be able to console me even in the slightest. They can’t leave me alone for long though, before I somehow end up in a blubbering mess out of the blue.

They still won’t tell me what happened almost two weeks ago. They’re scared of something happening, though I don’t know what. Only that it pertains to Valac. I really wish I could tell them that Valac is actually a demonic fallen dark celestial angel called Ornias that can shape shift. He consumed the real Valac and took on his form of a two-headed dragon in dragon form and a small boy that looks about eight to ten years old.

I really don’t know how I’m going to guide them to understand. They are dealing with a force, I’m unsure if they have heard of him. I don’t know if anyone knows about Ornias. It will take all of us, and I mean all of us, to defeat Ornias. He fooled Juno and the brothers into thinking they needed just them, but they won’t be enough.

I sobbed while thinking about ways to guide them into making the right decisions. I don’t want the fate I saw if he should win. I know I wanted to tell them he would destroy all of us, but that wasn’t true. He will capture me, and he will breed his evil spawn onto me and my daughters for all eternity. He will turn Ayne’s fire black as the darkest void in space. He won’t even spare Juno. He’ll kill her in front of all of us and that would break the brothers. We will all feel her death as if it is our own, which will allow him to defeat the brothers and capture me. I can’t stand against him on my own and he knows that.

I felt Michael pull me tighter in his embrace as my sobs started to subside and his smell soothed me enough. I could feel myself getting drowsy and I let the sleep claim me.